Sunday, December 6, 2009

I said hello to Mark Guzman. Continued to chat with Michael for a bit. I worked on Michael's Farm Town. Then read the next 2 chapters of my book before taking a short nap. Woke up...saw my cute boyfriend on cam and chatted him up some more. He's still watching Season 30 of the Whoniverse. He's over half way through the season now. In the last 24 hours or so he's watched an impressive amount:

30x08 Adam
30x09 Partners in Crime
30x10 Reset
30x11 The Fires of Pompeii
30x12 Dead Man Walking
30x13 Planet of the Ood
30x14 A Day in the Death
30x15 Eye of the Gorgon 1
30x16 Eye of the Gorgon 2
30x17 The Sontaran Stratagem [1]
30x18 The Poison Sky [2]
30x19 The Doctor's Daughter [3]
30x20 Something Borrowed
30x21 Warriors of Kudlak 1
30x22 Warriors of Kudlak 2
30x23 From Out of the Rain

He'll finish with that list tonight.

I'm downloading the full version of the latest Doctor Who Animated Special; when it's done I'll have all available Whoniverse episodes until the Christmas & New Year's Day Specials.

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Michael & I just said goodnight. He's going to bed. I have random energy. Not sure what I'll get up to.

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I watched "Turn Left". I read a bit. I slept a bit. I had a nightmare that I delivered roses to Michael's aparment and found him with another man. I woke shaking. I wanted to go see him, to scare away the nightmare traces from the waking world, but worried that I might be going to see him just to make sure he wasn't with another guy. I don't want to have to do that all the time...but I really wish I was in his arms right now. It's always so lovely.

I responded to an e-mail from my cousin Jennifer; it was sent through Facebook. I checked on the farm. I read more of my book. It's getting stranger as it goes; I hope I can keep up with all the oddities.

The church bells were just ringing, and I was struck that it's dawn.

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I had a snack. I watched the combined 'Dreamland' episode; still enjoyed it. I wonder what time Michael is getting up; he has to be at work at 3pm. When he has to be in at 1 he gets up at 10, so I'm guessing noon. I have to be at the dentist at this time tomorrow, so even though I'm tired I'm gonna try to stay up so I won't be tired tomorrow. I wish I had a wider variety of food to eat, but my jaw problems are mostly to blame for that. :-0(

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   Monday, December 7, 2009

I finally went to bed around 11:30am I think. I slept well. The phone ringing woke me up around 7pm; I missed the call; it was Michael. I didn't want to wake up but knew I needed to harvest our farms so I started that, and called Michael back; leaving him a message, letting him know I was going back to sleep. Mark was having a bit of an emergency, so I helped with that, and then went to sleep as soon as the planting was finished, apparently missing another call from Michael. Oh, and he'd texted me around 2pm to tell me he loves me. It's sort of a double edged sword, those texts from him...see, they're sweet, but at the same time, he used to text me sweet sounding texts right after he'd fucked some other guy, so it makes me feel good to get them, but then makes me wonder if I've missed something. It's odd, and hopefully that goes away someday.

I had beautiful dreams about family; life in the city; working on art and crafts...windy summer days in the sun. It was wonderful. Waking wasn't terrible though, because the wonderful feeling came with me. I called Michael back; left a message. I need to shave and shower. I'd like to go to the store and get some more food. Stop by Michael and get a great big hug. I have to leave for the dentist in less than 8 hours.

Mark is going to sleep as I get up.

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I talked to Michael on the phone. Nice. I shaved and showered, and visited Michael while he finished up his laundry, and the fantastic Doctor Who episode "Forest of the Dead"; he had watched "The Unicorn and the Wasp" & "Adrift" before going to work. Then Michael went with me to the gas station, and I spent some time chatting with him at his apartment before heading home. My stomach was troubling me, but a snack, and watching a bit of news seems to have calmed it down. Michael watched the next 2 episodes of Sarah Jane ("Whatever Happened To Sarah Jane?"), then went to bed. That leaves him with only 10 more episodes in Season 30, before entering Season 31 (the currently airing Season) with it's 35 episodes (2 not aired yet. Actually, there may be a 36th episode if I can find an episode that fits nicely into place at a later date, but for now, there are 35. lol. I could ramble about that for hours...but I won't. I worked on Farm Town a bit; there will be more of that tonight. I may go bowling with Michael tomorrow afternoon... And Mark & I have to leave for my dentist appointment in about 1 hour and 15 minutes; getting my jaw measured for my new bite guard, which should be ready in 3 weeks time; so between Christmas & New Year's (or between "The End of Time, Part I" & "The End of Time, Part II"). Speaking of the 10th Doctor's finale...I feel strangly underwhelmed by the trailers for it, but I think they're holding back on a lot...in fact I know they are, so we'll see how it plays out.

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   Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Mark & I made it to my 9:20am dentist appointment a few minutes early, despite several dramatic detours involving missed exits, snow, a stop at a gas station to save our car, and random directions through back roads. We managed to keep our sense of humor for most of it, and my appointment went well (though my jaws have been more sensitive since the stretching they got at the office - and not in a kinky way). I should be able to pick up my bite splint a week from Wednesday.

After the dentist we headed back to Ann Arbor. We went to Whole Foods, the post office, the bank, and then home. I went to bed about an hour later. I slept extremely well, and has some fantastic dreams - more dreams about family, church trips, and Michael as a sexual werewolf, with nightmarish (but hot) sexual imagery. It was awesome. But I got up around 7:30pm, so I could sleep later, and be up for Bowling with Michael later today.

I sent Michael some friendly / hot e-mails, and messages on his phone, Manhunt accounts, gay.com account, and Facebook. I had a feeling he was having a bad night and wanted to cheer him up. Also sent him so old pix of us. The effort paid off with smiles from the bf, who had a terrible night at work. He watched "Exit Wounds", & "The Lost Boy, Parts I & II". 6 more episodes of Season 30 for him.

I later, quite by accident, stumbled upon one of his ex-lovers (one of the ones he cheated on me with) telling Michael that he missed Michael fucking him, and that if Michael were with him right then, that he'd let Michael do it again. He was made aware that I had seen this and that he had hurt me, as in previous encounters he had said he wanted to be my friend as well. He said he was drunk and didn't mean to hurt anyone; especially me. We'll see how it goes from here, but that did sting quite a lot, though it was handled rather graciously on our part, I think, given the inflamatory words that were typed.

I'm sleepy, but I have the new Graham Norton to watch, and I'm hungry. I may have a snack and watch that and then sleep. Mark will be driving me out to Michael's work this evening and then the 3 of us (or possibly the 2 of us) will be going Michael's work party: bowling. I'm excited I get to meet Michael's coworker Heather after talking to her online for about 8 months!

Oh, and the Abarat book continues to amuse, which I think is why my dreams have been so good lately. ;-0)

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I feel like someone just walked over my grave. Like I just missed something important. I don't know. I'm losing it.

I've not been able to sleep. It's starting to stress me out. It's my fricking jaw. It's throbbing. Ouch. I took a valium, and that should kick in soon. So sleep is possible. But I'm worried it will upset my stomach, and I really want to be there for Michael; I don't want to disappoint him today. I love him so much. ;-0)

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Ugh. My acid reflux is in overdrive. Like...I layed down...felt myself drifting off...and then ACID in my mouth / throat / PAIN. Ick. This prilosec version they have me on now just does not work.

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   Wednesday, December 9, 2009

I did eventually get to sleep yesterday afternoon (after more 'prilosec' and Zantac); maybe 3 hours. Mark drove me out to the bowling alley to meet Michael & his coworkers. The smoke wasn't bad at first so Mark stayed to bowl a round. After the first the smoking level went up and Mark left, sending us a text when he got home to tell us the snow had returned and was worse, and to be careful.

It was fun chilling with Michael and his crew. I bowled a bit. I drooled on my boyfriend. I'm really enjoying our time together lately. We left in a good mood I think. We had some serious talk in the car. The snow was worse than the other day, and stayed. It made driving annoying, yet memorable. We stopped at Kroger for some non-dairy frozen treats (for Michael) and some lube. We showered the smoke off when we got home, and had some sexy fun. Hopefully Michael is negative, because even when protected it's not 100% and it makes me slightly nervous, though it felt natural and wonderful; like it did before I found out the truth. We're gonna be ok, he & I, I think.

We showered again, then snacked while we watched the last 5 episodes of Season 30 of the Whoniverse. Michael was excited to see Rose again, and seemed sad but satisfied by the season ender; he said it was cool to see all the shows crossover like that. We went to bed directly after and I had nightmares about Daleks. Seriously. Which is sort of odd because I've never (not even once) found them the least bit scary, but my nightmare Daleks were nothing like the tv show's so that explains that. I can't even describe them for you, as they weren't exactly physical in nature, but mental, psychological. I woke up around 7am, cradled in Michael's arms.

I'm starting to trust Michael a little bit more. It's comforting to trust your partner, yet it scares me as well, because I trusted before and it nearly destroyed me. Hopefully that doesn't happen again. Hopefully it doesn't. Because I'd really prefer a happy ending this time. Yesterday marked 3 months that Michael's been faithful to me, while we've been dating now for over 8 months.

I was hungry when I woke so I had another snack, and started reading the news. I sent Michael some fun messages. He got up for a bit, and said he wasn't feeling well, but he's slumbering peacefully now. I'll crawl back in bed with him when this entry is complete.

I just read an interesting interview with my childhood crush, Geroge Michael. I never stood a chance with him, but I still wish I could have met him back in the day. ;-0)

I look forward to cuddling with Michael for a bit, and then getting up to clean the snow off his car. Seriously. I look forward to Farm Town today, and reading my book, which is really, really weird, but I'm enjoying it. If I wasn't broke, I'd send a copy to Mollie. My jaw seems to be hurting a little less than yesterday (when it hurt really terribly), but that might just be because I've not used it much today. We'll see.

Michael has just 33 episodes of the New Whoniverse to see before Christmas, 2 of which are 5 minute type mini-episodes, while most of the others are 25 minute long Sarah Jane Adventures. I'm certain he'll be done by Christmas, which means we'll be able to watch the final 10th Doctor Specials together. I'll then give avi discs to friends. I told Mollie I'd send them to her, for example. She wants more DS9, but I don't have the discs I need, and I can't afford them at the moment. I miss her a lot.

Anyways. I'm off.

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Cuddled with Michael. Got him off...gladly. Went to clean his car off, but the snow was mostly gone and his car was clean. Walked him to his car and he was off. I'm sore.

:-0( Oh well. It was worth it. ;-0)

Traded some texts with Michael. Showed a cool Rachel Maddow excerpt to Mark, and helped him with his e-bay stuff. Mark's playing rockback while I wait for my farm to be ready to harvest.

I'm realizing that I didn't sleep much last night. After I do the Farm Town thing I think I'm gonna cuddle up with my book, and sleep as it hits me. That's the plan anyways.

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   Thursday, December 10, 2009

I read a chapter of my book and went to sleep around 4pm, sleeping about 7 hours, getting up a bit after 11pm. I forgot my dreams, but my waking moments were wrapped up in what I'd do if I could make Terminator 5. lol. I pulled myself out of bed when I saw that I'd just missed a call from Michael. I called him back and we talked as he drove home. He let me go shortly after that as he had to do the dishes, and wanted to watch some Sarah Jane before bed (he has to be up EARLY. He has tomorrow night and & Friday morning off, so we might get together tomorrow night. I sent him another e-mail. It's fun sending him stuff online, but it's weird too, because he so seldom goes online anymore that I'm never sure when he'll actually get the messages! lol

Looking at Doctor Who stuff now.

31x33 The Waters of Mars
31x34 The End of Time, Part I
31x35 The End of Time, Part II

All 3 of those specials will be available on DVD & BluRay on February 10, 2010; that will make 22 of the 35 episodes that comprise Season 31 of the Whoniverse. Hopefully I'll have some sort of income by then, as I like having the new stuff on DVD. There are so many older installments that I'm behind on. :-0( Oh Well. I do have access to all the available stories in one format or another, so I'm not being denied anything really; I just like having the DVD's in my collection; I have a folder of DVD's comprising the Classic Series (Doctors 1-8) and a smaller folder for New Who (Doctors 9-11, Sarah Jane, Torchwood & K9).

Anyways. I just realized I'm very hungry. I'm gonna take my meds. Have something to eat. And probably start the next section of my book.

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Slept about 3 hours this morning. Got up, and stayed up randomly. Watched the mid-season finale of Glee. Showered. Ate. Had some issues there, so couldn't sleep after that. Did the Farm Town Thing. I'm so exhausted. I want to sleep, but I need to clean my room. Michael might be coming over tonight. Maybe he'd be up to just crawling in bed with me and sleeping? I don't know.

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Trying to keep my distance from Mark to not piss him off in my sleep deprived state, I've managed to piss him off just the same. I didn't mean to...just everything annoys me when I'm tired. I know this. I tell Mark this, and it upsets him that I'm upset, taking it personally, when I tell him it's not. I'm just exhausted, but can't sleep, and my eyes are burning up in my head, but I can't sleep. My head is pounding. The painkiller not working. Ugh.

I'm listening to the same George Michael track over and over again ("Waiting For That Day"). It seems to calm my nerves slightly. I shut it off for awhile, thinking it would help with the headache, but I found that I missed it. It's not loud though so I think it's fine.

Mark asked why the person I was writing online doesn't annoy me if he does. The thing is, the person online isn't 'talking' or standing near me, or any of the things that I become hyper-sensitive to when I'm tired like this. I'm not sure that makes sense, but I could chat with Mark on the computer right now and that would be fine, but seeing him is something else altogether.

I'm feeling kind of out of it. And I'm annoyed that I couldn't sleep earlier...cause I want to see Michael.

He just called while I was typing that. Says I should try to sleep and if I wake up like, say around midnight he can still come over cause he doesn't have to sleep until 4am. I was hoping he'd want to sleep sooner and come over. :-0( Oh well. Not sure I can sleep anyways. He says that even if he doesn't come over tonight he was planning / hoping to come over Friday night and stay until Sunday - if that was ok with me.

Mark wants to go get vaccinated against H1N1 tomorrow. It would be nice to have that vaccine. I could go clubbing in 10 days time without worrying about catching anything worse than a cold - and a cold would be bad enough. Coughing with my jaw fucked up is a new level of hell.

Anywayws...gonna brush my teeth, and lay down now I think. Give this a try.

I love you Michael.

I love you too Mark, and I'm sorry if I pissed you off. I'm just tired and bitchy. Don't take it too personally.

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   Saturday, December 12, 2009

I went to sleep around 8:30pm Thursday night, with the instruction that if I woke up by midnight I was to call Michael and he would join me. But in the mean time, he had watced 2 episodes of Sarah Jane ("Secrets of the Stars") and gotten several messages I'd left him recently on several of his accounts - inspiring him to leave his viewing behind and join me in bed at 9:30, which surpised the hell out of me, waking up with a headache, at which point Michael went right to sleep, snoring in my ear, with me unable to sleep for the pounding in my head. Eventually I took some midrin and did get some sleep; later making love with Michael, watching "The Next Doctor",and getting still more sleep, before getting up around 6am.

Mark & I went to get the H1N1 vaccine & some groceries from Kroger around 10:45am. Michael was set to leave the condo for work around noon, so I didn't expect to see him. We got LC on the way home, and Michael ended up leaving, but taking a personal day to save man hours and get some stuff done today (his final HIV test / oil change for the car / bill payments). After eating I got ready and Michael picked me up so I could go with him.

We went and got the HIV test at his doc's office, though he only went to the lab. We then had the oil changed, which took 45 minutes. In that time I spoke to my grandmother, who informed me that my father had spoken to her 4 days before, and is staying in some kind of home near or on Ecorse Road, that he has a broken bone, having apparently been hit by a car! There were no more details. I shared this news with Janice, who gave me some tips for searching out his location. Jordan also talked to me about outing himself to an interviewer for gay rights issue. Cool.

Michael (at my request) took me to the Plymouth cemetery (Riverside?) where he had cheated on me on September 5th, while I had attended a game night with my friends, which he had been invited to. He showed me the spot. It did bring some emotions up, that hit me at random throughout the day, but they weren't overwhelming, and I was glad to have seen the spot, as it took away some of it's power over me.

Later, we got some food, and went to pick up David, who we took to 7 11 to get his bill money, then Borders so he could get Fight Club, while I got the 2nd Abarat book (for just over $8.00!), then to Sam's Club so David could get groceries, only he didn't get anything. We headed back to their apartment to do laundry (at their laundramat type building), which was ok, yet hard on me as my belly was a bit upset & I was growing ever more tired...plus I kept thinking about my dad, and also randomly of Michael's indiscretion - which is complicated by the fact that it sometimes, randomly, turns me on - while simultaniously hurting me deeply. While doing laundry we watched 3 Sarah Jane episodes ("Marker of the Berserker, Parts I & II", "The Temptation of Sarah Jane Smith, Part I"), before going back to the apartment, and then going back to my place.

We watched the next Sarah Jane, the 2 mini-episodes of the season, and started "Enemy of the Bane", when I went to sleep. I woke during the episode and pointed something out to Michael, at which point he shut off the episode, claiming to have drifted off a few times, and that he had his mind on other things.

I slept until around 6am. Got up. Had a snack. Worked our farms. Read my e-mail. Watched Michael sleeping (he's so beautiful), updated some stuff and wrote this. I should send a message to my Aunt Debbie about my dad's condition, but maybe I should try to find him first; see if I can get more info? We'll see.

Michael has to get up for a meeting with one of his managers at 10am. He might be transferring to a different Arby's, but it's not a sure thing yet. It's just a possible option. I hope that meeting goes well. He's planning on heading home after that to shower / change, and then join me for another night. ;-0)

He has about 12 / 13 days to finish catching up on the Whoniverse if he wants to watch the new specials with me as I see them. He has 22 episodes left, but at the rate he's watching I'm sure he'll have them done. In the last 2 days he's managed to watch:

31x01 Day of the Clown I
31x02 Day of the Clown II
31x03 Secrets of the Stars I
31x04 Secrets of the Stars II
31x05 The Next Doctor
31x06 Mark of the Berserker I
31x07 Mark of the Berserker II
31x08 The Temptation of Sarah Jane Smith I
31x09 The Temptation of Sarah Jane Smith II
31x10 Music of the Spheres
31x11 From Raxacoricofallapatorius with Love

Watching Season 2 of Sarah Jane as part of a cohesive Season 31 of the Whoniverse, I'm finding that I enjoy it far more than I did when it first aired. My only pet peeve about Sarah Jane is it's weak (IMO) 3rd Season finale - which is also part of Season 31 of the Whoniverse. This may be offset by inserting another episode at a later date (between "The Waters of Mars" & "The End of Time, Part I", or the content of the closing Doctor Who Specials.

I downloaded the 2 latest Dollhouse episodes. I kind of want to watch more of this season, but I think it will be more satisfying until I have the remaining 5 episodes, the last of which airs January 22nd, just as Caprica begins. ;-0)

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I had a snack, and then cuddled with Michael until he had to go shower. I was forbidden from joining him, as he didn't have time to get anything started with me. lol. Michael left for his meeting. My stomach was slightly upset...I finised Dollhouse 2x02 "Instinct", which I started about 3 or 4 weeks ago I think. I took a nap. Just woke up.

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Michael's meeting was supposed to be at 10am. But I've not heard from him, and it's been about 2 hours. Though...he did say that the person he's meeting with is often late...or a no show. So...maybe I'm worried about nothing. I mean, I sent a text a half hour ago, but his non-response could be because she was late and he's still in the meeting.

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Michael's ok. He had a 3 hour meeting. Everything went ok, I guess. Though he's not transferring out of that hell hole he calls a 'work environment'. He's running some Arby's type errands, then coming out this way.

My belly's a bit upset. Not sure I feel like doing anything. We'll see.

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Michael came over much later than expected (he stopped at home first) and I was about to try my first organic / non-dairy pizza, but Mark & I had an emotional moment, which set off my over-sensitive stomach, making it impossible to eat...or have sex with my boyfriend. We watched some Whoniverse, but I eventually went to sleep, and soon after, Michael joined me. Sleeping until around 8pm. He woke up to check the time, and a text, before getting dressed to smoke, and watch more Who downstairs. I was to sleep more but heard a video game playing downstairs, and went to see what was going on (hearing Mark's voice as well, I thought maybe Michael hadn't gotten to watch Who and that I could help), but Mark was showing Michael how to get it started. I returned upstairs, and checked my e-mail, writing a long replay to my friend Jamie, and then wrote this. Now I don't know if I should sleep...or get up?

I should take more prilosec though, I'm certain of that.

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Cute. No Spoilers Here:

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