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   Monday, December 1, 2008

A mostly miserable day. All kinds of things have gone wrong today. Little things. Big things. Things I didn't see coming. Blah.

My sole comfort today has been Harry Potter. Which is odd as I'm now reading the darkest book in the series. I just read about 150 pages without realizing it. I'm in the section of the book that I remember being slow before, and it is, but I think some of that was that I was reading the book so quickly before, while this time I'm taking a lot more time. The sheer darkness of the storyline impresses me. It seems hopeless. The others in the series dabbled in this kind of terror (most effectively in volume 5), but this is make it or break it time, and every storyline is reaching a fever pitch, down to the wire kind of excitement. And then you have this slow patch that is almost unbearable. Erg. I remembered that I loved Kreacher in the last book, but I couldn't remember why. I remembered the books was like reading about the Nazis, but I couldn't remember why. I remember the book in those kind of terms.

The weather outside is (you guessed it) frightful. But I still might attempt to go to Necto tonight. I haven't been there in about a month, and haven't gotten any exercise. And my eating lately has been pretty sugar heavy. Which I've been ok with. Chocolate has been my constant friend since August. I'm trying to lighten that though. Drinking more water, and trying to eat different foods. The roads are, I guess, pretty terrible though, so maybe I should hold off and try to go (ick) Friday? I don't know.

I watched the new Sarah Jane episode; just 1 more to go this season. If the rumors I've heard are true, or even if they aren't, then Seasons 2 & 3 might be combined in one season of the Whoniverse. Say for instance, that the 10th Doctor were to guest star in an episode next season - that would cement the 2 seasons together. And I'm rambling about stuf nobody cares about but me...and even I won't care if I reread this later. lol Suffice it to say that I already have a guess on how it all plays out, based on rumor, theory, guess work, wacky notions, and a few strands of useless information.

Mark is on his way home and is picking up pizza. Yum.

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   Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Mark & I ate our delicious pizza and watched 'Dorian Blues' which we'd both seen before, separately. We enjoyed it the 2nd time around as well. Mark talked me out of going to Necto with his horror stories. Mark wanted me to watch 'Knocked Up' but it didn't interest me, so he showed me a scene from the movie which made me laugh - only it's a deleted scene. So the scene I liked was the deleted scene. Figures. I've seen a couple of movies where the best scenes were deleted. 'Bounce' springs to mind. lol

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Ok. I just read some good NON-Spoiler BSG related news, which is that the prequel series "Caprica" has been greenlit. The pilot has been finished for some time I believe, but it was thought that this would air and then the series would be made or broken based on ratings for that movie. The writers has spoken out against this, saying that it needed a full season to give people an idea of what the series truly was, but I didn't expect them to get their wish and was content to just get the Caprica pilot episode as a kind of special feature for my BSG collection. Now it looks like we'll be getting more than just that small taste, and I'm thrilled about that. It might suck. I'm not saying that it's going to kick ass, but I trust these writers.

The next thing I read, which I actually read first, is a SPOILER concerning the series of 'webisodes' set between the 4.0 and 4.5 - which will be posted online 2 per week for 5 weeks, then debut on television the night before the final 10 episodes of Season 4 begin their run. I will provide SPOILER space for the this information, which has NOT been confirmed...and which does NOT pertain to the final Cylon, but to 2 somewhat background characters. 1 has been with the show since the beginning, and has been a major player in the show, but I've never considered them a main character - the other I couldn't pick out of a crowd. If you want to read the unconfirmed spoiler, scroll down.

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It's rumored that in the upcoming webisodes (this set is titled "The Face of the Enemy"), that it will be revealed that Felix Gaeta is gay, and that he may share a kiss with Hoshi, a former officer of the Battlestar Pegasus. For all the horrible things that happened on Pegasus, it seems to have been the GAY Battlestar. :0) I really hope this is true, as I've thought of Gaeta as gay since the get go. The webisodes will start being posted, 2 a week, December 12.

Places I read this rumor include:

http://galcticasitrep.blagspot.com

http://www.scifi.com

http://www.aintitcool.com

http://www.darkhorizons.com

The official description of the 10 webisode series is that they tell a story that takes place between seasons 4.0 and 4.5 of Battlestar and follow Lt. Gaeta when he is sent off in a Raptor with a handful of strangers and one of them mysteriously dies. The psychological human-vs.-Cylon struggle is played out in the restrictive confines of a Raptor as everyone is a suspect, and paranoia sets in among the group. Grace Park (The Sharons / 8's) & Michael Hogan (Saul Tigh) also star.

BSG should finish it's run on March 20, 2009. Followed later in the summer by the tv movie "Battlestar Galactica: The Plan". The Caprica series is said to begin shooting in 2009 for a 2010 airing.

All this news reminds me that I'd planned on rewatching all of BSG before Season 4 begins, which gives me a little over 6 weeks to watch like 68 episodes. I probably won't do it though. I might start watching the old ones when the new series starts and try to get done before the last episode airs; that would be kind of cool. We'll see. Maybe I'll wait until the whole damned thing is done. lol. I don't know.

I'm listening to the soundtack to Season 3, which I just got. I love soundtracks.

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I watched the first episode of BSG last night. Not the entire miniseries, but the first episode of that. It's pretty easy to see where you should stop each episode though they've been edited together on DVD; there are sections where the screen goes dark for several seconds. And if I've got that wrong, then I just watched the first section of the miniseries. lol. I'd rewatched the miniseries once before, but aside from 'Razor' and 'Downloaded' I don't think I've ever seen any of the other episodes more than once. It still makes me smile to see the Firefly class ship fly by in that first segment. :0)

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   Wednesday, December 3, 2008

I chatted with Trevor last night. I read more of Harry Potter; I'm on page 502. I finished the BSG miniseries, and I've started rewatching it with the commentary track on. Gaeta is so crushing on Baltar. This is why BSG is fun to rewatch. Because of all the character revelations that come out later, and change the way you see things. I'd suspected & hoped that Felix could possibly be gay, but if the webisodes confirm this, then I'm pretty sure this explains a lot of the Gaeta / Baltar stuff too. Awesome.

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Rewatching the BSG miniseries with the commentary on was insightful, as the commentary was recorded while they were just finishing up the 2nd or 3rd episode of the actual series, and had no idea what was to come. I was really tired though, so I sort of dozed in and out of it, but wasn't bothered by this.

I slept well; woke up around 10am. I got Mark up for work. Mark now works from 2pm-11pm, for the next few months I guess. It's an odd thing to get used to.

DJ called me around 2:30 and told me he loved me! lol. When I asked what was going on, he was watching the Doctor Who DVDs he'd borrowed from me and had just gotten to a scene in "The Poison Sky", in which the 10th Doctor makes a joke referencing a popular 9th Doctor story. DJ says he's loving the 4th series and he says that he thinks that Donna is the best companion! :-0) I agree. We also talked about Rose (he's digging her odd appearances), Pompeii & the Adipose (he loves the little fat creatures) and he let me go as he was so excited to continue watching. And now I can't wait to hear what he thinks of the finale! He's got 8 more episodes to go, but he's already watched 7.

I left Mollie a message, telling her about DJ's call and some BSG stuff that I've noticed while watching the first 2 episodes of Season 1. I had a snack. I'll probably read some Harry Potter now...then watch more BSG while I eat my late lunch.

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Mollie has to see this. It's Prop. 8: The Musical, featuring Jack Black (as Jesus), Neil Patrick Harris (also known as 'Dr. Horrible'), John C. Reillly, Kathy Jajimy & Margaret Cho. Cute.

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I've still got over 100 pages left in the final Harry Potter, but the book already managed to make me misty eyed several times, again; I nearly cried once, which I'm sure didn't happen the first time I read it. The first time I was reading so fast that I couldn't take note of some of the large events, as the end of this book is just one large event after another after another.

I'm starting to get a bit of a headache; it's actually pretty bad. I'll take some Midrin and maybe take a hot shower.

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   Thursday, December 4, 2008

I just finished Harry Potter about 15 minutes ago. I enjoyed it more the 2nd time I think, because I understood a lot more of it, and how much of the groundwork for it was there from the very first volume - which I didn't put together the first time around. The first time I read it, I kind of felt like the Hallows were sort of pulled out of nowhere and were a kind of lame answer to everything...only this time, having read the 6th one just beforehand, it just felt...more right. A great ending to a fantastic series. If I had one complaint, it was only that there wasn't a larger epilogue that explained what happened to ALL of the characters.

   posted by Bald Jason at 12:50 AM
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Ok. This entry won't be pleasant for some, so if you're feeling squeemish today, feel free to skip this entry. This entry will also be very sexually graphic, so if you're at work - skip it and come back to it later if you're interested.
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Ok. So I've had IBS for 3 or 4 years now. IBS = Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Basically what this means is that I often had severe bouts of diarrhea, with the occasional constipation thrown in. I was not tested for this, but told that I had it, by a rather annoying doctor whom I never saw again. When I asked another doctor about this; one that I actually trusted, he agreed that there really wasn't a test and that all my symptoms demonstrated that I probably had IBS. I began taking medication to treat the symptoms, which I finally have (mostly) under control.

Ok? Still with me? Things are looking better now.

Only there's this type of bug (actually there is more than one) that would cause these symptoms which gay men are prone to getting which would cause my syptoms. For those clueless morons who aren't in the know - I'm gay. And the gay men that tend to get these bugs the most are those that engage in rimming. That's guys that tongue their partner's assholes. Now I know that probably freaks some people out, but it's really not that bad as long as you're partner is clean - and it's not soley a gay thing either, as lots of straight couples do this as well. It's a common sexual activity. It's also possible to get these bugs from infected people without rimming; sometimes without having sex at all - and not everyone knows they have these things.

Here are some demonstrations:

Ok. Now we're clear what rimming is. And I can tell you I love this activity. I've been with 70 men. And I've rimmed or been rimmed about probably 60 of them, if not, more. I was always told that it was a low risk activity for transmitting HIV, and that it was probably a safe activity. Only there are these bugs that I didn't know about that I may have, that may have screwed me over big time. And I'm not alone. I have a friend that I know, who has the same symptoms I do, who is an avid rimmer. And I'm not sure he even knows about these things either. I mean...I know I read somewhere, some kind of vague warning about parasites - but it wasn't clear what it meant or what the symptoms were...so I was thinking when I finally read this stuff that I was just stupid, but I've now read than most men who become infected had also been in the dark about this, which makes me feel less stupid. lol

Oh some of the bugs that can be transmitted this way include Giardia, Shigella, Amebiasis & Cryptosporidium. These things are often nasty, painful, and dangerous.

Now the thing is, even if I have one or more of these bugs, it's kind of hard to test for. And if I did have them, it's usually treated I think by a series of antibiotics, but after they're gone, you can catch them again the next day - there's no cure or vaccine for this thing. And then there are some that can't be treated. And since I can't imagine sex without rimming, I'm thinking I'd probably catch it again fairly quickly (as apparently, people aren't getting tested for this and not getting the info they should be), so the questions I have for my doctor are...can this thing hurt me more than it already has? I mean...my symptoms are pretty much under control now, so should I do nothing? And probably having had this type of infection for several years, has the damage been done? And what about my friend? He (like so many of us) doesn't have health insurance. And why wasn't I told about these things before? And not in some vague kind of way. Why, as a gay man with these symptoms, wasn't I asked questions about my behavior and given information? Reading about these things is terrifying. This is the kind of thing I should have been told about in a High School sex ed class. This is the kind of thing that makes me not want to have sex at all, ever again.

Of course I might be jumping to conclusions. But it's hard not to. But that's what's on my mind.

   posted by Bald Jason at 11:40 AM
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Ok. More bad news. A few months ago my monitor started acting weird. I thought it was dying. But then it just stopped and began working fine. Just a fluke. Well it's fluking again!!! Make it stop!

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My monitor got better for awhile...now it's like I'm having a really bad acid trip.

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   Friday, December 5, 2008

My monitor is working for the moment.

I want to talk about something new. I know anyone reading this is probably wondering what there is that I haven't talked about on this website, but there are a few things that I don't talk about here.

I have an eating disorder. Most of my friends and family know this, but I'm still so ashamed of it, and the humiliation it brings. My docters that I've had over the years have never known. I find it almost impossible to discuss with authority figures. And when I have struggled to eat new things, terrible things have happened. Some of this, I fear, is psychologial. I mean that my body has real problems, but it's possible they are manifestations of my fears. It's complicated, and I'm not used to trying to describe this in a forum like this. I feel very vulnerable...and I'm tired of feeling that way.

My stomach was really upset tonight.

And while I was sitting in the bathtub (because taking a hot bath seems to help me relax), I started to ponder my body. And my eating disorder and the other things that I don't talk about to my doctors, or that I've avoided in the past, and I realized that they're probably all connected. And I got angry. And I realized something that I think a lot of people understand that I'm just now grasping. Peoples' bodies are wonderful. Every part. My body is wonderful. Every part. Inside and out. It's not something that needs to be hidden, or kept secret. And if something or someone has done damage to my body, then it's not my job to perpetuate that secrecy. I know this must sound so basic...and silly. But it feels like a revelation. I actually called Mark in to talk to him about it.

There's this other part of me, that I've mentioned here before. I feel...like I'm a little crazy. Not enough to be called crazy, but enough to be troublesome. I change. Things that are incredibly clear one day are out of focus the next, and I'm scared that I might lose this insight. I want to hold on to this. Please help me remember this.

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:15 AM
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Mollie should appreciate this interview with her lover, Alan Rickman.

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I got like 5 calls this morning. I got a call from the doctor's office about a blood test I'd given. I need to lower my sweets and get more exercise, both of which I was planning on doing all on my own, so I feel fine about that. I had a missed call from my friend Mike, though he left no message; I gave him a call back and left him a voicemail. I'm guessing that he called as he probably needs some new Whoniverse discs. I got a voicmail from my Dad asking about hanging out with me & Janice, which I've already spoken to her about, weeks ago. She said she wanted to find out when the kids are going to be on Christmas Vacation before setting that up. I called her to see if she'd found out, but there was no answer, and when it got to the machine it asked me to give my remote access code. It's done that a few times in the past and I think it must be something that happens when her machine is full or something. I called and tried to make an appointment with my G.I. Specialist, but the soonest she can be seen is my appointment in February. That really sucks. They put me on her cancellation list, and will call me if anything opens up. Until then, I'm not sure what I should be doing... I'm kind of in the dark.

My monitor is working fine at the moment, for which I'm grateful.

I started reading the 2nd Terok Nor novel again. I had read most of it months ago, and had stopped to read something else and just never got back to it.

I watched several episodes of Battlestar Galactica last night; I finished watching "Bastille Day" then watched "Act of Contrition" and "You Can't Go Home Again". Great show. It's odd watching the early episodes, knowing all the twists that the show will take later on. Without giving too much away, it's just weird watching the show, knowing that some people are Cylons, while some of them don't know. And rewatching all of Gaeta's stuff is now having the same effect. And it's also odd getting to know 'Boomer' again, as I'd forgotten how moving her storyline was...while also watching 'Athena' come into her own... It's just...so weird. But cool.

When Battlestar Galactica is finished, there will be 80 episodes by my reckoning, not including "Caprica". That's less than half of what DS9 had, and yet BSG's story seems to be unfolding at exactly the right pace and isn't dragging anything along. Some of these 80 episodes are 2 hours long, and some of them are less than an hour. Some of them have extended cuts, or are movies or miniseres installments. But here's how I breakdown the series:

Battlestar Galactica:

00 Caprica: The Series
01 Razor Minisodes 1-2, 7 (Part 2)

these are the minisodes that weren't edited back into 'Razor'; they take place before the miniseries, and I believe they should be taken as an episode until themselves; a kind of pre-series minisode.

02 Battlestar Galactica - Miniseries, Part I
03 Battlestar Galactica - Miniseries, Part II
04 33
05 Water
06 Bastille Day
07 Act of Contrition (1)
08 You Can't Go Home Again (2)
09 Litmus
10 Six Degrees of Separation
11 Flesh and Bone
12 Tigh Me Up, Tigh Me Down
13 The Hand of God
14 Colonial Day
15 Kobol's Last Gleaming, Part 1
16 Kobol's Last Gleaming, Part 2
17 Scattered
18 Valley of Darkness
19 Fragged
20 Resistance
21 The Farm
22 Home, Part 1
23 Home, Part 2
24 Final Cut
25 Flight of the Phoenix
26 Pegasus (extended cut)
27 Resurrection Ship, Part 1
28 Resurrection Ship, Part 2
29 Epiphanies
30 Black Market
31 Scar
32 Sacrifice
33 The Captain's Hand
34 Downloaded
35 Razor (Extended Episode)
36 Lay Down Your Burdens, Part 1
37 Lay Down Your Burdens, Part 2 (Extended)
38 The Resistance Webisodes (1-10)
39 Occupation (1)
40 Precipice (2)
41 Exodus, Part 1
42 Exodus, Part 2
43 Collaborators
44 Torn (1)
45 A Measure of Salvation (2)
46 Hero
47 Unfinished Business (extended cut)
48 The Passage
49 The Eye of Jupiter (1)
50 Rapture (2)
51 Taking a Break from All Your Worries
52 The Woman King
53 A Day in the Life
54 Dirty Hands
55 Maelstrom
56 The Son Also Rises
57 Crossroads, Part 1
58 Crossroads, Part 2
59 He That Believeth In Me
60 Six of One
61 The Ties That Bind
62 Escape Velocity
63 The Road Less Traveled (1)
64 Faith (2)
65 Guess What's Coming to Dinner
66 Sine Qua Non
67 The Hub
68 Revelations

These episodes have yet to air:
69 The Face of the Enemy Webisodes (1-10)
70 Sometimes a Great Notion
71 A Disquiet Follows My Soul
72 The Oath
73 Blood on the Scales
74 No Exit
75 Deadlock
76 Someone to Watch Over Me
77 Islanded In a Stream of Stars
78 Daybreak, Part I
79 Daybreak, Part II (Series Finale!!!)

Some of the above episodes will be extended, and it's possible they will have even longer cuts on DVD.

80 Battlestar Galactica: The Plan

(Tele-Movie set during the mini-series - meant to be viewed afterwards - which, seems likely to explain the Cylons oft referenced plan; almost all Cylon models will be featured in this film)

The 'reimagined' BSG is a character drama that is also a cool science fiction story that deals with humanity. All the characters are flawed to some degree. The series deals with issues of sexuality, addiction, frailty, gender, freedom of choice, freedom of religion, war, love, fear, hope.... The series is often unrelenting in it's darkness. It's brave television and deserves to be seen, and to run it's course. Hopefully the ending is handled well.

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I read some of my book; I have about 40 pages left, but this book is the 2nd of a trilogy, so I'll probably just dive right in to the next one.

I worked out for the first time in at least a month; probably more. And when I say I worked out, I mean that I danced to some really rockin' mashups, in my room. Not much I suppose, but it's exercise, which is what I need at the moment. I might go to Necto tonight as well, but I don't usually do a lot of dancing on Fridays so it might be pointless.

I updated some stuff on my webpage, jacked off and took a shower. Now I'm going to eat and watch an episode of BSG.

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I watched 2 episodes of BSG: "Litmus" & "Six Degrees of Separation". I ate while I watched. After that I checked my e-mail, and looked onlie to see if Trevor was around, but he didn't appear to be. I took a nap. Just woke up.

I dreamed I was in Milan and Trevor was hiding from me at a nearby house, with some other people; a boy and a girl. I drove passed as they hid in plain view and I pretended this didn't bother me. I drove in town, which was suddenly Ann Arbor, though in my dream it was still Milan, and I saw that the Milan Fair was in town. I wondered if Trevor would maybe like to go, then remembered he was hiding from me, so decided to leave my shopping cart on the side of the road (I know, right?) but that seemed rude as someone might need a shopping cart, so I carried on through the crowd on State Street, with the cart. I started seeing rides from the fair, and some looked like a lot of fun, and would have been the envy of any theme park. I was on a roller coaster with Grace Park from BSG ("Boomer" & "Athena") and we got stuck...and she jumped off, thinking she was really a cylon and not just an actress...and I wept for her. And...I was sad also, selfishly, that they wouldn't be able to finish the show now (which is already finished). And I woke up sad, with "This is How it Goes" by Aimee Mann stuck in my head, and with my stomach feeling slightly cramped. Wrote this.

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I looked online for Trevor, but he didn't show up. I left him a message. I'd call him, but he might be asleep, or out having fun with friends and I don't want to intrude or annoy him. Maybe I can call him tomorrow.

Mark has been such a help to me in the last 24 hours. He's trying to help me eat; to help me with finding foods I can eat. Part of my eating disorder is I sometimes blank out the foods that I do like... It's like my brain freezes. Grocery shopping is often agonizing, as I walk down the aisles trying to find anything that I enjoy eating. It's very depressing for me. And anytime I find something new I can eat, it's eaten in large quantities for the next few weeks or months, depending on what the item is.

I like bread. I like toast, and garlic bread, and garlic toast. I like toast with peanut butter on it. Buttered toast gives me heartburn, though I like it. Cinnimon toast or sticks. Bread is good.

I like carrots. I like celery, but not as much. I like dill dip with my veggies, and I've never understood the obsession that people seem to have with ranch dressing.

I like green grapes. I like apples. I like oranges to a degree, but they're very acidic and I don't love the texture of them.

I like nuts. (funny)

I like thick custard style yogert. I don't like the kind where the fruit is inside it in bits. I like the thick creamy variety. Raspberry is my favorite flavor of almost anything.

I don't like Kool-aid.

I like really thick, chocolate or vanilla shakes, though I don't like chocolate ice-cream, and never have.

I like yellow cake. I used to love chocolate cake, but now think it's overrated.

I like chocolate chip cookies. Actually - I love chocolate chip cookies.

I like lots of potato chips, though probably not as many as most people. I like the light plain Pringles. I like Nacho Cheese Doritos. I like the plain Tato Skins.

I like cheese sticks, though they can be hard on my stomach.

I like sunflower and pumpkin seeds.

I like green olives.

I like cinnimon rolls.

I like glazed doughnuts from Benny's Bakery in saline.

I love pizza from Littel Caesars. Well done, stuffed crust pizza. I also love their Itallian Cheese Bread, and Crazy Bread. :)

Chatting with Trevor (horray) - gotta go.

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   Saturday, December 6, 2008

I chatted with Trevor for about an hour. It was wondeful. We talk so openly and he really set my mind at ease about some stuff. We might hang out later.

While chatting with Trevor, Mark got home with the grocerines he bought me (with my grocery money). He's such a sweetie sometimes. He went on and on about the cold, and pretty much talked me out of going to the bar, which is fine. I'll stay in, stay warm, and watch more BSG. ;-)

Also while chatting with Trevor, I got a sweet text message from Travis about my last entry which says:

"I LOVE chocolate chip cookies too! I knew we had lots in common. Hope you feel better soon! <3
Travis"

Awwwwwwwwwwwww. Thank you Travis. :0)

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:07 AM
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So...where was I?

Food I like:

Bacon. I'm not much of a meat eater. I think it's kind of gross actually - the eating of dead animals. But bacon is yummy. That and a few random pepperoni are really the only meat that I eat, unless you're counting sexual innuendo.

I like raspberry Pop-Tarts; the kind that are frosted.

I like popcorn, but I don't like the way bits of it get stuck in my gums so I dont eat it very often.

I like rice flakes; Special K.

I liked the reduced sugar Froot Loops (the regular ones are kind of gross - I'd rather eat a bowl of sugar) - but I can't find them anymore, and I think they stopped selling them.

I'll think of more foods that I like later. Actually, I'm thinking of compiling a list like this on my website somewhere - and really opening up about my eating troubles.

Mark is reading the last entry, and questioned me on who Travis is; he had to make sure that Travis is the former red head, former boyfriend of mine. When I confirmed that he was, and that he reads my blog, Mark said he didn't know because he never leaves me comments and called him a bastard. lol. He didn't say it in a mean way. So - Travis if you're reading this, leave me a comment by clicking on the comment button at the bottom of the entry.

And doesn't that last sentence just bring back all kinds of memories, what with the words Travis, bottom and entry. Travis is a top. I'll let you guys sort the rest out. lol

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:26 AM
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I ate and watched the "Flesh and Bone" episode of Battlestar Galactica; episode 11 by my reckoning. That leaves 5 more episodes in Season 1. I may watch another one before I sleep. Though with this series, when you say 1 more, it sometimes leads to 3 more. lol.

   posted by Bald Jason at 03:18 AM
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I just woke up. I had really cool dreams. I remember Mollie Baker & Carrie Knauss being in them...and assorted superheroes. I can't really remember the specifics, but they were enjoyable. Oh. I do remember visiting Mollie and she had dyed her hair a deeper red. And I dreamt I was having a party at my parents house, but that I was running slightly late so I could pick up doughnuts from Benny's Bakery. yum.

I watched 2 more Battlestars before I went to sleep: "Tigh Me UP, Tigh Me Down" & "The Hand of God". Just 3 more in Season 1. There are only 16 episodes (to my way of thinking) in Season 1. There are 21 episodes in Season 2, and 3 of them ("Pegasus", "Razor" & "Lay Down Your Burdens, Part II") are longer than average episodes. There are 21 episodes in Season 3, including 1 extended episode (the spectacular "Unfinished Business"). There are 22 episodes in Season 4, of which there will be some extended episodes, though which ones (aside from "Battlestar Galactica: The Plan") are unknown at this time. The mid season webisodes start airing in 6 days. Season 4.0, which features both the televised & special edition of the "Razor" episode, and the first 10 episodes of Season 4, will be released on DVD 1 month from today. Season 4.5 starts airing January 16.

   posted by Bald Jason at 02:45 PM
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I ate.

I watched the first season of Gotham Girls. I downloaded episodes of shows I've missed. I'm way behind on 'Terminator', 'Heroes', 'Star Wars', & 'Ugly Betty'. I may never watch 'Chuck' again; I don't know. I still have to watch 'Weeds', 'Dexter' & 'Lost'.

I updated some online profile stuff. I'd like to do a major update on the poetry section of my website, but I don't know that I'll get to that anytime soon. But it's on my mind.

I'm washing the dishes, and a load of laundry. Separately. lol. I picked up some clutter in my room; I'm always picking up clutter in my room. I somewhat made my bed.

I haven't heard from Trevor, so we're probalby not hanging out tonight.

I need to shave. I've got a beard again. I haven't shaved in 8 days.

   posted by Bald Jason at 06:39 PM
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