Thursday, March 1, 2007

I just woke up. I only got 5 hours sleep because it was so hot in my room; ick. I'm so tired! But I have to get ready for work and stuff, and Mark wants to go the Sprint store after work today, so they can "fix" my phone, which I don't really need. When I try to go to my voicemail, it goes to a different phone #'s voicmailbox - but all I have to do is call my phone own # to get to my voicemail. I do want it taken care of, but it's not required that I do that today, when I could be getting the sleep that I was deprived of last night because Mark had the heater on.

But I'll probably go anyways...because last night Mark freaked out about me having to get the mail, and bring in some bottled water from the car that I bought us. I understand the water part...sort of. But the mail? My stomach was really upset at the time, which I told him. When it's like that I don't like to have anything touch it, so I was naked and Mark was fully clothed. But when I asked him why he didn't get the mail he said it wasn't his turn!?! Like he was in 3rd grade or something. I don't understand why it was so important for me to suffer, just to get the mail, that he could have gotten in far less time. Especially since I was planning on getting the stuff anyways; I just wanted my stomach to settle first.

So now I was getting pissed, which makes my stomach more upset...which he knows...or he would if he had a heart or a memory or some combination of the two, which he apparently had removed sometime ago. I wanted him to leave my room. But if I tell him to get out of my room, he tells me I'm being mean...so I asked him to please leave my room, without raising my voice. And then he didn't move; and what I didn't say before is I'm laying in bed and he's hunched down right on top of me...just staring at me, which I find annoying. I just wanted him out of my face. I asked him again, and pointed out that I had asked politely, and he said something like it didn't count since he didn't believe I really meant it; that I wanted him to stay, and that I really didn't mean the PLEASE part. I told him he was wrong, and that I would be very grateful if he would leave. Then he said "Please go get the mail and water. Please.", to suggest that because he was now being 'polite' I should then do it, though he was asking me to do something that would hurt me, which he could do without the same problem - or he could wait a bit and it wouldn't be a problem. UGH! I asked him to leave again, and he did, but he refused to close my door because he wanted to annoy me. I actually asked him if he could close my door (because he opened it when he came in the room) and he said no. I guess he couldn't do it because it wasn't his turn. bitch. I would have slammed the door closed, because it would have felt good after that bit of shit, but of course I can't do that, because he has this inner ear thing that makes me slamming the door "an act of violence". One time, before I even knew about this problem of his, he threatened to punch me in the face for slamming my door and refusing to apologise...for slamming my bedroom door. It's like there's this littel monster inside him that creeps out at the strangest moments, that I just can't predict.

Eventually my stomach settled, and I took a shower, got dressed, and got the mail and the water. Mark didn't thank me, and he was right there when I did it. Sometimes Mark is really, really cool. But a lot of times it's like he's a really annoying child, and I don't know what to do when he's like that. Sometimes he apologises later, and other times he doesn't. It's just really old now, and I'm sick of it.

Luke stood me up last night. He told me he'd be heading out to my place around 7pm, and that he'd give me a call. He never called, but the last time he came over he was supposed to call first and then didn't, so I thought maybe he'd do the same thimg, only he didn't. I called 3 times, but there was no answer, and I left him a message saying I wasn't going to call anymore but that I just wanted to know that he was ok. He sounded really depressed and stressed out the night before, which makes me a bit more worried that I'd otherwise be.

In the wake of Luke not being around, I watched some X-Files episodes, that my friend Pat let me borrow. They were good. And I also read more of Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets, and later I gave in and also read the first 4 chapters of the new Star Trek Enterprise book which, besides a reference to the Xindi attack on Earth on an improbable date, has been kicking ass! It's even got ties to DS9, so it's like reading a DS9/Enterprise book, which are by far my favorite Treks. I read another chapter of Harry Potter after that, before I had to turn off the heater just to stop sweating so much. It was gross.

30 days until Doctor Who.

Anyways...I need to get ready for work now.

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Mark told me late last week that I'd need to drive him to work this week, as he wouldn't be able to pick me up on his lunch, for work related reasons...only we both forgot about that today. I'd been planning on driving him to work so I could have the car, so I could get some lunch on my break, and go to the bank & Kroger after work before picking up Mark, only now I can't. Add to that, that I have to find a ride to work, which is surely becoming annoying to my manager by now... Though I do like riding with him to work, as we get to talk...but that's besides the point.

I called work and Matt answered the phone. Apparently he's there with the new assistant manager they're we're training for 3 weeks, to be sent off to some other store, who I haven't met yet; DJ is at the bank. Hopefully they can intercept him before he gets back to work and he can just come get me. I know I can rely on others, but I'm still loath to ask for help. In truth, I'd rather just stay home and read, but who wouldn't? lol Ooh. And I could sleep more too. Damn. Oh, well. At least my job doesn't suck the way a lot of other peoples' do. There are a lot of people out there who really need jobs and don't have them, so I'm really very lucky where my job is concerned. ;-0)

I just ate. I'm trying not to throw up. Isn't that attractive? But that's my life now. And probably always will be. Yuck.

If Matt gets ahold of DJ I don't think they'll call me until DJ gets here, so I should probably make sure I'm completely ready to walk out the door at a moment's notice. Hopefully sometime today I'll get to sleep. And it wouldn't hurt to find out that Luke is ok too.

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   Friday, March 2, 2007

Work went well yesterday, and though I insisted on giving DJ $2.00 for gas (as he's picked me up several times now), he told me that while that may alleviate my guilt, that I have no need to feel guilty. He says that he likes picking me up because it gets him out of the store for awhile, and we get to talk. That's nice to hear, and I hope it holds true in the future, as it will most likely happen again someday. lol

Like I said, work was fun, despite some bitch phone caller, who went off on me for no reason; people who were standing next to me and overheard the conversation couldn't believe it. I didn't let it get to me though. I returned Pat's X-Files dvds to him and thanked him, and we talked about the show a bit. I watched an episode on my break. I was super tired though. Oh, and I guess Heidi got this great job in Chicago that she's by trying for, so she'll be leaving us :-0( I'm really excited for her though, because she so deserves it! I'll miss her though. I worked with Matt, DJ, John (the in-training-assistant manager), Jonathan, Pat, & Nate. Bobby stopped in for a bit, and I signed a card for Josh Herder; he's turning 21. I worked over, waiting for Mark, but thankfully he didn't insist we go to the Sprint store.

I had called Carrie on my break and told her I'd return her call when I left work, but as I was walking out of the store into a downpour, my phone rang, and it was Travis. We caught up on some stuff, and it was a good conversation. I'm glad that we got past all that horrible shit he put me through and we can be something like friends now. I'm always happy when I can talk to an ex, and we can get something out of it.

I called Carrie back when Travis let me go. By that time I was home, in bed, aching to sleep, but also wanting to hear all of Carrie's news, which is always good fun. We chatted for 40 minutes or so, and it was great talking to her; she made me laugh almost the entire conversation...but eventually I had to admit how tired I was and get some sleep. Which I did. I only slept for about 4 hours though. Then I watched another episode of X-Files, and then read 4 or 5 chapters of Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets.

While doing that I also ate, as I was quite hungy, not having eaten since my break at work. I also got some work done online, but the internet crashed for a few hours, which screwed things up for awhile. I didn't wake Mark up to fix it, as I figured he needs his sleep, and I just sort of hoped it would sort itself out, which obviously it has.

I still haven't heard from Luke. It's possible he's doing the annoying guy thing, where they stand you up, and then just never talk to you again, for no apparent reason...which would be somewhat weird this time, as he was calling & texting me a lot, and saying he wanted to come over...and even wrote me a song!?! So...him not calling has me worried, even while experience tells me he (in his capacity as a young human male) is just being a dick. Hopefully I'll know one way or the other fairly soon.

I'm tired. I'm probably going to read myself to sleep soon. I work today, but Mark says he CAN pick me up for my shift today, which is good news. Beyond work I don't really have any plans for the night. Jennifer said she might stop by our condo on Saturday, and she's supposed to call me about that, but I'm not holding my breath for that, even though I'd love to see her. I have Saturday off. I work Sunday, and then have Monday-Thursday off. I work Friday and then have Saturday off again, and I undoubtedly close the following Sunday. I'd probably be looking for more hours if I wasn't enjoying all this reading I've been getting done.

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   Saturday, March 3, 2007

My stomach was less than thrilled yesterday. But eventually all was well. Work was mostly fun; I worked with DJ, Michael, Matt, DJ, Nate, Joe & John. I feel like I'm forgetting someone. Heidi will still be working at Hollywood on the weekends for awhile I guess, or that's what DJ told me. After work Mark & I went to the bank so I could deposit some money I had, and it looks like my tax return has been added to my account, which is really great. I haven't had this much cash in nearly 2 years.

I've been thinking about renting some fancy clothes for future pictures on my website. A suit out of the 40's or 30's that, in the right space, with Mark's amazing photography skills could be amazing! I think it would show off his skill even more than he already has, and it would look cool on my webpage. I'm looking to get heavily stylized pictures, as I now have quite a few candid shots. I need to mix it all up. And I really love mixing the color & black and white pictures. I need a wide variety of color shots too. When my new galleries are done they should rock! That's something I'd be a lot closer too if I hadn't been so lazy the last few months.

I forgot to take my prilosec this morning, so my stomach is extra pissed off, but I'm hoping it settles soon, as Mark really wants to go to the Sprint/T-Moble store and I don't want to let him down... My stomach is really cramped right now though; it's very painful. Just sitting here typing is hard, but I'm trying to ignore the pain.

Luke called me yesterday. Apparently he was in a car accident the other day. The story sounds a bit fishy, but I'll accept it for now. We might be hanging out on Monday.

Oh. I know who I forgot to mention that I worked with yesterday; Pat! Pat actually told me that his girlfriend, who I met when we went bowling over a week ago, keeps hinting to him that she'd love to go to Factory Night at Necto. I had told her about it, and Pat seemed amused by the idea, so I told him they should go, and to let me know when and I could go too, so I could try to get them free drinks - plus they'd know someone else.

Kyle Shack, who used to work with us, but left for school, came in to visit us this week. He was only there a few minutes on Thursday; but said he'd be back several time over the weekend, and that he'd see me on Friday, but I didn't. He's on Spring Break. He used to rave about The Departed, and I told him that when I'd heard it won Best Picture at the Oscars, that I had thought of him right away. It was really great to see him.

Speaking of the Oscars, which I refused to watch after the Brokeback Mountain debacle that was last year's crowning insult, continued to support my belief that the Oscars don't reflect shit anymore, as The Departed, a movie that was horribly edited on a scene for scene basis, won Best Editing? The movie is very good besides that annoying continuity flaw, and I don't begrudge the movie winning Best Picture or Director, but the editing award makes me think the voters didn't watch the movie in question! Plus the movie had some major homophoic things to say, so it was a no-brainer that it would win Best Picture. The only other surprise for me was that Pan's Labyrinth didn't win Best Foreign Film.

I stayed in last night and read the last 100 pages of Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets. Of course I read this book years ago, but it was interesting going back to it after so many years, in which I'd seen the film at least 4 times. Interesting to compare the two from a different persepective this time.

I had started reading the new Enterpise novel the day before, but now I could devote all my attention to it, and it's so very good that I'm stunned by what the authors have achieved, at least so far; I'm not quite 100 pages in. The book is a fantastic continuation of Enterprise Season 4. Taking the horrible finale of that show and turning it into something positive! I would never have believed it possible! It's currently following up on what I consider the final episodes of Enterprise ("Demons"/"Terra Prime"), and it's brought back storylines that were featured throughout the fourth season, with Orions, Andorians, Aenar, Vulcans & Romulans. So many 4th season episodes have been referenced, that I've started rewatching it, just to make sure I don't miss anything. In fact T'Pau, the Romulans Nijil, Valdore & Vrax, Shran & Jahamel have all returned, with TONS of continuity! They've even fit the 4 Andorian genders into the Enterprise storylines, which seemed to avoid them + they've incorporated some of the Andorian/Andor background from the Worlds of DS9 book, which seemed to be contradicted by Enterprise. I love it when this stuff all fits together and the authors are doing such a good job. This shouldn't be such a surprise, as I've loved all of their books...except their last Enterprise novel which was written as though they hadn't seen the season of Enterprise that it was based on. It looks like that was just a fluke though, and things are back to being better than it has any right to be. Ooh! The book features a future Jake & Nog as well! If this is the start of an Enterprise Relaunch as DS9, and to a lesser degree, Voyager have enjoyed, then the future of Enterprise is very bright indeed.

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Mark just freaked out again. I think he should go back on his anti-depressants. I was getting ready, so we could go take care of the phones today, and I said I wanted to stay for half hour so I could get the last episode of show I've been tracking down, which might not be there later, as other episodes I needed have disappeared in the last 24 hours, plus I wanted to shave. He was going to do something with my computer, but I didn't want to risk anything being screwed up, or having to reboot my computer as that would make everything take longer, and I had a ton of stuff open on my computer that I didn't want to lose; I've lost stuff like that before, and I'm very sensitive about it. I didn't raise my voice though; I didn't yet; I didn't threaten anything - I just wanted to leave a half hour later. That's all.

Mark said it would be dark in a half hour. He's had some health problems lately and said that he doesn't have any energy to go places after it gets dark. Though when he's out & about after dark this isn't a problem, which we talked about yesterday, and I figured if we were both getting ready to go (he wasn't ready yet either) that it wouldn't be a big deal. He said that he wouldn't be up to going in a half hour though, and so I suggested we just skip it today then. He said fine...

But then he decided that he would just shut off my phone; saying that if I had to pay for my phone maybe I'd keep up on the maintenance of the phone. But there's nothing seriously wrong with my phone. Mark's just hoping that I'll upgrade, which is possible, but I'm not in a rush to do so, as I love my phone. I even begged him earlier in the week, to not try to make me feel bad for hanging onto my old phone, when it's the best phone I've ever had, and it still works fine.

I called Mollie and told her I probably wouldn't be able to call her anymore, as Mark was shutting off my phone. She was upset, but hopes that Mark is just threatening to do it, but won't as he knows he'll regret it. She said she'd send her phone back if he shut mine off, but that it would be horrible not being able to talk to me. I'd be cut off from everyone.

I don't think he'll actually do it. He just knows that he has power over me here, and so uses it to hurt me when he's angry. My name is on the title of our current car, but he used to threaten me like this with the old one, saying that if I went anywhere when he was mad at me, that he'd call the police and report the car stolen.

Most of the time, Mark is really great, and then he just turns into this monster. It's really scary sometimes...but I've gotten better at not letting his petty outbursts upset me like they used to; I can't afford to. When I'm upset my stomach explodes and I'm sick for 3 days. I try to avoid arguments, and I try to not get overly emotional. I'm going to continue getting ready now; maybe when Mark gets back from the post office, he'll be calmer, and we can get the phones taken care of.

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   Sunday, March 4, 2007

Mark did calm down...sort of. He was obsessed with getting my voicemail 'fixed' when I was fine with the way it was. We went to T-Moble and that went fine, then the Sprint store couldn't help me with my phone, and we went to Little Caesars, where Mark went slightly mad again. It all turned out ok though...I guess. It was strange, and I'm glad it's over...if it's really over.

I watched some Enterprise and read last night, though not as much as I have been lately. I slept a bit. I talked to Luke; we might hang out Monday. I got some wicked mashups last night. One of them featured a new NIN song, and I found more of their new stuff on myspace, and added my new favorite song to my profile there. I've been grooving to the new tunes for a few hours now. I'm pretty exhausted...but it's really warm in my room now, and I don't think I could sleep. I had Mark turn up the heat Saturday because, for once, it was actually cold in my room; the neighbors must have been out for the day and left the heat off or something. Oh...well.

Oh. My left eye has been twitching for 2 days. Make it stop! ;-0)

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I woke up with a bad headache, which only got worse as the day progressed. I didn't want to take my Midrin, as it has caffiene in it, and I'd already had a bit; I didn't want the combined dose to make my stomach retch. Eventually I had to give in though, and I took a scalding hot shower, which often helps with my headaches. The headache is fading now, but so is everything else. I used to like taking my meds because it was so relaxing; now I avoid it if I can. I don't know if I'll be able to drive to work; I asked Mark if he could drop me off, but he seems to think I should just call in. I'm not going to do that though. Either he's driving me, or I'm going to give it a go. I can probably make it fine, but I don't like to take risks like that... though I suppose if I crashed into something that didn't hurt anyone else it would be ok, as I probably wouldn't feel it. That was me trying to look on the bright side.

Watched more Enterprise. Ate. I didn't listen to more NIN as my head was killing me, but I find myself humming their older tunes today. I need to finish getting ready for work.

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   Monday, March 5, 2007

Mark drove me to work after all. I had Nate shut off the movie that was playing, and I kept my sunglasses on. The pain was muted, but constant. We got everything done though.

I read and had a snack when I got home, and fell asleep shortly there after. I had strange dreams. I woke up, when a program I was downloading was finished; my computer chime alerting me. I checked my e-mail. There were 2 messages from a 26 yo guy who just moved to Ann Arbor to be with his boyfriend, who wanted to meet people 'on his wavelength', and apparently thought I might be such a person. I don't know if I am, but I responded.

I checked my myspace page, and heard that haunting new NIN song again. Then I read more of the new Enterprise novel, which is really, really fantastic. The NIN song was playing in my head throughout some emotional scenes, and I know from past experiences that the 2 experiences (the book & the song) will be forever linked in my brain. I like that about myself. I ache to listen to the music, and read some more.

My headache, which seemed to be gone, is still with me. Not nearly as bad as it was, but still terrible. I think my migrains are getting worse. I don't know what would cause that, but it's something that I'm hoping will pass. I should take more pain killer, but I don't want to. I kind of hate it actually, though I don't know why that is. I think it's a new reaction, and not just one that I've only just come to understand. I hate it. Though the relief of pain is welcomed.

"And the sky is filled with light; can you see it? All the black is really white if you believe it. And the longing that you feel, when you know the answer's real; you will find a better place in this twilight." - "In This Twilight" - Nine Inch Nails

I think I'll get something cool to drink, take some motrin; see if that helps. I'll continue to read, or maybe watch the new Brothers & Sisters.

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I tried watching the new Brothers & Sisters this morning, but the sound & picture went out of synch about 10 minutes into it, so I downloaded another copy, and read some more. I eventually slept, though my acid reflux was in overdrive. I woke around 2:30pm. I read some more, and I'm now over half way through the new Enterprise book. I read my e-mail, and backed up my slash art collection. I checked my voicemail to see if Luke had called but he hadn't. I'll call him later; he sometimes sleeps really late.

I have today & the next 3 days off of work. I don't know if I mentioned this in the last entry, but I was about 15 minutes early for work, and then didn't get to take my lunch, as I was the only one at the front of the store. By the time everything was done and I could have taken my break, there wasn't enough time left in my shift to take it. I couldn't leave either, because Nate needed to count down some drawers, and even if he put that off until after the store closed, I didn't drive. It was mostly ok though. I mean, I wasn't desperate for a break. I would have just put my head down anyways.

I should eat soon.

I read this article today about the movie "300", which I had suspected was the case anyways. The whole de-queering of "Troy", "Domino", "A Beautiful Mind" and other such films is what set me off on collecting as many GLBT inclusive films as possible a few years back. I know the graphic novel that "300" is based on doesn't feature any positive gay role models, but it's almost like seeing "Troy" where there are supposed to be gay characters. It pisses me off. GLBT people exist, and always have. Get over it. Stop denying us.

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   Tuesday, March 6, 2007

I called to invite Luke to Necto a bit after 7pm, but he didn't anser; I left him a message. I thought maybe I wouldn't end up going as some stuff came up and I got side-tracked. While that was going on, I exchanged some more e-mails with the boy that movied to Ann Arbor and contacted me via e-mail the other day; I think his name is Joe; he seems cool. I like that my webpage didn't freak him out.

I did end up going to Necto, and had a blast. It turned out to be Gothic Prom!?! WTF? It was really packed, but the music kicked ass. I wore my sunglasses in the bar on impulse, which kind of rocked. I danced to some crazy Doctor Who music, with the Daleks!?! I danced with Christine & Bobby; at least I think his name is Bobby; I fucking suck with names. Actually...I fuck & suck with boys named Bobby, but not this one. His name is so Bobby; I just checked his myspace page. I met Bobby through Matt (who I dated briefly), and though I met Christine through Bobby, she works with my ex-bf Steve. I'm such a whore sometimes. Only not.

I met other folks at Necto. I danced with some other people that I don't know. It was all good fun. I came home sweaty; called Luke & left him another message. I jacked off; took a shower, and called Jesse; Luke's friend, who had given me his number on myspace. He was stoned, and in Adrian, at his friend Coley's, where Luke was passed out in bed. Jesse let me go so he could head home, and I wrote this. I need to get dressed, and go shopping. I mixed a new mashup cd for the car, and want to play it loud while I go shopping. ;-0)

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I changed my mind. I'm staying in. Mostly because I'm starving and what to feast. But also on the off chance that I might get some rest and be awake in time to drive Mark to work, or switch on his lunch break, so I can go to Middle Earth or someplace and get some shirts and stuff. I need new clothes and stuff. Some of it is for props for pix, but it's really all stuff that I need anyways...well, mostly. Blah.

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Someone just sent me a text message, but I can't read it, because I have my old phone back, and it doesn't allow me to read them. I don't have to pay for them anymore, the way I used to, but I can't ready them. I'm guessing it was Luke or Heidi. Everyone else just calls me. Oh well.

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I'm not going shopping today, I don't think. I got wonderfully sidetracked by you.tube! I was watching clips from this funny British show called "Friday Night Project", which featured Billie Piper at one time, and David Tennant at another, so this Doctor Who fan was having a blast. Then I watched some of Billie Piper's old music videos which were really interesting, as I'd never known she was a singer before seeing Doctor Who, which she did later. Doctor Who starts up again in about 25 days! ;-0)

I'm so tired. But I think I might have trouble sleeping, and will most likely be awake for hours to come. I don't want to drive Mark to work and do the shopping thing, because I know eventually I'll crash and I'll not want to get out of bed to pick him up later. lol I try not to plan things because I just kind wander from one thing to the next, and sometimes it can be helped, and other times where it really can't. I sometimes wish some of my health issues weren't a problem, and that I could live my life differently, and there are other times, like right now, where I don't really care...but I guess that's probably normal.

I called Mollie this morning to tell her of my morning viewing, and she asked me to send her the links, but she had to go. She has the flu now, which sucks. I hope she'll be ok.

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   Wednesday, March 7, 2007

The last 24 hours or so have been kind of a blur. Nothing really astonishing happened, but I've been having trouble sleeping again, so I've just been sleeping for short amounts of time, in random intervals...it makes time fly by...in slow motion. I spent some more time last night watching Graham Norton on you.tube, which made me [laugh] so hard that I was crying at the same time. lol

I drove Mark to work this morning, then went to Meijer where I bought food, eyeliner, socks, underwear, condoms, razors, batteries, bodywash, after-shave & fingernail polish remover. I may go to Middler-Earth later to check out their shirts, but I might just stay home and do some cleaning...or sleep. I'd like to get some props and stuff for pictures, as I'd really like to get on with that stuff, but I'm not sure what I need exactly. I'd like to get my ears pierced, but the way I want it done, I wouldn't be able to wear my warm winter hat until next fall. lol Which would be very, very cold. Brrrrrr.

We'll see what happens.

And why am I so fucking horny?

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   Thursday, March 8, 2007

I slept most of the day, which was fantastic after not getting much sleep the last few days. I've been cleaning the condo since I woke up. I'm doing laundry, washing the dishes, cleaning my room... I misplaced my midrin somewhere the other day and I'm trying find it, but so far...nothing. I'm wondering if I didn't leave it at work Sunday night? Hm.

I haven't really gotten much reading done the last few days. I hope I get back into my books soon; I liked that I was getting so much reading done...

Anyways; I need to get back to it.

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   Friday, March 9, 2007

Mark is asleep in his bed for the first time in months; I so rock! Now if only my stomach would agree with that assessment. I just took a bath, which sometimes helps calm my stomach down; hopefully it works, because I would like to get some sleep before going to work today.

I finally saw the latest L Word and it was really enjoyable. They're keeping this season light, and not dragging out any of the stories that could be really depressing, which is nice for a change. There are still serious storylines, but it's very different, tone wise, from previous seasons. It's refreshing, but I hope it gets a little more darkness before the end of the series; whenever that is.

I chatted on gay.com yesterday evening, with a group of men from across the country. It was cool. It's sometimes nice to check and see what's going on outside of my little part of the world. I think I may have made a few friends; I know I at least picked up a few fans. Some of them were stunning, and some of them were brilliant, and brave & breathtaking. It was a lot of fun.

I never found my Midrin. That's like a whole bottle gone. What the fuck happened to it? I should try to get a refill, but I just got that one, and I don't them to think I'm selling it, or that I'm a junkie or something. Erg. I worry too much.

I burnt my hand on the stove last night. I'm not happy about that. I cut my big toe open on my desk yesterday. My week bordered on horrible, but I somehow managed to keep a smile on my face, which I'm proud of. Sometimes that's all you can do, isn't it?

I hope Mollie is feeling better. What if I have the flu now? That would suck. I'm hoping it's just my usual trauma. I should call Mollie soon.

I called Jeremy earlier in the week; Monday I think. I left him a message saying a had most of the week off, and if he wanted to drop by and return my DS9 discs for the next set, that he could just leave me a message letting me know when. He didn't call or drop by. I hope he's ok. Things were really stressful for him last time that we spoke. I'll keep trying to get ahold of him.

I'm going to see if I can sleep now. That would be great.

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I don't think I'm going to be getting any sleep. It's possible I have the flu. I'm not sure. It's hard to tell what's going on with my body from moment to moment. If I feel better soon, that would be nice. If I don't, I may have to call in. I really don't want to though. I'm exhausted, and I think I'm starting to get dehyrdated, which between you & me, is my least favorite sensation ever. seriously. I think I might make myself some soup. Something that won't kill me when it comes back up. Ugh.

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   Saturday, March 10, 2007

I got 2 hours of sleep before work, but my work day went by without anything terrible happening. I felt a lot better as the day went on. I picked Mark up after work and we went to CompUSA which is going out of business; we didn't find anything we wanted though, and I was getting a killer headache. Mark had called in the refill for the Midrin that I had lost, so we went to Meijer where I got my pills, and Mark got a case for his cds. I took my pills in the car. We went back to CompUSA to look around again, but I really wanted to go home, so we left.

The Midrin hit fast and hard, and left me feeling pain free! It was perfect as far as medication goes. It hasn't been working that well lately, so I was shocked. I took a nap, took a shower, talked to Mollie on the phone, before finally deciding that I would go to Necto. I had to told this guy Rex that I'd try to make it there.

After I left, I stopped at Aut Bar briefly, then went to find a parking space for Necto. When I found a space, a block away, I went to the ATM to get cash, but it was down. The girl that sometimes works the door often lets me in for free, but there was a huge line to get into the bar, so I didn't want to risk waiting in line, just to find out that I had to go get some money to get in. I went to my bank, across town, but the ATM was down there too. I went to Mark's bank, and got some cash out that he was going to pay me on Sunday anyways, which hopefully he'll not be pissed that I got out early. Then I headed back, where I got the same parking space, walked to the bar, where there was no line now, only find that I'd left my wallet in the car! lol I walked back and got it, and finally got into the bar (for free after all), then I never did run into the boy that I went there to see.

I did run into Christopher again. I met this boy Christiopher there in January; really hot goth looking boy. I got his number this time for sure; I fucked it up last time. But I was concentrating so hard on getting his number that I didn't thank his friends who kept complimenting me, so I felt like an asshole later. Hopefully I'll see them again, so I can tell them I was just worried that I'd screw up his phone # again.

I met this 40yo guy named Casey, from Columbus, Ohio, who was visiting friends. There was some strong chemistry there; I gave him a great kiss goodnight.

Erica, who used to work at Benny's Bakery was there. I guess Benny finally retired. I met her friends Nick (who looked 12, but is like 25), and Johnny (who is 22, smokes, has ben OUT for all of 5 minutes, and doesn't date boys or girls). Johnny said he recognized me from Factory Night, and he hit on me. I was very flattered, but the whole smoking thing, combined with his newly out status, and his not dating boys thing just added up to me not being interested. I think that Douglas was into him though, and I later saw them together, so maybe they'll hook up; they probably have a lot more in common anyways. I later went to say goodnight to Erica and found her on the dancefloor with Nick, so I danced with him, on her. Nick isn't all that cute, but he gave me the best lap dance ever. lol I was oozing. lol He seemed really nice. It was good to see Erica and meet her friends. She was actually dancing with another friend when I said goodnight, and he was so hot!

I know I saw other people that I knew there, but the night is kind of a blur now. I'm surprise I remember as much of it as I do. I had a good time though. And that's all that matters.

When I got home, I left Christopher a message. One of his guy friends, who was outside with him when I said goodbye...I had met him in the bar, and he was a cutie too. I was attracted to so many people. But I was extra excited to see Chris again. He seems to have some kind of speech problem, but it doesn't detract from him in way at all! He just...he's hot.

I ate. I read my e-mail, including one from this great guy named Jeremy who I chatted with Thursday night, who lives in Palm Springs with is husband Shawn. I really liked the e-mail, and we're going to try to be long distance friends. Cool.

I need to take a shower, though I'm exhausted. I got this new eyeliner the other day, and I love it, but I should get it off my eyeballs before I go to sleep. Maybe after the shower I'll respond to Jeremy's message.

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   Sunday, March 11, 2007

Saturday I slept, and then finished the new Enterprise book, which seems like a great beginning to a 5th season of Enterprise. Very cool. I look forward to the next installment. I'll most likely read the 3rd Harry Potter book next.

I was working on my webpage around 12:30am today, and I saw that Luke/Lucas was online so I chatted with him for awhile, but he got disconnected. I called him, and we chatted some more. He saw Rent last night in Detroit; he & his friends rode in a limo, and he had a blast, but he was still lonely for a partner, as everyone else was coupled. He let me go for a minute and then called me back, and I asked him if he wanted to come over, just as he was asking me if it would be ok if he could. He said he'd be up for taking pictures, as I've been dying for some new ones, and he seemed excited about it; saying he'd even bring his tux. Well...that was over 2 hours ago, and he only lives like 40 minutes away. He's stood me up a couple of times before, but not like this. And he told me he was switching of his phone for awhile to charge it up, as he'd been on it all night, which means that when I called a few minutes ago and he didn't answer there was a perfect excuse. Ugh. If he does stand me up, I'm washing my hands of him. He talks about how he wants a really cool boyfriend, but there aren't any good ones out there - but how can he tell if he never shows the fuck up!?!

I think I'm going grocery shopping. If he gets here when I'm gone, Mark can call me, as I'll only be a couple miles away. If I just sit and wait for him, I'll have wasted even more of my time.

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Luke did stand me up again. And it was worse than before, because after not arriving at my house, like he said he wanted to, and not calling me to tell me why, I found him online on yahoo.messenger, and he wouldn't respond to my messages. What the fuck? So I went on gay.com to see if he was there, and he was. And again he wouldn't respond to me. There was another guy in the room though, who's had a crush on me for a long time, and I told him I was kind of upset and why. He privated Luke and said "Hey", and Luke responded to him right away!?! Then the guy tried to find out why Luke stood me up, but Luke just said that something came up and he didn't want to talk about it. Now...what could that something be, that prevented him from driving out to see me, or calling me to let me know he wouldn't be coming, or e-mailng me, or responding to my online messages, when he WAS responding to other men who were just saying hello? How could he possibly justify his behavior? His utter disregard for my feelings? His complete disrespect? I mean, he stood me up, and when I tried to talk to him about it, he went all silent while chatting it up with boys he doesn't know. Yeah. He told me when he first met me (at which point he'd stood me up once, years before) - that he desperately wants to be coupled, and that he'd given up on men, because none of them are good, and asked if I was good. I told him I tried to be good, but that was maybe for other people to decide (if I was or not). How can he find out if people are good, if he never shows up? And he doesn't just do this to me. I know for a fact that he does this to other people too. And I know he's lied to me as well. I'm done. I just don't understand him at all. Which is too bad, because if you cut out all the bullshit, he had potential. And if he stays the way he is now, the way he was years ago, he'll always be lonely, and I don't wish that on anyone; even him.

So...I did go grocery shopping last night, and I got all the fixings for milk shake, which I had a craving for. But I forgot some of the stuff that I needed! So I had to go back to the store and get it! It was cool though because I found driving around, listening to tunes kind of relaxing. When I finally got my shake though, it was truly yummy! :-0) I then continued reading Harry Potter 3, which I'd started just before heading back to the store the 2nd time, and I'm enjoying the 3rd one as much as I remembered enjoying it years ago now.

Anyways. I fell asleep in my bed, with my clothes on; exhausted. I had applied some eyeliner when I thought that Luke would be over, because we were going to take some pictures, and plus I just love to wear eyeliner, but I usualy try to wash that stuff off before I sleep - but I didn't this time, and now my eyelids are all sticky! Yuck. Oh well. It's about 3:20pm now. I work at 7pm. I'm going to shower, and eat, and maybe make a cd to listen to at work.

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   Tuesday, March 13, 2007

I ordered a copy of Shortbus on Sunday; it should be here by Wednesday. Later I checked at work, and we didn't get any copies so that was a good call. I look forward to seeing the movie!

Work was mostly fun Sunday night. I worked with Nate & Alex. I had Litte Casars on my lunch. When I went to pick up my pizza, I gave the crew there a new mashup cd, and it was funny to see them grooving to the music. Alan & Mike were there. Alan got a hair cut. He's a cute kid...and he gives really good hugs. lol When work got out, I headed to Club Divine and visited with Jeremy, who returned my DS9 dvds, but I have to get him the rest of the show. It was a great visit, or as great a visit as one can have with someone who's working. There was no cover though, and I got free drinks.

After I got home from work I started watching season 3 of Footballer$ Wives, and finished the entire disc that I had rented. I went to bed just after Mark left for work, and spent the day sleeping, which was nice. When I woke up, I worked on my webpage, and later my friend Corey called me. We've had a mutual crush for years, but things are only now starting to heat up. It turns out he's a huge Star Trek fan. Beyond that we are very attuned sexually, and we both find each other very attractive. Those are all good things. He had to go though, and I wanted to eat and get ready for Necto.

Before the bar, and even before Corey called, Mark offered me a job at Bitserve Systems. It would mean an extra $400.00 a month, and only about 10 hours a week; that's more than I get from Hollywood Video. I start trainging with him on Wednesday. This is good news (if I like the job) because besides having extra cash, I have something to fall back on, if I get my ear pierced and Hollywood fires me. If Mollie is reading this, I hope you've found a job by now, or are finally getting your checks; and I look forward to Harry Potter with you ;-0)

I stopped at Aut Bar on the way to Necto, and said hello to differnt bar friends. There was this hot guy upstairs, who I couldn't stop staring at. He was smoking though; I really dislike smoke. I did go up to him though and tell him I thought he was hot, which he seemed to react to. I mean, I think he had been looking at me too. It was a nice moment. I headed over to Necto.

At Necto, I was walking in just as Scott (the owner) and Joey (another old friend, who may or may not work at Necto) were on their way in, so I got in for free. I was going to use a free pass anyways, but now I can save that. Scott says he can get me a stack of free passes so I can come any night I want. Lately on Fridays this girl I know from Hollywood has let me in for free. She was working the coat check tonight, so I got that for free too, though I tipped her 2 dollars. Becky gave me 2 free drinks, and I tipped her also. I met a cute 24 yo gay boy named Jeff, but he has a long term boyfriend. His friend Heather was so cute; we had our picture taken. Heather works at Briarwood Mall. Christine & Bobby were there, and we also got pictures. I met a guy all in black vinyl named Michael; pretty sure he was straight, though he might have been bi. Danced with lots of friends. Johnny, who I met Friday was there, and I talked to him for a minute or two. It was a fun time.

After the bar, I chatted with Corey online. fun. Then I chatted on gay.com for awhile. I was going through some of the fetish rooms; complimenting people on their honest & brave pictures. Chatted with a lot of interesting people...for far too long. Now I need to shower, take my prilosec, and get some sleep before work today.

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   Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Didn't get much sleep Tuesday morning. Had crazy dreams! Dropped Mark off at work on the way to Hollywood. It was hot in the store, but we were mostly dead. It was an ok day, except I had this really annoying bitch of a customer. She came into the store, returning 3 dvds; one of which had the skew ripped off it, so I had to look that one up on the computer. That didn't piss me off though, because kids do that to lots of movies, and it's really not worth getting upset about. When she came up to the counter to rent some new movies, I saw that she had an account balance (late fees), and I asked her if she'd like to pay any of it. She said that when she'd come to rent movies last week, for the first time in about a year, she had asked the girl ringing her up if she had any late fees, and the girl didn't see any. Now when we open someone's account, the late fees pop up right off, but sometimes if you hit the wrong key on accident, you can skip right over them without meaning to. I explained that to the woman, and said that this is probably what happened, and that it was an easy mistake, and that I was sorry if that experience had gotten her hopes up, but she did indeed own us like $54.00 or something like that, which in the grand scheme of things, is like NOTHING. People rent from us every week that owe the store thousands of dollars. We don't judge these people, and we don't make them pay thier fees in order to rent, and as long as they're civil, it's all good. But this woman didn't see it that way. She started gettting very agitated, and starting insulting the girl that had waited on her, during her previous visit. She said the salesperson didn't know what she was talking about, that she was incompetent, that she wanted the girl's name, and she wanted her written up. I had already explained that the mistake was most likely not intentional, and that it was something that anyone could have done, but she just kept raising her voice. I refused to give her the name of the person that waited on her; saying that the schedule for last week wasn't available and there was no way for me to look it up - both of which are true, but I also knew who it was that had handled this person before, and wasn't about to sell her out to someone who was obviously a total bitch. Then the woman changed her tune, and said that she didn't believe that she owed any of that money, because she hadn't rented in 'over a year'. I brought the fees back up, and she was right, the latest fee was indeed from nearly a year ago. She didn't like that either. She said that if she owed us any money at all, she would have remembered it. I was shaking at this point, trying not to lose my temper, or yell at her, and ask her to leave... But I asked her...if she knew that she didn't owe us anything (because she would remember it if she had) then WHY did she ask the girl last week, if she had any fees? Because...you know, that seems like a contradiction to me. Then she exploded. Saying that I had always been so nice to her in the past, and why was I being like this now? I told her that in the past she hadn't blown up at any of us over a simple mistake, or insulted my coworkers, or yelled at me, while contradicting herself, and blaming us for fees on her account, that don't just magically appear on peoples' accounts. She left just after that, but I was shaking so hard that I couldn't get her credit card slip in my drawer, and had to go walk off the anger. I called Janice and told her about it, then came back to work, where I explained what happened to Bryan in more detail, as he'd only heard a bit of it, and he had her account flagged. I was calm by then, and the rest of my shift was fine, and I refused to let the scene stess me out, which I'm very glad of.

I picked Mark up after work. I talked to my little sis, and my mother on the phone for awhile. My lil sis is wearing a white leather dress at her wedding. Her "Indian" wedding - which everytime I hear, makes me think about people from India - but they mean Native Americans. I irks me. Maybe because I've lived with a Native American for so long. I told mom I'd like to take her and my sisters to a Detroit Tigers Game this summer sometime.

Later, I talked to Corey on the phone, which was nice. Then I took a nap. And then chatted with him online, and then the phone again. He's a lot of fun; very sexy, and I'm enjoying our getting to know each other moments. ;-0)

I start training for my job at Bitserve Systems today. I'm really wired though, and can't seem to sleep. Probably because Mark had the heat on earlier, and now it's sweltering in my room. I'll turn the AC on when I'm done writing this.

I might hang out with Wendy, Friday night, but that hasn't been confirmed. Corey might come hang out with us too, as we're both free on Saturday. I have to Necto for at least a few minutes so I can wish Doug happy birthday. But I need sort all this out later. I need to chill out.

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Still can't sleep. I just spent about $120.00 on books. Well...kind of. About half of what I ordered are actually pre-orders of books that will be released throughout 2007, and I'll only be charged for them as they are shipped. I basically caught up on most of the Star Trek books that I want to get. A lot of the new ones sound fantastic, but I have a lot of reading before I get there. I finally ordered the rest of the New Frontier series, as it doesn't sound like it's going away anytime soon, and I might as well get the whole story.

I'm going to update the Trek section of the site until I collapse; hopefully getting a bit of sleep before Mark sets me to work.

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   Thursday, March 15, 2007

I slept from around 9:30am - 2:30pm on Wednesday. Then it was training with Mark for the Bitserve job. We worked for 3 hours or so, then went to pick up some mail from Mark's other job, and Hollywood to check on my schedule and rent a movie for Mark. When we got home we watched Shortbus, which arrived in the mail today, and then we worked some more. I took another break later when Wendy called. We're so hanging out Friday night. She told me that she's moving back to Ohio at the end of April, which totally sucks! I was just gettin to know her. Hopefully we can finish Torchwood off by then. :-0( Erg. I worked with Mark some more, but I was dead tired at this point, and really only half there. I eventually fell asleep in Mark's room, which NEVER happens. I woke up around 15 minutes ago, got up for something to drink, came to my own room an wrote this.

I've been extra horny all day. Part of that is probably it being Spring. Part of that is probably the freedom I'm starting to feel with the new job, even if learning the job is akin to learning a whole new language. Some of it might have something to do with the amazing orgasm I gave myself last night, and now I'm just hungry for more. But most of it has to do with a boy named Corey.

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Oh, I found my lost bottle of Midrin yesterday, in Mark's laundry basket! lol

Alright, so I'm watching the extras from Shortbus, and I'm downloading the soundtrack, as I'm remember that I love it. I wrote some poetry tonight, for the first time in months, one of which I wrote about Wendy leaving, and posted to her facebook page. I hope she likes it.

I'll probably go back to sleep soon.

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   Friday, March 16, 2007

I slept from around 10am-5pm on Thursday. My stomach wasn't happy, and remained angry for hours to come. After Mark got home from work, we both ate, and watched some tv before more hours of training. I billed some customers, and suspended some accounts, and helped some other people. If not for the stomach troubles, it would have mostly been fun. Mark later thanked me for all that I've done lately for helping to get rid of some of his stress.

I don't think Wendy saw her poem, as I never got a response; maybe she was extra busy, and couldn't get back to me. I'll see her tonight for sure though, so that's cool. I'd like to watch 4 or 5 Torchwood episodes tonight. I'm hanging out with Corey on Saturday, though we haven't hammered out any details. I'm just hoping for a good time there.

I chatted on gay.com again tonight. I've really been enjoying all the great conversations I've been having there lately.

Some of the Trek books I ordered will be here tomorrow. I don't have room for them on my shelf anymore; I'll have to find some way to fit them in my room, or store them or something.

I just got a voicemail from Mollie; I'll call her back later, as I'm so going to bed now. Hopefully work and stuff will go well today. I still need to figure out what I can give to Doug for his birthday at Necto. I don't really want to go to the bar tonight; especially now that Wendy will be over. It sucks to have obligations.

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I slept for a couple of hours after the last entry. I woke up with my left eye watering like mad; still don't know why. I tried to get back to sleep, but couldn't. Before I slept I read a chapter of Harry Potter 3, and then I dreamed that Mark & I were at Hogwarts, trying to explain the Columbine Massacre. It was all very dark, but silly.

When I woke up I had something to drink, then couldn't get back to sleep, so I read 3 or 4 more chapters. Then I hopped online, where I started this, before getting distracted by e-mail, wikipedia, and a Sook-Yin Lee interview that I happened across. I've been thinking about Shortbus since seeing it, and I really want to watch it again, with the cast commentary on. I really want Mollie to see the movie too, because I think the sex stuff won't distract her from the story. I'm not sure she'd even realize that people in the movie were naked. ;-0) I miss her.

Anyways...yeah. Been thinking about the movie. I didn't think it was that profound the when I saw it. There were amazing moments, but I didn't expect them to haunt me this way, because a lot of the film, or all of the film seems to be obviously fictional, but at the same time there are these moments that keep popping up in my mind from the film. I really need to watch it again.

While sitting at my computer, I listened to Mark's alarm go off a few times, and now he's in the shower. I'm going to try to get some more sleep before work. We're going to trade off the car on Mark's lunch.

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   Saturday, March 17, 2007

After the last entry, I couldn't sleep for anything. It sucked because I knew I had to work, and that I wasn't going to be able to sleep after work as I had plans with Wend and had to go with Doug a happy birthday. I ended up calling in, but I got Meg to cover my shift. This turned out to be a very wise decision on my part. Because when I did finally sleep (exhausted, and hungry) it seemed to break me out of whatever shit hole I was falling into. I think if I'd gone things would have been horrible.

Also after the last entry, but before sleep took me, I ordered some Billie Piper cds; some more Trek books, but only because I learned all of these items were out of print, and I didn't want to miss a chance at having them. There are tons of other things that I want, which I'm not buying right and left, because they'll be there a month from now, you know?

I also watched the latest Smallville episode, which was called "Promise". It wasn't a perfect episode, but it was one of those episodes that changes the whole show, and really pays off on things that have been building for years, without the kind of reset button that really annoys me. I don't love this show; I really don't, but I like it a lot. lol

Sleep was filled with odd images. Most of them stemming from that episode of Smallville, mixed in with stuff about my sister Janice, and our childhood, which oddly enough, popped up in conversation with Wendy later.

When Mark got home, he cleaned up a bit, while I shaved and showered. I had helped him check for Bitserve related business earlier, and there didn't seem to be anything dire. Wendy came over around 9pm, and we watched two episodes of Torchwood ("Small Worlds" & "Countrycide"). Wendy continues to amuse me, and we could be really good friends. Too bad she's leaving for Ohio when she graduates in April. She seems interested in staying in touch, and hanging out though, which is cool.

We went to Necto after that and I listened to her stories about her mom, their cat, drugs, sex, birth control - it was all fun. I paid for her to get in, as I felt bad that we'd only be there as short time; the girl that works the door that lets me in for free wasn't there; it was $10.00; blah. We found Doug & I wished him happy birthday. He invited me to another party for him at Backstreet tonight, where I could get in for free, but I don't know that I'd enjoy going to Backstreet; especially since I have no clue how to get there.

We left in a hurry, after maybe 10 minutes, as I was starving and wanted pizza from Little Caesars. Wendy started asking questions about my eating, and I gave her the whole sordid story, which seemed to shock her, and I got a sense that she really cared about me, and wanted to help me. It was unexpected, and personal and intimate. The kind of thing that can make or break a friendship, and it made ours stronger. We continued to talk until we got back to the condo where we watched two more episodes of Torchwood ("Greeks Bearing Gifts" & "They Keep Killing Suzie"). Though Wendy was falling asleep at that point. We chatted some more, and agreed we'd take some pictures of us on her next visit, where we plan on finishing off Torchwood; there are only 5 episodes she hasn't seen now. We hugged goodnight, and then she was gone.

After she left I jumped online, and chatted at gay.com yet again. I met some new people. I talked to others I'd met recently. Eventually Travis Kelley tracked me down, and chatted me up, while I also chatted with Corey on yahoo.messenger. It was a good time. Corey & I might hang out today, but it's just as likely that we won't hang out until next week, when his car is fixed. He owns a cat, and it's a shedder, and I'm allergic. And it would suck to drive out to Troy, drive back to Ann Arbor to hang out (that's 2 hours right there), then drive him back to Troy, and then back home again. It would be a lot simpler for him to drive out here. So, yeah, probably not hanging out today, but we talked about it, and everything is good, which is...well...good. ;-0)

Oh, and I told Corey about my blog, so he's probably going to read this. He seemed to enjoy it.

After all that I was exhausted, but really horny. I jacked off, and showered. And wrote this.

Now that I think about it more...I think I have a bit of a crush on Wendy. Not a crush exactly. But you know how straight guys sometimes have a crush on another guy, and it's not really sexual - it's just...a crush. It's like that. I just want to spend more time with her is all. And she's fun. We argue and laugh, and it's nice to hear someone else talk about missing Mollie. I feel like I whine about missing Mollie to everyone, and it's nice to hear it coming from someone else. I'm really not happy about her moving away so soon after me "losing" Mollie.

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   Sunday, March 18, 2007

Talked to Corey on the phone Saturday night, after sleeping all day. He was going out with some friends to Pronto, and later Ice. I told him about my invite to Backstreet and that I might try to go. He said I could call him before I went into work today.

I did end up going to Backstreet. I could have sworn that I'd heard they moved the bar from the place I went to 12 years ago, but it was in the same spot. It was fairly easy to find, and and was a fairly short drive. I hated the music, but I saw Doug, who will start bartending there next week. Also saw Steven, and other people I knew. I met a few guys. A couple guys groped me, and this little 18 yo freaked out when I told him how old I was; he asked me if I'd had work done. lol I managed to stay till they closed, by chatting with people, and trying to ignore the "music".

I went to the pharmacy after the bar to get my Prilosec refilled. Then I went to Kroger for some groceries, came home and finished watching Alien Vs. Predator, which I fell asleep watching the night before. I worked on my webpage (though I think I forgot to to change the date of the last update) for a few hours. I checked my e-mail, and surfed the web. I started reading Harry Potter, and kept reading unitl I had 5 pages left, and thought my eyes would burn out of my skull. I talked to Mark for awhile, and checked the bitserve mail.

I wanted to call Mollie, and realized I'd left my phone downstairs. I'd missed a call from Corey, but called Mollie to chat with her. I talked to her last night when I was shopping at Kroger; she's reading the Harry Potter books to her brother, and just rewatched the movies, so she's in Harry Potter mode too, so we're having great chats about the books vs. the movies. She told me about a funny note that Carrie had left for her in her copy of Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire. She told me about a blog entry by Adam that was about how much he missed her, and also talked about how their money troubles keep getting worse. She's going through a really horrible time, but she still manages to laugh... Mollie rocks.

I called Corey back next, and we talked for awhile. He'd stayed up playing World of War Craft(?) while I was reading. We both need to sleep, but I have to go to work. He actually sounds a lot like Shawn on the phone. We chatted about stuff, and then he let me go; saying he might call me back after I get out of work.

I so need to take a nap ASAP. Don't know if I can sleep; part of the reason I didn't stop reading was that my neighbors were making a lot of noise, and now the other neighbors have joined in. I wish I had some earplugs but I'm all out. :-0(

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   Tuesday, March 20, 2007

I did manage to get a couple hours of sleep before work on Sunday. It was a struggle though. The neigbors were really loud, and the AC refused to come on for the first hour or so, but eventually things cooled down, and I was able to block out the noise and get some rest, which probably made working that night tolerable. It was actually a good night at work, though I was afraid that I had hurt my back, which thankfully, I didn't. I came home right after work, chatted online, watched the new L Word, finished Harry Potter 3, and went to sleep.

Monday I worked at Bitserve. I started reading the 2nd section in the 1st Mirror Universe book that I got last month; this part is called "The Sorrows of Empire" and covers the fallout for Mirror Spock after the Classic Trek episode "Mirror, Mirror". I updated my webpage, filling in the poetry sections, making all my poetry from last year and this year available. I chatted a bit online. I made some new friends, I think.

I had strange dreams later. I had planned on going to Necto that night, but changed my mind at the last minute, and decided to stay in, which I think was wise. I rewatched Shortbus, which was a lot of fun. Then I rewatched it with the commentary, which was very insiteful, and filled with a lot of symbolism and stuff that I didn't catch on my own; some of that was brilliant, while other bits made me feel stupid for not seeing it in the first place. lol

Tuesday, today, I read more of the Star Trek book. I worked on the new galleries on my webpage, which took hours. I look forward to having new pictures to work with. I'm having a lot of fun with the new galleries. Not just with all the new material, but the way that I'm cropping and arranging the photos seems to be giving them a new kind of life. I'm really excited about them. Someday, when I'm done, other people will be able to see them. Some of my friends have already had a peek and seem to really like them.

Later I slept and had this horrible dream that my nephew Jonathan died, and that my sister had another baby, who seemed to know everything that Jonathan knew, and then some. But he was a kind of monster and we had to kill him. It sounds really stupid now, but in the dream it was very serious and dire, and heart-wrenching. I woke up feeling really horrible, and emotional, and wanted to call Janice (my sister) but didn't.

Later, I got a message on yahoo messenger from Lucas. I posted this poem that I wrote about him on my webpage on Monday, and sent him a myspace message, letting him know it was there. I thought he might read it. I thought he might delete the message on sight. I never expected he'd contact me. He apologised for standing me up. He affirmed that he "REALLY REALLY" likes me. He sounded kind of broken. I was honest with him, and told him that he'd hurt me, but that I was mostly over it. That I just wanted him to be ok. And that I hoped he would get his shit together, and that when he did, he'd have no problems finding a boyfriend, and I looked forward to seeing him happy someday. Closure is good. That's what I got today.

I got some stuff in the mail (a cd & a book), which was nice. I did the Bitserve stuff again. Strange that I have no days off anymore, yet I don't really work that much... It's odd. I guess I'm working more now than I was. Some of it is a lot of brain work, and some of it is just customer relations stuff that I could do in my sleep.

Fuck, I'm rambly today.

I hadn't heard from Corey in a few days so I gave him a call; he sounded odd on the phone; said he'd contact me on yahoo later.

Then I wrote this.

I'm hungry. How the hell did it get to be 10:32 without me noticing?

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   Thursday, March 22, 2007

Corey did chat me up on yahoo, and he's ok; he's just going through a bit of trouble with his roomie/ex & the boy's new bf. I understood a lot of what he was feeling because I've been through that before. We talked for a bit, and I think I made him feel a little bit better. He's been playing lot of World of Warcraft lately. I'm kind of glad that I don't have a video game right now to take up my time, as I'm still getting a lot of reading done and it's fun.

I didn't sleep Wednesday morning. I drove Mark to work. I read the rest of the Classic Trek section of that Mirror Universe book. I really enjoyed the 2nd half of that story; it had a lot of twists that I didn't expect. I guess the whole story was a twist on what we've been told happened on the show, which din't mess anything up. Except, and this might be cleared up in one of the other 4 or 5 stories to come, but they have all these cloaking devices in the book, and they don't have cloaking devices in the final DS9 Mirror episode. There were ships seen with the cloaking effect in "Though The Looking Glass" I think, but that could have been something other than what it appeared to be, while this would seem to contradict an actual episode. Hopefully that's cleared up later though, as the story was really good.

I thought I might go ahead and read the next Mirror story, or maybe read Harry Potter 4, but now I'm thinking of reading a random Star Wars book. That might change though.

Anyways, after finishing the Trek, I got ready and left an hour early for work. I got a pizza on the way, but they totally fucked up my order. I called them back, and they agreed to trade me for another pizza on my lunch, which was hours away. It really sucked because I hadn't eaten anything before work, knowing that I was going to eat there before my shift. But the pizza I did get on my break, which was made by people who know me, was great.

Work was fun. I worked with DJ, Michael, Alex & Nate. I let Nate borrow "Hedwig & The Angry Inch" & "Shortbus"; I can't wait to hear his reactions.

After work, I picked up Mark. Mark's having some trouble with his family. His family is actually...really horrible sometimes. I don't think they intend to be horrible; they're just too stupid to realize what they're doing to each other. That sounded really harsh, but some of their reasoning has been pretty harsh lately. I even stepped in and let them know how they could fix some of it; I begged them too; I cried. And they still managed to fuck it up. A few years ago, Mark's dad asked him what he wanted for his birthday, or x-mas or something, and Mark told him that he wanted them all to see a therapist, and his dad said ok...and then they never went. I really, really wish they had. This shit has to be stressful for Mark, and it's probably eating at a lot of them in unseen ways. I just wish it would stop for awhile, or get moving at least. It's just kind of festering, and I'm afraid someday it will explode; leaving no survivors.

I talked to my sister Janice on the phone, while Mark drove us to some stores, and then home. I guess our grandmother (who rocks by the way) has the flu. She was ill not that long ago, and she's very seldom ill. I know that she's only got so much time left, because even the healthiest of us has to die someday, and she's getting older, just as we all are... I just don't want to lose her.

I was so exhausted, and there wasn't any real bitserve work, so I went to sleep shortly after arriving home. I did spend about a half hour checking out the stuff that arrived in the mail for me. A new TLA GLBT DVD print catalog, 2 used New Frontier books ("The Quiet Place" & "Renaissance"), the new Mirror Universe volume ("Obsidian Alliances"), JLU: Season 2, and Batman Beyond: Season 3. I watched the bonus features on the DVD's as I'll be lending those to Bryan next time I see him, along with the Uncut version of Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker. When I get all the Animated DCAU discs back from Bryan they are being passed on to Scott.

I slept for about 2 hours before Mark accidentally woke me up. I got up, got a drink, and took my prilosec, before going back to bed. I slept for a little over 5 hours more. I kept waking up, but went back to sleep each time. I got up after a while and put my new stuff away, before writing this.

I work at bitserve today. I should probably get dressed and go get some groceries before Mark goes to work. I'd also like to start reading something before the end of the day.

The L Word: Season 4 ends in 3 days; they've already been picked up for a season 5! 9 days until Doctor Who: Series 3 begins! Oh, and in other random news, I happend on this site that supposedly lists haunted places in Michigan, and one of them is Mercywood Hospital. 15 years today I was an in-patient there. Weird. Wonder what the story is on that.

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   Friday, March 23, 2007

Didn't do much on Thursday. I talked to Corey briefly in the morning. Spoke to DJ & Mollie on the phone later. DJ read the new Buffy comic and is dying for me to read it, so that we can talk about it. I in turn told DJ & Mollie that the final Harry Potter book will be 784 pages long, making it the 2nd longest in the series, after Harry Potter 5. That's good to hear, as the last volume seemed really short, and was of course shorter than Harry Potters 5 & 4. The final Spider-Man 3 trailer should be online today.

I started reading a couple new books. I ate. I slept. I worked at bitserve. I chatted. I put some new pix (or some newly edited pix) in my gay.com profile. I'll update the rest of those pictures sometime soon I think.

I work today, at Hollywood & Bitserve. I'm going back to bed.

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   Sunday, March 25, 2007

I did see the final Spider-Man 3 trailer (<-see below for details concerning this link) on Friday, this one concentrating on Venom & Harry Osbourne while the previous trailer concentrated on Sandman. The 3rd film in the trilogy looks to be the best, which is as it should be. Though I didn't love the previous entries, I grew to enjoy them more. This is the first Spider that I'm actually somewhat excited about seeing. If you click on the link in this section, it takes you to the largest trailer, which may take a while to load, and may also overwhelm your screen! To avoid the latter, just select "view" in the upper left hand corner, then half size, then using the control in the bottom right corner adjust the trailer to your personal preference.

In other entertainment news, it was widely revealed on Friday that Emma Watson, Rupert Grint & Daniel Radcliffe have now all signed on to appear as Hermione, Ron & Harry in the final 2 Harry Potter films! I know they're far too old for the roles now, but I don't care about that; the movies already differe enough from the books, and I'd much rather see these actors through until the end. The other bit of good news, that I'd already heard the grapevine, was that Doctor Who has already been renewed for a 4th Season; the 3rd begins airing 6 days from now, in the United Kingdom. Hopefully I'll be watching it next weekend as well ;-0)

I tried out a new phone on Friday. I talked to my grandmother on the phone while waiting for Mark to pick me up. She had the flu for a few days, but she sounded a lot better now. It's always good to hear that she's doing well.

I was early to work on Friday, and late to leave. I worked with Bryan, Michael, Nate, Joe, & Meg. I let Bryan borrow the final seasons of JLU & Batman Beyond, + Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker (Uncut). Work was mostly fun. Michael and I had a brief conversation about the Indiana Jones movies, and about River Phoenix, which led to some strange dreams later that night. Bryan's son Robert came into the store, dressed kind of snazzy, and we hugged, and talked for awhile. He asked me when I was going to visit next, and we later decided I'd visit Saturday night. We both talked about how my visits would be different without Mollie around. Mollie & I loved to visit Bryan, Robert, Chris (Bryan's fiance) and Diana (Bryan's mother). We'd watch Firefly, or play Euchre, sometimes drinking, and always laughing. It was always such a fun time. Ugh. I miss her so much.

I got a message from Corey while I was at work, and left him one in return. I later called him again while I was waiting for Mark to get out of work and we talked for a bit, and then he asked if he could call me back in awhile. When I got home, I got some more mail, and then got ready for bed. I was exhausted, and just wanted to do some reading and then get some sleep. Corey did call me back, and we were both tired, so we didn't chat for very long, but we did chat long enough to make plans for him to visit me at the condo Wednesday night - Thursday afternoon. I work today, Tuesday, Wednesday & Friday.

I tried picking a random Star Wars book to read, but decided I'd just go ahead and read the final installment of the first Mirror Universe volume. I read more than half of this one ("The Worst of Both Worlds") which is a Next Generation Mirror story, but I'm not enjoying it very much. It doesn't seem to have a lot of story to it; I have less than 50 pages to go, and nothing has happened. Also, while the other Mirror Universe stories we've seen have shown that universe's side of parallel events, or been completely different, this story keeps throwing in stuff from different eras of Next Gen's run, which feels wrong somehow. Oh, and another minor annoyance, is that Klingon blood keeps getting referenced as purple. The only appearance of Klingon blood as purple was in Star Trek VI, and that was only to avoid an R rating. All other instances of Klingons bleeding has featured red blood. Usually when I have 50 pages left in a book I won't stop for anything... This one I put down to begin Harry Potter 4.

When I started reading Harry Potter 4, I was a bit worried that the beginning of the film, which I've seen 3 times, and covered the opening chapter, would spoil the reading for me. It hasn't. There's plenty in this book which never made it to the screen, and didn't need to. The film is a fantastic adaptation; indeed, it is the best adaptation in the series of films so far, because it's both a great adaptation and a great movie. Harry Potter 3 (the movie) is a great movie, but a reprehensible adaptation. I think that the 2nd film actually does a fairly good job at being both as well, though the source material just isn't as compelling as book 4.

I slept well Friday night. I had dreams about River Phoenix, and woke up thinking about my conversation with Michael. He had told me that he didn't love Temple of Doom because of the people still being alive after having their hearts ripped out. But it would appear that he didn't mind the lost arc melting the nazis to mush, or the holy grail doing it's thing...so I'm not real sure what prevents him from liking the first chronological film.

Either way, I reread a poem that I'd written about the night I heard that Phoenix had died. I remember that moment well. It was November 1, 1993, and I was at the Clark gas station in Saline, having a serious discussing with my then boyfriend Jeff Rodriquez, and the news was on the radio. That same night, there was a huge fire in Saline, and you could see the flames & smoke if you just stepped outside the station. River Phoenix was born on August 23, 1970. That's the same day & year that my older sister Janice was born. That's the same day (not year) that our father was born. That's the same day (not year) that I was supposed to be born on, but I was born early, on August 12. I mostly knew about River from interviews I'd read, and from "My Own Private Idaho", which was one of the first gay themed films that I ever sought out, after reading an article about the film; I clipped that article and saved it until I could find the movie. I owned it on VHS, and now own the beautiful Criterion Collection version on DVD. That was a very personal film for me. In the new "Shortbus" movie, which I realize I've already discussed endlessly here, one of the key characters talks about the River Phoenix movie and how it affected his character.

Michael had said that River appeared in the Young Indiana Jones chronicles, but I was pretty sure he was just confusing the series with River's appearance as a young Indiana Jones in The Last Crusade. I decided I'd check to see who was right on wikipedia. I was right. But while I was there I found all these songs by different artists that had been written about, for, or dedicated to River. I got a bunch of them, and I'm thinking about putting them on a cd, with my poetry reading on it, some memories and facts, with some of his dialogue mixed in. I think that would be cool. ;-0)

I got 5 or 6 new, really cool mashups Saturday morning, and tracked down some of the songs that I didn't know. I watched "Angels & Insects" & "Late Marriage". I enjoyed both. I worked at Bitserve. I ate & showered. I read the news. I worked on some cds, and I slept at random intervals. I played a video game. I made a point of not reading, as I thought a break would be nice. I was supposed to hang out with Bryan & his family but we all sort of forgot about our plans, so I was off the hook. We agreed that we'd make better plans as soon as possible. And I slept on...

I woke up around 3:30am. Got some stuff done and then wrote this.

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   Monday, March 26, 2007

I was early to work Sunday night. I worked with Matt for about an hour before Nate arrived, and Matt left with Sarah (his pregnant wife, who rented Desperate Houswives). Alex & Bill also worked, and the night was mostly fun (like always), with very little or zero drama. Oh, and I think I might have inadvertantly hit on this boy named Kwan(?)... But it was all in good fun, and nobody was injured (lol) so I'm good with it...and I think he was too. Silly. Oh...and Alan was skateboarding inside Little Caesars. Strange night. I was going to go see Jeremy after work, but half way there I realized just how exhausted I was and headed to the grocery store instead, and got home a few minutes later than usual, and went to bed shortly thereafter.

I woke up around 6:30am. I had strange dreams again. I've been dreaming a lot about my sister Janice, and I'm not sure why. I hope everything is ok with her. I woke Mark up for work, but he worked from home the first part of the day. I ate and watched the rest of an X-Files episode that I'd started ("Terma") then watched the final season 4 episode of The L Word. I slept. When I woke up I thought I heard Mark leaving, but figured he was just getting the mail. I read the news. I went downstairs to do the dishes and some laundry, and found that Mark had gotten the mail, and left. I called him and he was at work, and had to the bank to take care of some troubles, which worked out in the end. He also got a card for Mollie, as I'm sending her a check; just some bonus cash in case she has need of it. I also ordered her a gift from Amazon. Hopefully things will start getting better for her.

I missed a few calls from Mark & one from Corey. I gave him a call back, and left him a message. I'll call him back later. I went in to work with Mark, and he was moving on the bed and fell towards me. I had my eyes closed and opened them to see Mark falling toward me, and started putting my hand up to stop him from cashing into me, but he crashed into my outstretched fingers, which wasn't what I intended, and he now blames me for his injury, though I was just trying to protect myself. My stomach is all rumbly as a result, so I'm taking a breather before going back to work. Mark's kind of being a dick, but I think he's trying not to be, so that's progress.

I think my spring allergies are kicking in. I thought I might have a cold, but I don't. I'd know by now. But my eyes are kind of itchy and watery. It's just a bit annoying.

I need to get back to work.

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   Tuesday, March 27, 2007

After everything was taken care of with Bitserve, things relaxed completely between me and Mark, which was good. I got a call from my friend Matt in Bowling Green saying he and his friends were going to Necto, but I told him I wasn't sure I was going. My allergies were annoying me. I later talked to Corey who was out to eat with his roomie Michael at the time and couldn't talk long. I still hadn't decided if I was going to Necto or not. I pre-ordered some more Trek books which just became available, continued reading Harry Potter 4, and took a nap. I woke up around 4am. Guess I decided to not go to the bar.

I had more strange dreams concerning my sister. I don't know what's up with the recurring theme, but it's kind of like there's this whole drama unfolding that I start to forget as soon as I wake. It's weird. But it's not annoying or anything.

I got online, and found that all the titles for Doctor Who's 3rd season have been revealed, along with the dates they are scheduled to air in the UK:

03/31/07 SMITH AND JONES
04/07/07 THE SHAKESPEARE CODE
04/14/07 GRIDLOCK
04/21/07 DALEKS IN MANHATTAN [PART I]
04/28/07 EVOLUTION OF THE DALEKS [PART II]
05/05/07 THE LAZARUS EXPERIMENT
05/12/07 42
05/19/07 HUMAN NATURE [PART I]
05/26/07 THE FAMILY OF BLOOD [PART II]
06/02/07 BLINK
06/09/07 UTOPIA
06/16/07 THE SOUND OF DRUMS [PART I]
06/23/07 LAST OF THE TIME LORDS [PART II]

Color me geeked. ;-0) This will be my first season watching them as they air; though I did watch season one of Torchwood as it aired. I watched all of seasons 1 & 2 of Who in about 3 weeks time, and most of that was delayed somewhat by having to track down the episodes. Anyways, I'm excited about the new episodes, especially the final 3 which will feature the return of Captain Jack Harkness! ;-0)

I'm trying to get into watching Ugly Betty. We'll see how that goes. I'm sleepy again, and should probably get some sleep before work, but I also just realized that I should probably do another load of laundry, and I'm really hungry. Don't know what I'll do though.

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I tried to sleep, which seemed to be working for me. I was drifting off, quite happily...and the neigbors then thought they should have an argument next to my bedroom wall, and another neighbor decided he wanted to listen to loud music (possibly to drown out the fighting neighbors). I almost started slamming the walls with my fists, but decided against it. It's not like I don't have other stuff I need to do anyways.

I'm preparing food, and washing my work clothes. I know I can sleep after I get my Bitserve work done tonight, though after I sleep for awhile I need to get some cleaning done. The condo isn't gross or anything; I just feel like some spring cleaning might be in order, and I'd rather get it done sooner, rather than later.

I work with Bryan today, and with DJ too, but apparently their going to switch off a few times for some reason. DJ is bringing in the new Buffy comic for me to read so he can talk to me about it. lol I rented the Indiana Jones triology from work on Sunday, but I've decided I've got too much to read and watch at home to get into revisit those movies now. Maybe I'll find the time just before the 4th installment hits theaters; sometime next year I believe.

It looks like it will warm outside again today. I noticed this year that I don't mind the cold winter months as much as I used to. I think the weather here is nice because it changes so often. It kind of makes all the seasons more fun. Or maybe that's just sleep deprivation talking. lol

I so need to shave this fur off my face!

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   Wednesday, March 28, 2007

I did shave the fur off my face ;-0) I made it to work early. I read the new Buffy comic, which rocked. I worked with DJ, Bryan, Mike, Alex & Nate. I got to see Robert & Kayla as well, and the day went by slowly, without much to complain about, save the boredom. I actually got a lot done yesterday, but I was exhausted by the time I was working on bitserve stuff. And it really sucks to try to learn something new while you're falling asleep. I left Corey a message when I was done, and fell asleep watching the X-Files, around 9pm I think.

I woke up around 5am. 8 hours of sleep? Shocking. I got up and started scrubbing the shower. Mark's done the shower the last couple of times, but his lungs can't hack it anymore. My eyes are burning from the fumes, and I'm all sweaty, but the shower looks tons better. Not perfect, but I'm not looking for perfection. The shower curtain is in the washer, which means poor Mark won't be able to shower before work. I hadn't thought of that when I started.

I have some laundry in the dryer. I still need to clean the bathroom sink, and I should probably get started on the kitchen as well. My room is mostly fine, as is the living room. Hopefully I can get most of this crap done before I go to work at 1pm. Corey is supposedly coming over tonight, but we haven't really talked about it in detail, so who knows if that will actually happen.

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   Friday, March 30, 2007

I called Corey Wednesday morning to confirm our date. I drove Mark to work, then went grocery shopping. I called Corey again to see what kind of soda he likes, and got him some Mountain Dew. Mark & I don't drink a lot of soda, and when we do we drink uncaffeinated sodas like Sprite or Sierra Mist. I went to Meijer first, and picked up some stuff that Mark needed at work, dropped those off at his job, then went to Kroger for most of my stuff. I stopped at Hollywood on the way home to see if I could be late to work as I had so much to do, and DJ gave me the ok. I got most everything done. I was a half hour late to work. There was an annoying bitch customer (who DJ dealt with) but besides that, the day went swimmingly.

After work, I returned to Kroger for the trash bags that I had forgotten, then went to Meijer again for some frozen stuff that I didn't have time to get before. When I picked up Mark it turned out I'd bought the wrong kinds of trash bags and I had to go back to Kroger and get the right ones, then back to Hollywood to get the movies that Nate had borrowed from me, only he forgot them...so we went to his apartment, where Pat gave me the movies. lol Then home, where I took a shower and started hanging up my laundry. Mark had answered my phone when I was in the shower, and I thought he asked me if it was ok if Corey were 15 minutes late...only it turned out he was 15 minutes early.

Corey. I found him very attractive. I really like his voice, and he's funny. My dick certainly liked him. I gave him the tour of the condo, and played him some mashups, and showed him the fan/het/slash art I collect, which he thought was great. He chatted with Mark about playing poker, as they both love that. Later, Corey & I went to Pizza House, where there was more conversation; all of it good.

He drives a big truck, that reminds me of trucks my relatives had when I was younger, living on a farm. He likes country music too. He's dated a goth boy before, and he likes Nine Inch Nails and Godsmack and stuff so he's not really a hick, but he reminded me of a lot of the stuff I was raised on, and I kidded him about it, but, I found it all strangely hot. He drove out to see me obviously, and he drove to Pizza House. I had told him I would give him gas money to go home, but he refused, so I paid for the food.

An ex-bf, ex-fiance of his, named Ian, who works in Ann Arbor, called Corey while we were at Pizza House, and apparently the guy (who's 27 I believe), drove out to Troy (where Corey lives) to visit Corey, only to find that Corey was in Ann Arbor with me. He wanted to see Corey, and I didn't mind, so we went to meet him at Aut Bar (after stopping at home so I could take some pain killer for a minor headache).

Ian was nice. It was strange hearing them talk about their past relationship. Apparently Corey came out when he was 13 years old, so he could go out with the 19 year old Ian. Ian took Corey to the prom, though they had to offically go with a girl, so they partnered with some lesbians, then they danced with each other. ;-0) It sounded so sweet; made me smile. But I was also kind of bored. lol I had half a drink, and my headache was now gone. It was still fairly early (especially for me to be at Aut), but I was tired, as was Corey.

We went upstairs for awhile, and I talked to Erin about the new Buffy comic, and flirted with Corey. Ian was still downstairs, though he was supposed to join us; he was chatting up his 'friend' Wayne. Corey & I ended up kissing. Very nice. We left soon after that. We talked to Mark some more when we got home, as he was watching a poker game, but Mark went to bed soon after that. We chilled for awhile before heading to my room. More conversation followed, before we decided to sleep...but our joint nakedness precluded sleep, at least for a few hours.

Thursday morning, I woke after sleeping just a few hours. My acid wasn't horrible, but I wanted to get up so it wouldn't get worse. I told Corey he should sleep, and what was going on, and he was cool with it. He was cool with a lot of stuff. I told him about my eating disorder, and how it affected my life. How it's still there, but it doesn't threaten me the way it used to, and he seemed to take that all in stride. We talked about many things. It was nice.

Anyways, I was up and about. I had to get Mark up for work. Corey had asked me if the truck driving, country listening, denim wearing stuff was going to be a problem for me, and I'd told him that I'd show him where I grew up so he could see that this was nothing new to me. I needed the car to do that, so while Mark showered, Corey & I got dressed, and drove Mark to work; filling the gas tank on the way home.

When we got home, we ate, and watched the first part of the first Torchwood episode. Then we took a shower, and ended up in bed again, where fun was had by all, which then requred us another shower. We got ready, and went out to visit my Grandmother, who had some important tax papers for me, that my sister Janice had left for me. The visit, and the tour went well. I showed Corey different places in Milan, Mooreville & Saline that were part of my past. I made out with him in the woods behind my house, where I used to have sex with my cousin Michael. It was all very cool. Corey met my grandparents, and my step-dad, Doug. We traded lots of stories, and memories, and it was fun.

I was still really tired though, and I thought we should head back to Ann Arbor while I was still somewhat awake. We went to Hollywood Video for a pit stop, and he met Pat & Alex. We went to Little Caesars where we got some really good pizza. We ate it at home while watching the rest of the Torchwood episode we'd started earlier. Corey liked the show and insisted we watch 2 more. Soon after that, Corey had to leave. We have tentative plans to get together over Easter weekend. ;-0)

I was still horny, and jacked off after he left. I showered, dressed, and picked up Mark from work. I was exhausted, but Mark needed groceries so we went to get him some, which took longer than I expected. When we got home we did Bitserve work, and then I played a video game until I couldn't keep my eyes open and got ready for bed. I texted Corey: "Good friday never sounded so good thanks stud" He responded: "Your welcome and thank you". Then I got another text message from this boy Kristopher. He's this really hot goth guy that I've seen twice at Necto, and we'd exchanged numbers twice - the first time we screwed it up, while the 2nd time I left him a message that he never returned... So of course he finally messages me just after I've had the best date I've had in ages. WTF? lol I still haven't replied; I'm not sure what to say. Instead, I finished a chapter of Harry Potter and went to sleep around 10pm.

I woke up this morning around 6am. I almost felt like I had a cold, but it cleared up and I'm pretty sure it was just allergies. It's that fricking time of the year again, and I was around cats yesterday. I worked on my webpage a bit. I woke Mark up for work. I worked on some Dr. Who / Torchwood episode chronology things that are just for fun, cause I'm extra geeky, and I'm thinking I might actually give in and purchase the Dr. Who DVDs. But we'll see. I rewatched the last Dr. Who Christmas Special: The Runaway Bride, which I enjoyed more than the first time. Then I had a snack while I started writing this. I'd wanted to write this stuff out last night, but I was just too tired.

OMJ!!!! I have a funny Corey / Jason story to tell, that I can't wait to talk about with DJ & Bryan! LOL My right nipple is pierced with a captive bead ring. Corey's nipples are pierced with these wicked looking curley cue things with points on the ends. We were kissing in the shower yesterday and our piercings got locked together!!! LOL That had never happened to me before. We got them unhooked, but my bead came out, but Corey rescued it for me. It was funny! lol

I work today, and I have to leave in about an hour so I really should get ready for work now. I have to find something nice to wear, as Gloria, our cool DM is going to be there today.

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I was slightly late for work, which wasn't a proble. Our District Manager, Gloria (who is way cool) was going to be in the store today, and we've been getting the store up to snuf, only everything that needed to be done was done soon after I arrived, which left a lot of us standing around. DJ had Mike drive me home. I read the news, called Mark, Mollie & Corey. I talked to Jennifer, which was great. I got to hear about her new car, her new man, and a possible City Club reunion! She got to hear all my news, including the dirt on Corey, which was fun. ;-0)

I read some of Harry Potter 4, but wasn't feeling it. I played a video game. I had a snack. I tried to take a nap. I did Bitserve work. Corey called me back later and we chatted for a little while. I told him that I have to work on Good Friday, but that I have Saturday off, and requested Easter Sunday as well. Mark will be out of town that weekend as well, so we'll have the condo to ourselves. Sounds great. Really want to see him again.

The new Buffy comics arrived today (finally). I'm going to buy the next issue at the comic store; it comes out on Wednesday. Then I'll send that issue and the first on to Mollie. ;-0) Mollie is still trying to finagle a trip up to Michigan so she can see the 5th Harry Potter movie with me, as I've never been to see one without her. ;-0) She's reading the books to Kenny, who hates Snape & Draco. Mollie think Snape (while being a major asshole) isn't a villain and will have some heroic part to play in the final volume. We're also privy to some Malfoy info that Kenny & Mark are not, so our opinions of him are colored by shades that might not even affect them. But they should, damn it. lol

I finally broke down and bought the first 2 seasons of the new Doctor Who on dvd; they should be here on Tuesday. It's my "I now work at bitServe" reward to myself. It also means I can free up room on the computer, and I can let friends borrow the seasons and get them hooked on the show ;-0)

Anyways... I might go out tonight. I'm not sure. I might stay in and read. I might watch a movie or play a game, or just chill. I don't know what I'm doing tonight.

Bryan, Chris & Robert are most likely coming to visit us tomorrow evening. We originally planned to be there, but Bryan kindly suggested they make the trip out to see us, as they have a cat and I'm allergic to them. Mark was a bit worried that the smoke (all three of them smoke) would bother his lungs as well, but they all smoke outside their place.

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   Saturday, March 31, 2007

I didn't go out last night. I read, and talked with friends on the phone. I talked to Mollie about Harry Potter. I talked to Travis, who I'd missed a call from earlier. I talked to Corey briefly. I went to bed around 1am, and slept for 8 hours again. Nice.

I started a new, harder game of Marvel Ultimate Alliance. I ate. I called Corey, as I seem to have misplaced some alcohol that was I thought was in the fridge, and I wondered if he maybe drank it when I was out & about, which would have been fine; I just want to solve the mystery - only he said he didn't drink it. I think they may have fallen out in the car, but I have to check. Otherwise I have no clue what happened to them. lol

I tried to sleep some more, but Mark woke me just as I was drifting off. I did some work. I downloaded the new Doctor Who, which Mark & I both watched, separately; him downstairs and me upstairs. I like to watch things new, by myself, and I'm cool with that. We both enjoyed it, and felt it was a good start to the 3rd Season. I liked the references to previous adventures, and Rose, and Mr. Saxon. I miss Rose & her family, but I really like Martha Jones. Hopefully the show will keep getting posted as fast as it was today; it was up less than an hour after it aired! 12 more weeks of Doctor Who; the last 3 of which feature Captain Jack Harkness!?! Nice.

I should get dressed and straighten up a bit before Bryan & company come calling. I'm a bit spacey. I was getting a bad headache earlier (big surprise), and took my meds. The headache is gone (thank Joss) but SPACEY. I'm surprised I didn't get a worse headache the way my jaw got a workout with Corey the other day!?! lol

Oh. And I texted Kristopher back last night. I let him know that I remembered him as the cute goth boy that I'd had the pleasure of meeting twice, though sadly never for long. He wrote back that he isn't always goth, and asked how I was doing. I haven't replied yet. I'm relatively new to texting, and I'm not quite on the ball yet. I'll get used to it I suppose. Everyone else seems to be.

I noticed in Harry Potter 4 that they reference Mrs. Figg again, The Department of Mysteries, and the Lovegoods (who I'm assuming are Luna's family) - very cool. The continuity in these books is fabulous, and you don't really know it until you reread them and see all the pieces falling into place. Like each new book makes the previous adventures more interesting! Like Hagrid riding Sirius Black's motorcycle in book 1. Or the whole horcrux thing in book 2; I'm being vague there, just for those not in the know.

Oh, and I forgot to say that my insurance through Mark went up by $90.00 a month! Mark asked for a 3.5% raise at work to compensate for that, and they gave him a 5% raise! That's good news. And also, Mollie's brother Kenny might have a job soon, which is also good news ;-0)

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