Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Monday.
I worked on my collage. And slept. And ate. Eating takes a lot out of me, because the pills I have to take make me really tired, but that's so much better than the alternative. I also went to Meijer & Hollywood Video to give a disc to Pat, and rent a new video game with Mark. I've been playing a Ratchet & Clank game on the PS3; the graphics are amazing; I wish I could play it with Mollie.
Tuesday. Crazy. Couldn't sleep for the longest time, but eventually collapsed around 3pm. Slept until around 10pm. Then I talked to Mollie, Jordan & Michael on the phone. Jordan's in Grand Rapids. Michael & I didn't actually talk, but just kind of slipped by each other. Mollie and I had a nice chat about Doctor Who, Harry Potter, Psychotic Ice Cream Men & normal looking baby stealers, who just happen to be completely inept. Fun Times. ;-0)
Later I chatted on line. Took a nap. Read Harry Potter (which is slow going this time around). I also, finally, got to see the final 2 episodes of last season's "The Closer" which made me laugh a lot, and get misty eyed at least twice. Fun. Then I updated my website a bit, and preordered a lot of Doctor Who stuff. And then wrote this. I have no clue what I'm doing next.
I'm hopefully seeing Jordan tonight. Then I'm hanging out with this guy Steve on Thursday...though I'm hearing strange things and I'm not sure if that's going to work out. Open Mind. I'd like to see Michael sometime soon. It's hard to balance friends, isn't it? You want to see everybody, but then I lose track of people, and I don't want to...it just happens. This is what parties are for. :-0)
3 and 1/2 days until the Doctor Who Finale!
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Thursday, July 3, 2008
Wednesday night. Mark & I drove through a huge storm with painful rain, cart launching & tree splintering wind, and cell phone calls about power outages...all to pick up some drugs from the pharmacy, get some water, visit Michael, and pick up the new Who magazine (with a lovely interview with Billie Piper). Later, Jordan came over. We watched "Shelter". Then we went to Pizza House where I was able to eat Pepporoni Sticks and coffee without getting sick! Later we played video games with Mark and slept. It was a fun night. Jordan wants me to go see fireworks with him on Friday, but I'm not sure I can make it. We'll see.
Today I got a great surprise from my sister Janice. She watched the disc of Doctor Who that I gave her; enjoyed it, and has started watching it on tv! At least one of my nephews likes it too. I visited my grandma today, and I left the entire series on dvd for Janice there, as she'll be seeing my grandma later. I didn't give her Torchwood though, as rated R, all bisexual whoniverse stuff isn't what she signed on for. lol. Maybe she'll want to watch it later. Stranger things have happened! :-0)
I had some chocolate today. :-0)
I need to get some sleep. And read. And find some way to distract myself from the fact that there is now only about 2 days before the Doctor Who finale! I cancelled my plans with the Steve boy tonight. Perhaps I'll see Michael. I'm not sure. Blah.
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Friday, July 4, 2008
I'm downloading the reconstructions of missing Doctor Who stories. I'll have all but one story ("The Daleks' Master Plan"), but I'll have parts of that story as well. The new episode airs in a little under 36 hours, though it will probably be several hours more before I get my greedy little hands on it. :-0)
I woke up with a terrible headache, but my Midrin has kicked it's ass, and now I feel fine.
I think I might start watching the Classic Doctor Who now, as I'll soon have all the stories. Maybe just an episode a day or something like that, which will actually take me 2 years and 95 days, or thereabouts, and by then I'll have NEW Who episodes to watch. :-0) Of course there will probably be days where I can't watch it at all, or when I'll watch more than one episode. But I'm just thinking (typing?) outload. lol
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Saturday, July 5, 2008
Work was fun yesterday. I got an extended visit from Jean & David Wiggin, which was a great time. I worked with DJ (who had some scary battle scars from a dog fight), Bryan (who wasn't feeling well), Kim, Amanda, Bill, & Brad. Ben also stopped by to visit, and I got an extra long hug. Nice. The movies that Chris, Erica & Michael rented Sunday night were returned while I was there, but whoever returned them didn't come in, so I didn't get to visit with them; it was probably Chris, as they were his movies.
So I'm happy I can eat chocolate again. But I don't think I want to eat that much of it, just because I can. I've never been a huge chocolate lover...and I don't think I want to become one. I am going to try having orange juice today! :-0)
Oh, so after work, and picking up Mark, and taking him to Kroger (where I bought the juice), and stopping by work again, and going home, and playing a game with Mark, I crashed into bed. I was also burning a bunch of discs because I'd filled my hard drive with Doctor Who. lol. But I passed out in my lovely bed. I woke up with messages and texts from Jordan. I him back. Jordan's last message said he was at Necto; the message having been sent a little before Midnight, and it was now 1am. I hustled to get ready and drove out to Necto, where I saw some friends, but no Jordan. I texted him a bunch of times, and called, but no contact was made. I came home kind of bummed, and showered, and then got some texts from Michael, which were happy moments, before I continued my downloads and went to sleep again, which was nice.
Now I'm awake, getting more Who for Mollie & me. About to have breakfast. Wish me luck.
Oh. And I've been pretty random about what I'm reading lately. I've started 3 books and haven't finished any of them. I'm trying to buckle down and get those books behind me.
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My orange juice was delicious, and I had no troubles with it! Yay Me! :-0) It's so weird to be eating and drinking things that have been forbidden me for so very long. I never thought I'd be able to enjoy these types of things ever again, so each little thing is appreciated to the max! It's just really cool, and I'm happier than I've been in ages.
That said...I'm anxiously awaiting the finale of Doctor Who, which should air in a few hours. I'm hoping to have a copy of it by 7pm. That's what I'm hoping, but it could be sooner, and it could be later. I kind of want to go out and do something to distract myself.
I slept extremely well. Mark & I had some snuggle time. I talked to Michael about him maybe showing me around WCC campus, as now that I'm physically doing a lot better I'll probably be looking into going to school there. Mark & I started talking about money in relation to school. And I want a bicycle. Everything is so expensive now, but it's cheeper than gas in the long run, plus I can exercise now, and go out in public without the need for a quick getaway because my stomach is gonna freak out, at least that's what I'm hoping... Anyways, Michael works tonight, but he's said that he could show me around on Monday.
I'm also talking about going to Cedar Point on August 13. It was at Cedar Point, on August 13, 2001 that my delayed gastric emptying began. It was one of the worst days of my life and it has haunted me for years now. And I've never been back to the park since then, when I used to travel there at least once or twice a year, dating back to my middle school years. Going now would be a nice bookend to my experiences, though I wish Mollie could go with me. Michael likes roller coasters and Mark is interested. I was thinking of inviting Jennifer, and I left a message for my sister about it as well - perhaps it could be a family thing. Michael knows them all too. Maybe Bryan & Chris would like to go? ;-0)
If Michael doesn't get to see Doctor Who before he goes to work, perhaps I'll have him over tonight so that he can see it here, where I can hopefully be watching it a 2nd time. I tend to enjoy episodes better the 2nd time, and it would also be a nice bookend to have Michael view the finale here, as I got him hooked on it in the first place.
I'm a big fan of bookends in life. I always like to have some kind of meaningful reflection like that on cds and things I mix. They give me a feeling of closure; of completion. And that's very nice to have.
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I should have the new Who in just under a half an hour. In the mean time, Mark & I have been watching Ratatouille, only the disc is messed up, so Mark is trying to clean it while I write this. It's good so far, but the minute Who is done, I'm gonna be back here at my computer watching the finale! lol
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SpoilersWow. Sadness. Perfect ending for Rose & Jackie and the "Doctor"; I really feel like Rose's story is finished now, and if she ever returns that's fantastic, but if not I'll be ok. Great that Pete and baby Tony got a mention. Loved the silent but obvious "I Love You.", and the reference to the new Doctor being the way that the 9th was when he met Rose.
LOVED that they referenced Gwyneth / Gwen, with the Doctor & Rose smiling!!!
Nice set up for Torchwood Series 3, featuring Martha Jones & Mickey Smith!
K9!!!
I read somewhere...a rumor that the Doctor will be appearing in a Sarah Jane epsiode. I don't know if that's true, but if it is, this set that up nicely.
Loved Donna pushing Sarah Jane aside to hug Jack! Loved Sarah Jane & Rose exchanging words; a nice followup to "School Reunion" for those two, as well as for Mickey & Sarah Jane.
How sad is the ending for Donna Noble!?! It's worse than if she had actually died. It's terrible! I loved the Doctor telling the bitch mother to tell Donna how important she is every once in a while. Loved the grandfather, as always.
Loved that Dalek Caan betrayed the Daleks.
Loved the trailer for the Cybermen.
Loved when Martha met Rose!!!
Loved all the companions flying the TARDIS...
There was a lot to love in this episode. I didn't think it was perfect, but it accomplished a lot, which I wasn't sure they would be able to do. So many nice surprises. A nice closing story, before a long break.
We've got Sarah Jane returning in the fall, I believe. Then the Christmas Special. Then 4 Specials throughout 2009 for Doctor Who. A 5 episode mini-series for Torchwood. A possible 3rd Series of Sarah Jane. And a full Season of Who in 2010, with who knows how many other episodes of how many other shows...
I so need to sleep.
Oh. Loved Davros remembering Sarah Jane! Sarah Jane came off very well in this installment! lol ;-0)
Oh. And I loved the flashbacks to all the dead, dying, or believed dead (Jenny) characters! And how sad was it to see all the flashbacks of Donna as all that the Doctor gave and made of her was ripped away to save her life!!! He should have just let her die. The more I think about it, the more upset I become. But it's a wonderfully tragic fate, that really makes Professor River Song's reaction to her understandable! And I loved the Doctor/Donna Ood connection. I'd already enjoyed the "Your Song Must End Soon" thing in relation to River Song. I loved all the back references, actually. The only major down side of these episodes, is that it makes that horrid Dalek 2-parter last year, very important, and now they're required viewing. lol Oh well.
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Sunday, July 6, 2008
I slept for a few hours last night, then Michael joined me to watch Doctor Who's finale. I enjoyed it even more the 2nd Time, and it's only on repeat viewings that a lot of what I missed really made sense. The End for now. Crazy. I think Mollie will love them, and shout at her tv, and cry...a lot. :-0) I wish I could be with her when she sees these episodes. I'll send them out to her & Wendy on Monday. I'll drop a disc off for Jean & David tonight.
I've got some cool ideas for the ceiling of my room; I hope I can pull them off. We'll see.
I had a shake, but it's coming back up. I might have had too much too soon. I'm still learning what I can and can't eat, and how I have to eat it for it all to work. It will take me some time.
I can't believe Doctor Who is over. I mean...we still have more Sarah Jane, and the specials, and that Torchwood bit next year, but now that I've seen the end of the series, I feel like those specials will be...just special, and not the real deal. And that bumms me out. But I'll watch them all, and I'm sure I'll enjoy them. I'm just not sure what it all means for me right now.
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Monday, July 7, 2008
Yesterday sucked. I'm feeling better today. I'll leave it at that for now. I'm tired of whining in general. The only really bright spot yesterday was that I got some more work finished on my room; putting up 8 more pictures; some of them covering some of the more difficult spots.
I slept last night, which was nice. I slept from about 8pm until 3am.
I've started rewatching the 30th Season of Who. I watched "Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang" & "Invasion of the Bane". I may watch more later; I'm not sure. I have to drive Mark to work, and check out WCC's campus with Michael later. I might rent some movies. I'm mailing out Mollie & Wendy's Who discs today. I need to go to the bank, and get groceries. I need to sort out some stuff with my computer, and get some more Who related extras.
I work tomorrow. I have Wednesday & Thursday off. Thursday I'm visiting my Grandma & Janice & the kids. I have to drive Mark to work every day this week; he gets the results of his tests on Friday; I hope whatever they found, that they can help him - his symptoms are getting really scary. We had some good times together this weekend though. ;-0)
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So I talked to Janice on the phone this morning. She got the Doctor Who discs last night, as the youth group that was calling her family to their hidden location was cancelled on Thursday. I also talked to her about Cedar Point; she sounded interested. We'll talk more about that later I'm sure.
Then I drove Mark to work. Went to the bank (after activating my new card). Went to Staples to get more ink for the printer. Went to the post office and mailed Mollie & Wendy's who discs out. Went to the comic store and bought the new issues of Buffy / Angel & Star Trek: New Frontier. I forgot to get Buffy / Angel issues for Mollie though, which means I'll have to go back later, possibly with Mark. I came home; parking a long ways away. I read the new Buffy, then wrote this.
Now I need to eat, and change my clothes for the molten hot weather. I need to call Michael about my campus tour. I need to track down a bicycle shop. I figure I can go grocery shopping after I pick up Mark from work. Hmmmm... Am I forgetting anything?
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I cleaned a bit in the bathroom; scrubed down the shower. I emptied the trash in the bathroom, bedroom and livingroom, though I didn't take it out. I started a load of laundry. I emptied the dishwasher, and loaded up another selection, which is currently washing. I washed my hands. There's a bicycle shop on packard I might try out later. I need to burn some discs for myself. I need to call Michael.
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Tuesday, July 8, 2008
So after the last entry, I started burning those discs; I love my new dvd burner! Then I texted Michael, telling him I'd call him after I ate, which I did, but he was watching the "finale" of BSG. I told him to call me back when he was done. He did, and said he'd just finished Season 3. I asked him what he thought of BLANK being a BLANK (this is a spoiler free post) and he said that wasn't revealed in the finale, and for a second I thought I was crazy, before I remembered that this is the kind of stuff that I don't forget, and Michael rechecked the disc, and he'd fucked up. I'd almost say that I pulled a Mollie, but he actually said that he'd FINISHED Season 3, not that he was watching it. lol Michael agreed that it was his fault, and wasn't mad, as he said he'd guessed that particular reveal a long while back, which left me wondering if I was the only one who never suspected; Mark later told me he felt the same way (as me). ;-0)
So I went to pick up Michael, then went to WCC where he showed me around campus, with a pit-stop to visit my cousin Jennfer Brunt, who works there. It was all fun. It made the idea of going to school again a lot less intimidating as the school feels more like a big High School than an actual college. I'm sure it's fine, but I've been living and breathing UofM Campus for more than a decade, so WCC was bound to seem tiny by comparison.
After the WCC tour we went to the bicycle shop, where everything was way overpriced. Then we went to the Meijer Gas Station, where I got some gas, a soda (so I could take my pills) and some gum (because I'm an impulse shopper). We then went to the computer store where we got some cables for Mark, which I'm so glad that Michael was there as Mark was speaking in Geek Speak, and I don't understand it. Together we achieved. Then we went to Red Robin, where the food was good, and didn't come back to haunt me. Yay!
After Red Robin we drove out to deep dark Ypsi, to visit Erica at the Kroger she slaves away in, but we were only there for a minute. It turned out I actually knew where we were after our long drive through unfamiliar territory, so I drove over to say hello to my dad, but he wasn't home. Then Michael & I went to Video Hut, where Michael got his own account to rent a truly terrifying film. I got 2 classics, and a Justice Leage movie on Blu-Ray.
While we were inside, the sun went away, and by the time we got to the car it was pouring. We went to Michael's. He wanted to show me a Doctor Who fan video (which was awesome!); he said he'll give me a copy of it. I left soon after, as it was about 5pm, and I figured with the horrid weather, and rush hour traffic, it would take me an hour to reach Mark's work. Only the weather wasn't as bad for at least half of the trip, and then the traffic wasn't that horrid either, which was shocking, but nice. I made it there around 5:30pm.
I was starting to get tired. I'd been awake since 3am. I was early, so I had to wait for Mark. I called Janice. She asked me funny questions about Doctor Who, and then we decided to plan on a trip to Cedar Point next year instead of this year. What with gas, and ticket prices having gone up so drastically...It's just too much, even with a month's advance notice. Mark says we might still go on our own, and then go with Janice next year, but that's yet to be decided. I did get Janice to try to get me to a fair soon though, so I could ride some rides with the kids. :-0) And it was about time, so off we went.
We went to Meijer, where I bought my new bicycle for $269.00 (which is about half the price of the one I liked online, and at that bicycle shop). Then we went to Dunhams for a helmet. Then K-Mart where I got more protective gear, which mostly turned out not to fit...+ I got my new razor, body wash and tooth paste. Then we went to Kroger for a few groceries, and finally home. Most of the stuff we bought is in the living room downstairs, as I was beyond exhausted at this point. It was around 9pm, I think.
I burned a few more discs, and fell asleep fast. I woke up at 5am. Read my e-mail, and wrote this.
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My pills aren't working again. Been throwingup for an hour. I feel like Charly in Flowers For Algernon. Or...well..."Spoilers". I'm going to go back to my non-caffiene diet and see if that helps. If I can eat and keep it down, I guess it doesn't matter what I'm eating. And if I can have a treat now and again that would be nice. But if nothing works...well, then I'm not sure how much longer I'll be in this world. Survival loses it's shine under certain circumstances.
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I slept. I feel better. Mark made some excellent suggestions about my meds. Like maybe after sleeping for 8 hours, my first meal should be light, until I've had the pills in my system for the day. And I also realized that I hadn't taken my quota of Prilosec either, which may have contributed as well. So...I'm hopeful. Sorry guys. I do have my darker moments...but I do seem to make it through them.
In my dream I was helping Gwen Cooper and the Doctor save Donna Noble, who was possessed. lol
I need to get ready for work STAT.
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Friday, July 11, 2008
Wednesday was all about me trying to rest and eat. I think that worked out well. Thursday I visited with my Grandmother, Grandfather, Aunt Marge, Uncle Mike, sister Janice, nephew Jonathan, niece Jillian, cousins: Katie, Moses, Ceefus(?), Dadrick(?), Brooke, and Katie's friend Amanda(that might not be her name). It was all good. But Wednesday night I couldn't keep anything down. Yuck.
This morning I got up, and made sure I'd taken my pills all on time. Later when it was time to take them again, I did so, and waited the right amount of time and had a pop tart, which came back up. I'm not happy. Ugh. What if the pills just stop working? Is there a different pill that does the same thing? I'm kind of freaking out on the inside, and it's affecting everything else I do in little ways.
I watched the last 3 Doctor Who episodes as one big episode and loved it. It's my favorite finale now. ;-0)
Mark is at the hospital. He will get his results today, which I'm aching to find out. I'm waiting on him, so I can get to work. I'm hungry and tired. I'm taking my pills. I'm gonna try pizza later. Even if it doesn't stay down, at least I'll have had an actual meal.
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Saturday, July 12, 2008
So, Mark's results were not what we were expecting, and were rather frustrating to say the least. I don't want to get into it here, as I don't want to get upset again, but suffice it to say that the doctor's don't think that anything is seriously wrong with Mark in the medical sense, and his symptoms are all in his head. Now, I know that this can be serious too, and can be even harder to treat than an actual physical symptom, but the reasons they believe this don't seem to make any sense. But we'll see where this leads us, and hopefully he'll be able to find some relief from his troubles.
I was just slightly late for work. I was hungry, and extremely tired from my pills, but I muddled through. I worked with DJ & Bryan. Bryan left early when Laura got there. I could hardly stand up I was so tired. I took my lunch, and I had my pizza. Most of which stayed down, though at least a slice came up. It was gross, but I felt better than I had in a couple of days...probably because I was able to keep some food down, and so I was getting some energy from that. I was still exhausted though, and I left as soon as I could, and fell asleep soon after.
I woke up around 2am. That's something of a habit for me of late. I called Michael back, as I'd missed 3 or 4 calls from him. We talked about his new work and school news. We talked about tv shows and trips and family. It was nice.
I tried calling Mollie, as I do almost every day (sometimes several times) but I didn't get through. Later she left me a voicmail and I called her back, but she couldn't talk for long cause her phone is charging. She got the final 3 Who episodes though, and she's going to watch them tomorrow, and then call me when she's done so we can talk then. I'm excited to see what she thinks of the finale. :-0)
So...I'm reading 4 books at the moment.
I'm reading the first Harry Potter book.
I'm reading the first Xanth Book.
I'm reading the 2nd Terok Nor book.
And I'm reading the 12th New Frontier book.All of them are enjoyable, but I was in this mood where I didn't want to finish anything, so I just kept starting things. Now I'm trying to finish all these before I decide what to read next.
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This weekend there is a Star Trek convention, which is good news for me, because during these events they update the fans on all the upcoming Trek projects, and that update, at least in part, has been given. Now I know that at least tentativly, there are many upcoming Trek books to be excited about. Here is the tentative schedule for the books I'm excited about reading:
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AUGUST:
- STAR TREK: THE NEXT GENERATION GREATER THAN THE SUM
First lead-in novel to this fallšs crossover trilogy, DESTINY; picks up
where 2007's BEFORE DISHONOR left off.
Author: Christopher L. Bennett
Format: mass market paperback
Cover art by MojoSEPTEMBER:
- STAR TREK: ENTERPRISE KOBAYASHI MARU
Second Lead-in novel to this fallšs crossover trilogy, STAR TREK DESTINY, as well as the prologue to 2009šs THE ROMULAN WAR; picks up where THE GOOD THAT MEN DO left off.
Authors: Michael A. Martin & Andy Mangels
Format: mass market paperback
Cover art by Doug DrexlerOCTOBER:
- STAR TREK CORPS OF ENGINEERS: WOUNDS
Omnibus of six previously published eBook novellas; first time in print.
Authors: Ilsa J. Bick; Keith R.A. DeCandido; John J. Ordover; Terri Osborne; Cory Rushton
Format: trade paperback
Cover art by Rick Berry
- STAR TREK DESTINY: GODS OF NIGHT
Book One of an epic crossover trilogy.
Author: David Mack
Format: mass market paperback
Cover art by Cliff NielsenNOVEMBER:
- STAR TREK DESTINY: MERE MORTALS
Book Two of an epic crossover trilogy.
Author: David Mack
Format: mass market paperback
Cover art by Stephan MartiniereDECEMBER:
- STAR TREK DESTINY: LOST SOULS
Book Three of an epic crossover trilogy.
Author: David Mack
Format: mass market paperbackJANUARY 2009:
- STAR TREK MIRROR UNIVERSE: SHARDS AND SHADOWS
A followup anthology to 2007šs MIRROR UNIVERSE compilations
Authors: Christopher L Bennett; Margaret Wander Bonanno; Peter David; Keith R.A. DeCandido; Michael Jan Friedman; Jim Johnson; Rudy Josephs; David Mack; Dave Stern; James Swallow; Dayton Ward & Kevin Dilmore; Susan Wright
Format: trade paperback
Cover art by Tom HallmanFEBRUARY:
- STAR TREK: A SINGULAR DESTINY
One-off followup to the Destiny trilogy.
Author: Keith R.A. DeCandido
Format: mass market paperback
Cover art by Alan DingmanMARCH:
- STAR TREK TITAN: OVER A TORRENT SEA
Fifth book of the popular book-only TITAN series, and a DESTINY follow-up novel.
Author: Christopher L. Bennett
Format: mass market paperback
Cover art by Cliff NielsenAPRIL:
- STAR TREK: VOYAGER FULL CIRCLE
A new beginning for this series and a DESTINY follow-up novel.
Author: Kirsten Beyer
Format: mass market paperback
Cover art by Mojo- STAR TREK: NEW FRONTIER TREASON
The new novel in the original book-only Star Trek series.
Author: Peter David
Format: trade paperbackMAY:
- STAR TREK VANGUARD: OPEN SECRETS
Fourth novel in the popular book-only Vanguard series.
Authors: Dayton Ward & Kevin Dilmore
Format: mass market paperback
Cover art by Doug DrexlerJULY:
- STAR TREK: THE NEXT GENERATION - LOSING THE PEACE
a DESTINY followup novel.
Author: William Leisner
Format: mass market paperbackAUGUST:
- SEVEN DEADLY SINS
A themed anthology of stories exploring seven foes of the Federaton: The Romulans (Pride); The Cardassians (Envy); The Klingons (Anger); The Pakleds (Sloth); The Ferengi (Greed); The Borg (Gluttony); the Mirror Universe (Lust)
Authors: Dayton Wad & Kevin Dilmore; James Swallow; Keith R.A. DeCandido; Jimmy Diggs; David McIntee; Marc Giller; Britta Dennison
Format: trade paperback- DEEP SPACE NINE: THE SOUL KEY (working title)
Continuation of the post-TV DS9 saga; direct followup to 2008's FEARFUL SYMMETRY.
Author: Olivia Woods
Format: mass market paperbackSEPTEMBER:
- DEEP SPACE NINE: THE NEVER ENDING SACRIFICE
Continuation the post-TV DS9 saga with emphasis on the Cardassians.
Author: Una McCormack
Format: mass market paperbackOCTOBER:
ENTERPRISE: THE ROMULAN WAR
The infamous conflict revealed at last.
Author: Michael A. Martin (trade)
Format: trade paperbackVOYAGER (Title TBA)
Followup novel to FULL CIRCLE.
Author: Kirsten Beyer
Format: mass market paperbackNOVEMBER:
TITAN (Title TBA)
Sixth book of the popular book-only TITAN series
Authors: James Swallow
Format: mass market paperbackDECEMBER:
CORPS OF ENGINEERS: OUT OF THE COCOON
Omnibus of four previously published eBook novellas; first time in print.
Authors: Kevin Killiany; Robert T. Jeschonek; William Leisner; Phaedra M. Weldon
Format: trade paperbackVANGUARD (Title TBA)
Fifth book of the popular book-only VANGUARD series
Authors: David Mack
Format: mass market paperback2010:
NOT YET SCHEDULED:
- STAR TREK: UNSPOKEN TRUTH
A Saavik novel, set after the events of Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home.
Author: Margaret Wander Bonanno
Format: mass market paperback- STAR TREK: THE MILLENNIUM BLOOM
A Captain April novel, set early in his career as Enterprise captain.
Author: Mike W. Barr
Format: mass market paperbackNeat. I'm especially excited about all the Destiny related titles, the New Frontier title, and the DS9 / Voyager / Enterprise relaunch novels. :-0)
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Some Doctor Who news - to be avoided if you're not completely up to date on the show!
The mini-episode will screen on Sunday July 27. It's unknown at this time if it will be made available to the public (meaning ME) or if we'll have to wait for the dvds (probably Series 4).
The Sarah Jane Adventures should air this fall, with most guesses falling around September. The series will consist of 6 2 part stories; 12 episodes. No titles have been revealed, but The Brig, The Sontarans & Mrs. Wormwood are all said to return; probably all of them in the finale.
This year's Christmas Special will feature the Cybermen. It's also rumored to feature someone posing as The Doctor, but that's not been confirmed.
The 2009 Doctor Who Specials. It's possible there are 3, though most sources now say 4.
The first 2009 special will air around Easter Sunday, April 12.
Torchwood Season 3, will consist of 5 consecutive episodes airing on 5 days of the same week; a mini-series. It's highly likely that Martha Jones will feature in this special event. It's possible that Mickey Smith might also appear, but this is looking less likely now than it was before. It's been said that it's possible more episodes will come, but I'm not clear on how that would work; maybe they just meant a series 4 is possible?
The final Doctor Who special of 2009 will be another Christmas Special.
For updates see my Doctor Whoniverse Page.
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So...Skittles, a candy I've never loved, seem to stay down when I eat them. Starburst, not so much. How do I know this? When I was at work on Friday I had this mad craving for candy. I bought big bags of Starburst, Skittles, Sour Skittles & Reese's Pieces (which I haven't had since I was a child). I knew I wanted candy, and that I didn't want any of it to be chocolate. And for some reason, the Skittles don't bother my stomach. Even without the meds. Not sure why that is, or if it will last, but for now, they rock.
And I'm craving another pizza. I might take my meds, go to Hollywood to buy more skittles, and then get a yummy pizza from Little Caesars. Mmmm. My favorite.
I think Jordan wants to hang out, which would be lovely, if only my stomach were at all reliable.
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Sunday, July 13, 2008
So...I did the meds/skittles/pizza thing, and everything worked out fine, in that I didn't have any stomach problems last night at all, which was fantastic! I watched some DS9 with Mark, which was nice, but once I take my eating pills, if I sit still I fall asleep, so that episode (Emissary) is to be continued later. ;-0)
I slept. I slept from around 11pm to 2:35am. Mollie called at 2:35am, which didn't bother me at all. I'd known she was going to call, and left my ringer on just so I could answer that call. She had a bad day, and didn't get to watch Doctor Who; I told her that was fine, and tried to (tiredly) comfort her about her day. She could obviously tell I was still asleep. lol And she let me go. I'll try again tonight, when she calls me with news of Who. :-0)
So I went back to sleep. I woke up at around 7am. I had texted Jordan last night at 9:26pm, but so far he hasn't texted me back. I fear we're drifting apart. But there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it. Sometimes when he wants to hang out my pills have so tired me that I can't really do anything - or they haven't worked and I'm sick. I don't blame anyone who doesn't want to see me under those circumstances, which is one of the reasons my condition depresses me, as it puts a serious strain on any new friendships that I form. I'll just have to play this one out though and see how it works out.
Bobby Mushroe apparently texted me at 3:23am letting me know he was in town, but I was sound asleep at that point. Perhaps he's in town for the day? I don't know. I'll see how I feel, and then if everything's cool I'll give him a text back to see if we can hang out.
I dreamed about Tam Lin. This used to happen to me quite often. I'd read a book when I was in middle school which referenced Tam Lin quite a bit, which inspired me to track down other books and references to the character. I started writing my own version in High School, but this Tam Lin was bisexual. I felt like I was always being inspired by sad characters. Other characters that haunted me included Zor Prime from the "Robotech" TV series and novels (which I own and have read countless times), Ceeto from "War of the Worlds: The Series", and Brian from "V" & "V: The Final Battle", who wasn't really tormented, though based on his hotness, my teenaged mind imagined him thusly. lol I mean, he could have been a tragic figure, but for me it was all subtext. With lizards, there has to be subtext. lol For someone inspired by such sad characters, I was a funny little boy.
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This is another entry about nothing more than a list of things that I enjoy. So anyone wondering what I'm up to can skip to the previous entry, which I wrote earlier today; not that long ago at all. This entry is about "Star Trek: Deep Space Nine"; my favorite of all the Treks so far.
Yes, I'm a huge Star Trek fan. I don't know how other fans would view me. For those that don't know there have been 6 Star Trek shows (not including the films). Here's how they rank in my mind.
06 Voyager
05 The Animated Series
04 Next Generation
03 Classic Trek (Remastered)
02 Enterprise
01 Deep Space NineI love all the Treks. I really do. Voyager has some truly outstanding episodes, but the series contradicts itself (and the other shows) so often that it sometimes hurts my head, which is why it's my least favorite of the bunch. The acting is great, and the visual effects are often still stunning; the production design is flawless, but the writing is sometimes...less so. Thankfully there are books, like the String Theory Trilogy, which help make sense of these contradictions.
But I'm not here to talk about all the Trek shows, though if I were I'd go on and on about how cool the remastered versions of the Classic Treks are, and how I'm aching for them on Blu-Ray!!! No. I'm here to talk about Deep Space Nine / DS9.
DS9 is different from all the other Star Treks in that it's not based on a starship, but on a Cardassian Space Station. Where the other shows feature the various crews solving problems on planets and then flying away, DS9 being stationary forced the show and it's characters to deal with almost all the consquences of their actions, leading to far more character developement than the other shows. The main cast of DS9 is supported by 30 or 40 recurring guest stars, many of which are more developed than the main casts of the other Treks. And all of this is development is played out in a crucible of politics, war, theology, faith, exploration...and all of it haunted by the recent history of the Cardassian Occupation of Bajor (think of the Cardassians as the Nazis - and the Bajorans as the Jews and you'll get an idea of what I'm talking about). Rich, complex stuff. That's what DS9 was. For 7 seasons. And the series could have easily played out those stories for several more, but you have to end at some point, and when the show did end...it didn't wrap up everything, but managed to end things well - in a 10 episode story arc, the grandest finale of any Trek so far. But...like I said...the final arc of the tv series, didn't wrap up everything. How could it? Why should it? Life doesn't wrap itself up. But what was left was a huge opportunity to continue the series in book form.
Now, Trek books up to this point played it pretty fast and loose with continuity, which is why I never really loved Trek books. There were fantastic Trek books! There were some that even referenced others. But they were the exception in my opinion, and certainly not the rule. And then something happened. The DS9 Relaunch. It was decided that DS9 would continue in book form as it had on the airwaves; in a series of continuity rich novels, with a grand story arc, character based, and intricate. Anything less couldn't help but disappoint fans craving the adventures of the DS9 crew to continue. It was a brave, risky attempt to give the fans what they wanted, and in the end they pulled it off admirably!
The DS9 Relaunch has given us a fantastic 8th Season of DS9. It's given us the start of an intriguing 9th Season. And it also seems to have inspired the other Trek books to start forming a massive continuity that up until that time seemed impossible. There are slips now and again, but these are honest mistakes, not out & out ignorance. DS9, for me at least, signifies the beginning of Trek's golden age. :-0)
Ok. So the relaunch currently includes 20 titles, with various offshoots that aren't considered Relaunch books, but really are, + 2 more titles are scheduled for next year. We also got 3 DS9 prequels this year, which tie into the Relaunch in subtle and surprising ways. The first 15 Relaunch titles cover Season 8. The most recent 5 are the start of Season 9. I'll list them all here, with a brief description. And those of you who are already bored, should bale out now. I won't think any less of you. lol
Below, I've listed the first 7 relaunch titles; I'll cover the other titles in 3 other posts to follow at a later time. The books are listed in chronological order, and I've included the Terok Nor books which now seem like important relaunch titles.
Terok Nor 2318-2328: Day of the Vipers
Terok Nor 2345-2357: Night of the Wolves
Terok Nor 2360-2369: Dawn of the EaglesThe above trilogy, which is really a stand alone volume, followed by a duology, documents the complex story of the Cardassian Occupation of Bajor - from mutliple points of view on both sides of the conflict. It's very DS9, in that both sides have heroes and villians, and no one is just one or the other. This 3 volume set, perfectly sets up the series, while filling in gaps in the story that's rewarding to fans of the series. It also has important ties to the relaunch, which makes perfect sense, as the relaunch is just another part of the continuing DS9 story. It's really quite amazing how all the pieces fit together. The books also dovetail nicely with Garak's later Relaunch volume. Fantastic.
The Left Hand of Destiny, Book One
The Left Hand of Destiny, Book TwoThe above duology picks up right after the final DS9 episode, and follows Worf, Martok and eventually Ezri on their first, post-series adventures. Drex, Sirella, Alexander, Kahless, Kira, Admiral Ross, and other recurring characters are also included and referenced. It was an enjoyable read, though I'm not a huge Klingon fan. I may reread these someday, but I'm not in a rush to do so...though now that I think about it, I might enjoy these even more a 2nd time.
The adventures of Worf & company after this novel aren't considered relaunch titles, but Worf & Martok are DS9 characters, as are several other guests that turn up in their books, so I would consider them relaunch novels.
The Lives of Dax.The above Dax anthology is a nice mix of stories. The framework is set a few weeks after the final DS9 episode, and features Ezri Dax remembering what it was like to be joined, giving us the full story of how Ezri really got the Dax sybiont, and how she was suddenly overcome with the memories of 8 previous hosts, each as a different story in this book. It's a neat concept, broken only by the Curzon entry, which is from Sisco's point of view. What seemed like a random entry in the relaunch became something altogether different as the Audrid & Joran stories become VERY important as the series continued, making this volume integral to the whole.
A Stitch in TimeI've read the above novel, written by the actor who portrayed Elim Garak in the series, more times than any other Trek novel. It's that good. But why is it that good? The book is simple, yet extremely complex, much like the character it's based on. It's both a sequel and a prequel to the series, giving us a good dose of post DS9 Garak, while laying bare his soul, and exposing the secrets of his life that would have spoiled many great episodes of the series, but now serve as a huge payoff to longtime fans. The book is written a letter to Doctor Bashir, and follows 3 main arcs: Garak's early life up until the beginning of DS9, his life in late Season 6 / and throughout Season 7, and finally his heartbreaking trials on the devastated post-DS9 Cardassia. Just about every Cardassian we've ever met turns up in the novel. Character revelations abound. And this is the book that actually introduced the Cardassian religion, which became so very important to the Relaunch titles. 5 out of 5 stars. A must have.
To Be Continued...
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Birthday Wishlist
So. People keep asking me what I want for my birthday. And as I just expressed to Michael, here are things I'd like, which I don't really expect to get, but would love to get anyhow:
the safest bet: I'll love this!
Amazon Gift Cards.
Go to "Tools" in your internet browser; then click on "Internet Options"; then hit the "delete cookies" key - then click on the link above, and not only can you send me a gift card through e-mail or however you choose, but I'll also get kickbacks through my website...I think. lol I shop at Amazon constantly, and I can get almost anything there, and I have FREE 2 Day shipping on all my purchases. And any price value is fine. The minium being $5.00, which is, as I said, fine.Do NOT buy me Star Trek or Star Wars books!
I have all the ones I want, and I have all the others pre-ordered! lolOther Sure Win Surprises:
Cash.
I don't really expect cash. lol. The economy sucks. The only person who gives me cash is my grandmother. She also gives some ex-bf's cash if she knows them well, so if you want money from my Grandma try to date me, and get to know my Grandma real well.Anything Doctor Who.
Except dvds. I have almost all of them, so it's best not to risk it. I also have 1 shirt, and the Sonic Screwdriver / Psychic Paper set + loads of magazines. Beyond that you can't go wrong with the Doctor, and the merchandise is varied in size, shape and cost. And just because I have 1 shirt doesn't mean I don't want more!Gift cards for clothing stores.
I hate shopping for clothes, but will do so if I have a gift card. This one's probably not a good idea as clothing is usually expensive. Better to just stick with the amazon one.Here's a nice cheap gift:
Pictures of me.
I seriously need to be working on my new galleries, and I just haven't been. So take some pictures of me, or have one taken with me, and you can rest easy, knowing that you've given me something I can use.Pictures of me having a threesome with Michael & Corey.
You know who you are. Make it happen. LOL Just kidding. Mostly.Pictures of me having a threesome with Lenny Kravitz & Ewan McGregor.
You know who you are. Make it happen. PLEASE!!!All of these are acceptable.
And if you're really looking to make an impression, you can mix and match. Get me a gift card with Doctor Who on it. Or pictures of me having a 5-way with Michael, Corey, Lenny & Ewan! :-0) It could happen!
But if you're in a bind and you can't afford any of these things, or it's against your religion or something...then there is one gift that is completely free, but requires that we be in the same room together. Not that you PERVS!
Hugs. Hugs are always good.
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My stomach continues to behave today. I have to go the pharmacy though to get a refill on my magic eating drugs. Only I had a migrain and had to take my magic headache killer drugs and now I can't drive, but Mark is taking me when he's ready. Blah.
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Monday, July 14, 2008
Oh. I made this birthday list yesterday, but I'm afraid that people will miss it so I'm going to start posting a link to it at the start of every entry, and then if I update that list, all the links will take people to the correct list.
Have you seen my Birthday List?
So Mark took me to the pharmacy yesterday, where I got my drus, some aftershave, boost, and some sun block. I used the sun block after we got home, and took my Red Thunder out for a spin. A fairly short spin, but a spin none the less. It was fun. Shortly after that, Mark went to work.
I got a voicmail from Jordan (not my nephew) while I was out riding my bike, asking about what we were doing last night. I called him back but he didn't answer, and never responded to my voicemail. Yeah. Drifting apart. I sort of suspect that he's met someone else, but doesn't want to tell me about it. I'm not that attached, so I'm not upset or anything. I just hate the boy-goes-silent thing.
I put up more pictures in my room, in more hard to reach spots. Very cool. I'm loving the way it's looking, and that's a good feeling.
My stomach, was mostly fine yesterday. In the evening there were a couple momoents where stuff came up, even though I took my pills. It wasn't painful, and it wasn't a lot, but it was still gross.
A bright spot appeared among all that muck. Not actually in the muck. Eww. But a short preview had been released for Season 2 of The Sarah Jane Adventures! It had all the cast, and Sontarans, and (Mollie's not gonna like this) scary clowns. That should be fun to watch in a few months.
I chatted on gay.com for a few hours. I actually ended up chatting with Chris; the Chris that is moving in with Michael, and spends a disturbing amount of money on him. It was nice chatting with him though. He's a really nice guy. But it was weird, because it was becoming apparent that he still didn't know that Michael and I are still lovers. I chatted with Michael later, and told him that I was disgusted by the whole situation, and that I didn't want Chris to be hurt, and that Michael should tell him about it. I want to be Chris's friend, but that's kind of hard, when he likes Michael, and I'm 'secretly' fucking Michael, which I never wanted it to be a secret. When I first talked to Michael about this he said that he didn't feel that it was any of Chris's business, and I wasn't hanging with Chris, so I accepted that. But then Chris & I met again, and hung out, and that complicated it for me. Plus, Chris obviously likes Michael, and it seemed dishonest for Michael to pretend to not be involved in any way with anyone, when he was, and Chris was buying him stuff all the time. I talked to Chris about some of this, but in very vague terms, and told him that I didn't want him to be hurt and that I worried about him. He told me that a friend of his from back home had expressed similar concerns. Well, when I told Michael all this, without going into detail about what Chris had said, as I didn't want to betray his trust, Michael asked me if I had Instant Messaged Chris under an unknown name and told him that Michael was only using Chris for his checkbook!?! I was shocked. And yet, I can understand why people would think that. I know that it's more complicated than that, because they're friends, but I also know that Michael has kept information from someone who likes him, and spends a great deal of money on him - with questionable intent. Now I'm curious about who it was that sent that message to Chris, because I suspect it's one of Michael's friends. But I didn't even have Chris's AIM name until last night, so it couldn't have been me. And I don't want to be accused of it. The whole thing is probably moot now, because I got a text from Michael around 3am saying that he had told Chris. But now I'm left wondering what exactly he told Chris. What if he told him this is something new? Then it would look like I was threatened by Chris and hooked back up with Michael as a result. Or what if he told him everything as it happened? Is Chris gonna be pissed at our conversation online where I said nothing about it. It was horrible feeling like I was in the middle of this big deception which never should have happened in the first place, from my standpoint. My feelings in this matter are complex, and I'm just typing this out to try to make sense of them, I susppose. Oh well.
I went to bed around 11pm I think. I woke up around 4am, and I called Mollie. She was supposed to watch the 3 Part Doctor Who finale last night / this morning, and call me with her gut reactions, only she didn't. Now I'm worried. I hope she's ok. I'm constantly worried about Mollie. I don't trust her environment or relatives to keep her safe. I hate them to a certain degree, because it feels like they lied to her to get her away from the people that really care about her, and need her; not just me. Hopefully I'll hear from her in the next 24 hours.
Around...7am I think it was??? I woke up again from a nightmare in which I couldn't open my jaw. My jaw sometimes locks up, so this is a very real fear of mine. I was having some problems with it, but less so than in my dream. I took some muscle relaxants, which helped.
I noticed I had a voicmail from a friend of mine I'll call B-Invsible; B for short. So B is up for this big job where they do background searches and my website pops up on google, and he asked if I could drop his last name from all the links. Which I did as soon as I heard the message, because the message was nice, and he explained that he had no problem with it at all, but that this was about a job - and my website and the expressions on it were never meant to harm anyone, so I did what he asked. It was a lot harder than most people would think too, because there was a lot of 'behind the scenes' stuff that I had to work out to make it all work. But I did it. Trouble is, that the files are still cached on google, meaning people can still click on the cached button and see all the info that I removed. Not sure what to do about that. It will eventually go away, but I'm not sure it will be in time. I hope this works out for everyone, so that B-Invisible can...be invisible.
Also this morning, I stumbled across some Star Wars book info that really caught my attention. Ok. So my favorite Star Wars book of all time is:
Now, I wasn't one of those fan boys who worshiped Darth Maul the moment he was revealed. I don't love the Star Wars universe the way I love Doctor Who or Buffy or Firefly, or BSG. But there are moments in the Star Wars Expanded Universe where everything comes together in a beautiful moment. The above novel accomplishes that in my opinion. It's only got cameos by the film characters, except Maul. You know how the story will end even as it begins, and yet you don't. There is some amazing character work in this book, that allowed a moment of true transcendence, that is all too rare. I never expected anything in the way of a sequel. But amazingly enough, here it is:
Coruscant Nights I: Jedi TwilightIt's written by the same author, and features several sequel elements to the first. There's also a stop over in another Star Wars novel that I already own, but haven't read yet. But the one above is the true treasure. I ordered it on the spot (along with it's 2 sequels). This volume should arrive this week, and I'm really excited about this book. I feel like I've been waiting for this Star Wars book for 8 years, without actually realizing it. Very Cool.
I slept some more after ordering the books. Woke up, realizing that Mark was still asleep and supposed to be at work in 5 minutes. I got him up. We chatted as he got ready. It was nice. I called Mollie again, but there was no answer. I hope she's alright.
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So...I don't have to start each entry with a link to my birthday list, as Mark set it up that it's at the top all the time. See it. :-0) Mark is all kinds of smart about things like that. Go Mark! Three Cheers for Mark! :-0)
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That Star Wars book I ordered has shipped so it should be here this week. Yay. :-0)
Ooh. I want Birds of Prey! It has all 30 episodes of Gotham Girls on it! Gotham Girls being 1 of the DCAU parts that I still don't have! Roar. Plus I thought the series had moments of great fun, and a lot of poetential...that never had a chance to be fully realized. :-0)
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Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I'm on my zombie cycle today, so I'm way out of it. And my stomach was so beyond upset this morning. I thought I might have a flu bug, and perhaps I did. It was all about the ick. Blah.
But before that, everything was going well. I made it to Necto last night, and Freedom was there. She's this girl that I met ages ago, and we usually have a blast, but I'm pretty sure she was on something last night as was acting really strangely. She als told me that she's been really self-destructive lately, so that lends credance to my theory. It was odd. Michael & Chris made a surprise appearance which was a very welcome surprise. There was much fun and dancing.
I'm supposed to hang out with Michael today and look at the new place he's moving into with Chris; they sign the lease today. But I don't see that happening on account of my crazy pills and upset stomach. Oh well.
I'm reading Harry Potter today. Some days I read all four of my books. Others I just read one. Harry Potter wins the day so far.
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Wednesday, July 16, 2008
My stomach is doing a bit better, but now my head is killing me. My midrin hasn't killed this one like it usually does, though it's muted it a bit. And my stomach, while feeling loads better, is still squeamish.
Cool Spoiler Free Fact about the finale of Doctor Who: it's now been confirmed that "Journey's End" was the most watched program the week that it aired, with a rating of 10.57 million viewers. This is the first time in Doctor Who's 45 year history that the program has achieved this position, and it did so by a clear margin of more that 1.5 million viewers! The previous Who episodes that came even close to this honor include the previous episode ("The Stolen Earth") and last year's Christmas Special ("Voyage of the Damned"), both of which came in 2nd place, which were the highest the show had charted since the classic years. The highest the classic series charted was the 4th Doctor story, The Arc in Space, Part II, which came in 5th place, and aired in 1975. The final 2 episodes of Season 30 (or Season 4, depending on your definition) also achieved the highest ever audience appreciation index figure, with an incredible score of 91 for both segments. To put that in some kind of perspective, for a minority program on a digital channel to score over 90 is unusual. For the most watched program of the week to score this high is unprecedented and a massive achievement, making the final 2 episodes, and thusly the final 3 Part Story ("Turn Left" got an AI rating of 88, which equals Excellence, and was the 4th most watched program) the most successful episodes of Doctor Who ever made!
I've slept on & off in the last few hours. Also worked on some collages for my collage. It's this new thing I've been doing, making collages on photoshop and then mixing them up in the collage of my room. This way I can use more pictures I like, some of which look crappy if blown up. I also get to use some sexy pix that I can edit slightly so to a achieve a pg rating that won't freak out family members. Plus I get to do neat themes. It's fun.
I've also been reading more in the last 48 hours that I had been. I read 8 chapters of Harry Potter; 1 chapter of Xanth; 1 chapter of Terok Nor. I've set aside the New Frontier book I was reading, as I'd only read the prologue, and can get back to that one whenever I choose. In some ways I'd like to delay the reading of that one, just because I now have fewing New Frontier books to read, than I've already read, which saddens me, as it's a truly great series of books.
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Thursday, July 17, 2008
I hate my new keyboard. My old one died, and Mark gave me the keyboard from the downstairs computer. I was having a really fantastic day, and now I'm not...because of this fucking keyboard. I wrote out this really long entry, and then, the way I rest my hands on my old keyboard, isn't possible on the new one, and I'm constantly deleting things that I've written, but hitting a few random buttons on accident, which just wasn't possible with my old keyboard! Now I have to start over again, and throw off my whole schedule, which was going really, really well. Ick. So much for having an entry where I don't bitch about anything.
So...yesterday (I fucking hate having to type this all out AGAIN). And I know that Mark is going to say there was some easy way to fix it, but he wasn't here, and that's just going to make me feel worse. Ugh.
So....yesterday, I slept on & off for a lot of the day, trying to dodge the headache that had latched onto me, and eventually I managed to accomplish this, without taking massive amounts of pain killer. I finished reading the first Harry Potter book. Later I put up some more pictures in my room in some problematic positions, which turned out nicely. I wanted to do more, but I just felt a bit off. Part of this was most likely me coming out of zombie mode which can be even stranger than being in zombie mode. I don't know how people deal with being on anti-depressants at a full dosage, because the smallest dose fucks me up big time.
(I've begun saving this entry after every paragraph or so, so as not to lose it again)
I chatted on gay.com for awhile, thinking I'd get back to the pictures later, but I got a message from this man that used to chat with me last summer. A hot 45yo doctor, whom I never met in person, though we always wanted to. We siezed the moment, and met in Kerry Town around 10pm. It was hot, and there was a lot of pretty lightning, and so we walked. We didn't have a lot in common aside from our attraction, which was fine; I mean, we were just hanging out, and I was enjoying myself. I think it was just so great to be outside, and not have a headache, or a stomach ache, or food flying out of my body, that I would have been enjoying anything, but he was nice, and funny, and cute. It started to rain, and got really windy, but we didn't let that spoil our fun...and after it died down, we hugged and said our goodbyes. I don't think we'll ever be a couple or anything; it wasn't like that, but it was fun meeting someone and having a casual, fun conversation, and going for a walk in the rain.
After he left, I went to Aut Bar, where I ran into my friend Ray. Ray & I went out once a few years ago, but nothing ever came of it. We always say hello when we see each other though, both in person and online. He's nice. And we flirt. It's just good clean fun. I watched people playing pool as we chatted. And later, this boy that I'd noticed walked by me as he was leaving, and he squeezed my shoulder. I thought maybe I was supposed to know him, but I didn't have my glasses on... So I followed him outside and struck up a conversation.
His name was Preston James Clayton, and he was 20 (born in 1990), and I didn't know him. While I was chatting with him, Joe & Randy, 2 faces from my past wandered up with their friend Max - and the fun chatting continued. They eventually left. I also met Preston's friends, one of whom (Angela), I'm pretty sure is really close friends with Nate (Michael's friend, and Paul's ex).
To make a long story shorter (which is to say, with fewer details, as I don't feel like writing it all out a 2nd time), I ended up talking to Preston for at least 2 hours, part of it in my car, as it was raining. We flirted and chatted, and it was all nice. I wasn't trying to seduce him, or fuck him or any of that, but it was fun to talk to someone new. I love meeting people, and talking to people, and I just haven't been doing that lately, and this was fun.
Eventually we parted ways, with Preston walking to the diag to meet up with friends, and me driving home so I could eat. I found his myspace page, and sent an add request. I took my meds, and ate 13 chocolate chip cookies, without thinking about it. And they didn't make me sick. I brushed my teeth; I turned out the lights, and I slept extremely well.
When I woke up, I felt amazing. I took my meds. I put away the dishes. I starting picking up around the living room and my bedroom. Wendy and her boyfriend are coming to stay with us tomorrow night, so Mark said we should clean when he got home, but I felt like doing it now, which I thought Mark would appreciate. I took a break to have a snack and write this, which took WAY longer than it should of thanks to my keyboard from HELL. But now I'll get back to the cleaning, and hopefully I'll get to put up massive amounts of pictures later.
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My 'fantastic' day continues to degrade. I did a load of laundry earlier, thinking I was safe from chapstick disasters (I've ruined a lot of my favorite clothes by leaving a chapstick in the pockets), as my chapstick was on the counter...not realizing that I'd actually found an old one, so some of my clothes now have blue waxy spots on them. :-0( Including my white Cure shirt, which I had thrown into the dryer by mistake, as I hadn't even washed it yet. Today is starting to suck. Could someone please cheer me up?
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Got a lot of work done on my room today. It was not a great day. Lots of things went wrong. But my room looks awesome. I did some cool patterned stuff; working with scraps that I thought were spoiled; turned out looking fab. I put a lot of pictues on the outside of my door, which is about 3 quarters of the way finished. A lot of pictures went up near my closet, which is very nearly completely enclosed in pictures. Once my room is finished, I might do the inside of my closet. Anyways - I put up about 30 pictures, which was a lot of work, it looks good, and I feel like I accomplished a lot.
I also did the dishes, some more laundry, and picked up lots of trash. Mark has been cleaning the living room; kitchen and bathroom. I'm about to help him with the tub, then we need arrange stuff so we can unfold the bed downstairs for our guests. Then we need to wash the sheets. I might wash some of my clothes with those so I can be done with those; well all I'll have left is my whites, which I can wait to wash later.
I would have liked to have seen some of my friends today, or at least called a few, but I've just been busy, busy, busy all day. So if you feel ignored, I'm really sorry. I would have really have liked to have seen Michael sometime since Monday, but it just hasn't worked out. Blah.
I work tomorrow.
I've got this Feist Remix cd that I never really listened to as I decided I didn't like it... But I've been grooving to it the last hour or so. ;-0)
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Friday, July 18, 2008
Mark & I got everything done last night, then we both passed out in our separate rooms. I woke up around 9:30am, to tell Mark he was supposed to be at work a half hour before, but he was already up and knew the score. Later he woke me up asking me to drive him to work, but I had a horrible headache and could hardly open my eyes from the glare of my room, let alone the sun, so off he went. He had to do this business lunch thing so he couldn't drive me to work on lunch. I ate, and finished some stuff before calling work to let them know I needed a ride, but after I was done getting ready and just sitting waiting for my ride, they called and said it was dead and I should just stay home...which was a bummer. I was really looking forward to seeing my coworkers, and Jean was supposed to stop in today, and I was supposed to drop off a dvd for Pat & Cara...and I wanted to show DJ the new Star Wars book I'm reading. Oh, and did I mention I'm broke and need the money???
Skittles are like a drug.
So now I'm not sure what I should be doing. Perhaps I should just relax? Read? I can't work on my room because I need to print new pictures to mix in with the old, and I'm all out of the paper I need. Perhaps I'll chat? Maybe Michael is free. I had a text fest with Jordan, but he's supposed to be all booked up until next Thursday. Hmmm.
I suppose there are worse fates. At least my stomach seems to be in good shape today.
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Monday, July 21, 2008
Spoilers for Doctor Whoniverse Season 30 3 Part Finale! I wish Mollie would sit down and watch it already!
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This rocks. :-0)
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I ended up reading on Friday. I started reading the first Star Trek: Titan novel, Taking Wing, as I need to read those 4 books before an upcoming trilogy. I also started reading the 2nd Harry Potter book, The Chamber of Secrets. I'm still reading the 2nd Terok Nor novel, and the first Xanth novel as well. I'm enjoying them all though, so I'm not worried about it.
Michael was talking about dropping by Friday night, so I had planned to visit with Wendy & Jeff, let them go to Necto without me, while I visited with Michael, and then hang out with Wendy & Jeff after they returned, and I'd taken a nap. But Michael cancelled, which was fine. It was fun to see Wendy & Jeff again. They talked me into going to Necto with them, which was fun, though I got tired really fast, having eaten with my magic drowsy pills (a fantastic pizza with Mark), then just not having gotten a lot of sleep.
DJ Jinx / DJ Dan ran into me at the bar, and told me that Tom Hanks and Drew Barrymore were in the VIP room. I looked for them, but couldn't find them...and I thought that maybe he was just really, REALLY drunk, but then I googled Drew Barrymore and found this, this, this, and this, plus tons more - so they probably really were there - how strange is that? lol
Oh. We met up with Wendy's friend Erica outside the bar. Erica had been to our condo once to play poker, which she won. She's a really nice, fun girl. She was my plus one when I got in free to the bar, thanks to my VIP Pass. Later I got a free drink from Becky, and then later still, Scott, the manager of the bar, ran into me and I told him about having been thrown out a few weeks ago, which he thought was hilarious. He bought me and my friends a round of cream bombs. ;-0) It's nice to know people. ;-0)
We left sometime after 1:30am. When we got home, we just sat, drank and talked for about an hour or so. I went to bed around 3:30am. Saturday morning, Mark woke me up, after not having slept much, to go to Toledo to visit his mom, twin brother, sister-in-law, and nephews - which was a lot of fun actually. I was tired most of the day, but it was great to see everyone. Maria (Mark's mother) and I have come a long way since she attacked me in 1996; I told her it felt like she was family, and she agreed that we all were now. Playing with Mark's nephew Nick, who is 3, was a lot of fun. Talking with Marcus and Julie is always a joy. The whole thing was just perfect. I know Mark wanted it to last longer than it did (you should see and hear him playing with his nephews - it just makes my heart smile everytime I hear Nick say "Uncle Mark") - but I was exhausted, and we all ate, so my pills just added to that - so much so that I was wobbling on my feet by the time we left, and I slept most of the way home.
We stopped at Barnes & Noble. I got the latest Who & Torchwood magazines. We looked at Manga for Mollie, but Mark decided to get it from Amazon, as it's cheaper and easier to send to her. This was all Mark's idea, which I completely support. I know he's worried about Mollie, and again, look how far they've come! But I think he's also a bit worried about me; I can get really down when I'm not in contact with my best friend.
Saturday night I put up more pictures in my room. I napped on & off. I read. I played video games that we rented from Hollywood Video on our way home, after going to the book store. Mark watched "Shooter" on Blu Ray. One of the video games was really pretty, but just kind of made me sad, because this is so a game that Mollie would rent and play - and it felt like Mollie should be there playing the game, and I should just be watching. It was a quiet night.
Sunday morning, Mark woke me up several times. Once he was on the phone with Marcus, and then when I actually woke up, and went downstairs, expecting Mark to still be on the phone with him, Marcus was actually here. He'd brought their old comic collection from their father's house (where it's been stored for years) to the condo, where it now resides, taking up a lot of room. They had wanted to open a comic shop when they were younger, and from the looks of it they were well on their way to owning every title available. lol
I worked on my collage most of Sunday, designing collages to print up and then tie into the already existing, ever expanding whole. The outside of my door is very nearly finished. Other sections have seen massive changed in the last few days, which I love to see happen. I might work on it a bit later, but I'm worried I'll get really into it, and then be forced to stop, as I'm nearly out of ink & poster tape. But I'm proud of what I've done so far. Marcus saw it for the first time, and seemed to enjoy it. Wendy & Jeff, who had seen it before, seemed to enjoy it even more this time. I wish Mollie could see it.
About Mollie. She's depressed. She's depressed, and not talking to anyone, that I know of. Perhaps she's talking to Adam and not to me. That's a kind of usetting thought. Maybe I've been annoying her lately, or...maybe I'm paranoid. Maybe she's dead. Maybe she's...I don't know what. I hate not hearing from her. I've done nothing but worry about her for the last year and a half, or however long she's been in that HELL HOLE. From the moment she got there, it's been nothing but trouble. Even her good times, were muted by her environment, and there's been nothing we could do to help her. I tried to stay in touch. I send care packages of books and tv shows and anything I can think of that might keep her spirits up, but I think that these things are losing their power to help her... And I don't know what I can do to help her, and so I feel...helpless. And it sucks. And I miss her. And it's constantly at the back of my mind, while sometimes it's all I can think about. It just sucks.
And to top all that off...lol...Mollie has watched every episode of Season 30 of the Whonvierse EXCEPT the 3 Part Finale, which is the HUGE payoff to all that's come before it. That 34 episodes she's watched to just stop cold turkey before crossing the finish line. I think part of that, is that she loves Donna and doesn't want anything bad to happen to her, despite all the prophetic things in the previous episodes that suggest she's in for a dire fate - but if I could just tell her that her story arc is tragic but beautifully handled, and probably not what she's expecting. It's what has clinched Season 30 as my favorite season of the Whoniverse. That, and that it gave us 2 amazing companions in Donna & River Song, who more than make up for the poorly handled Martha Jones storyline last season - who's character is so much cooler having left the Doctor behind. Anyways - I'm still aching for Mollie to see the finale, and it's a constant irratant that we haven't been able to have THAT conversation that follows the finale every season now.
Last night, Michael came over and checked out my room, sexed me up, and took me to see his new place, before taking me to Pizza House for extremely good food. I had a coke with my meal, which is still a special treat for me, having not been drinking any caffinated beverages for the last 7 years. It was good. And when he dropped me off, I was perfectly happy to flop into my bed.
This morning the first titles, for the first 2 stories of The Sarah Jane Adventures (Series 2) were announced:
01 The Last Sontaran, Part I
02 The Last Sontaran, Part II
03 Day of the Clown, Part I
04 Day of the Clown, Part IIThat leaves just 4 more stories; 8 more episodes. It's interesting that the series opens with a lone Sontaran episode, which sounds like a perfect sequel to "The Poison Sky". This should also bookend the series, as it's widely been stated that the Sontarans (and the Bane / Mrs. Wormwood) will return at the end of this series.
I updated my website with the info, and also created a page explaining why I watch Season 29 of the Whoniverse in the order that I do. I'm sure it has some typos in it, but it's a good start, and once I correct the mistakes that I'm sure are there, I know that I'll love it.
Later I slept, and I dreamt I was watching the new Sarah Jane episodes, which morphed into watching a BBC Spider-Man tv series, which, fittingly, was really AMAZING. lol Fun dreams.
So I'm awake now, with not much to do.
In other news I may have forgotten to mention anywhere else... I don't work at all this week. Which sucks, because I need the money, and I didn't have anything planned until Thursday, which I'd requested off. I don't know why I wasn't scheduled, but I hope there's a good bloody reason.
It's been announced the final run of Battlestar Galactica episodes will begin airing in January, so in about 6 months, which isn't that bad. Between now and then we'll be getting 10 2 to 3 minute webisodes. We'll also be getting the Caprica pilot (set 51 years before opening scenes of the parent series), and possibly other Caprica episodes, and at least one more telemovie, which may focus on new characters. The finale of BSG is said to be 3 hours, and is getting high praise from the cast and crew. I have very little doubt that it will be a fitting end (these are the people who crafted the ending of DS9) - yet I know that not everyone can get what they've set out for, and I'm wondering how this will all play out.
They're making Scream 4 for 2010. It's been long enough, that a sequel doesn't seem as bad, as it would have if it had been announced right after the 3rd one, which seemed to tie up all the loose ends. But will a 4th film kill the series, which I felt remained strong throughout it's trilogy status? I don't know. But Jamie Kennedy has been talking about the film, which is a good sign I think.
The Batman Begins sequel did amazing business, breaking all kinds of records in the process, and is getting better reviews than the first one, so perhaps I'll see it sometime. I just want to enjoy it more than the first one, which was a mixed bag in my opinion, and didn't deserve the fantastical status that people seemed to give it. It's weird to see a movie that so many people enjoy, and then not like it. Especially when you're a Batman fan. So...I just felt kind of burned by the first movie, and I don't want to re-experience that sensation. Mollie would understand.
The L Word's final season (Season 6), which is now filming, will open the door to a spin-off series! :-0) But what is it, and how does that work? lol
And I think that's all my news for now.
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Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Monday night I ran into Preston (who I was thinking was 20, but is actually 18), and other friends. I had a blast, but I was tired again. I left early, with Preston in tow. I guessed correctly that Preston was living on the street. I brought him home with me, showered with him, and went to bed. We didn't screw or anything, though he attempted to get stuff going several times, and I almost gave in at least twice. The thing is, I like him, but there's so much going on right now, that I'm afraid of adding anything else to the mix, and I don't want to hurt him, or anyone else, which I tried to express to him. He later told me he had a good time, and that he liked me and that was all good.
Preston actually stayed until after 4pm on Tuesday. I called Michael afterwards to let him know what had happened to me the night before. My new Next Generation book, and my new toy both arrived in the mail. I won't be reading the book until after I've finished the first 4 Titan novels, but I have to read it (and a new Enterprise novel coming out next month) before an upcoming crossover trilogy to be released as the year closes out.
Mollie got in touch with me last night, and she'd watched the finale of Who, and was getting back into Classic Who, with the 3rd & 4th Doctors. It was great to hear from her. She spoke to Mark on the phone, and I was struck by how different our conversations always are. I always talk about distractions, while Mark always asks about the more important issues, that I don't want to discuss with her, and risk upsetting her. I enjoy our conversations, but take great care not to bring up anything that might ruin Mollie's mood.
Bryan & Chris both called me last night, and we're planning on seeing Hellboy 2 tonight, at 7:40pm, at Showcase in Ann Arbor. I haven't been to a movie in 6 months, and the last one was AVP:R, which was beyond terrible. HB2 looks really good though.
I went to Hollywood last night, and gave Mike a BSG / Who disc, and chatted with him about various topics. He's on episode 4 of the new Who, and he loves it, and loves Rose, so that's awesome. It's good to have that, as it seems no one else at work loves the 9th Doctor the way that I did. I think it helps that he knows the actor from HEROES. After Hollywood I stopped at Kroger for BOOST and batteries.
I stopped at Aut Bar to see if Preston was there with his friends, as he'd mentioned he might be, but I didn't see any of them. When I arrived, and when I left (which happened in all of 1 minute), there was a cute boy outside, who commented that I was leaving so quickly. I explained that I'd really only stopped by to see if my friend was there. We flirted, and chatted for about 5 minutes. His name was Shawn / Shaun / Sean; I didn't get the spelling. He had long fingernails, dark skin, and a handsome voice - and he was hot...and 19. What is it with me, and the young ones lately? Anyways, I let him go, and told him I might be back later, if it turned out that my friend was going to be there...only I called Preston when I got home, and he wasn't going to make it to Aut bar, as he was moving stuff out of his parents' place.
After I got off the phone with Preston, I found that he had e-mailed me...telling me all kinds of sweet things, which I responded to, and reaffirmed my stance that while I find him attractive, I'm thinking now isn't the best time for us to be more than friends, and that this isn't based on me not liking him, but on me liking him a lot. Hopefully we can be friends, because I'd like that a lot. He amuses me. He's funny, and cute, and brave. What's not to like?
Star Trek - Titan #01: Taking Wing
(my apologies to Mollie for the large Riker and Counciler Botox imagery)I read more last night. I'm really enjoying this TITAN book, and all the different aliens and characters. I've defended this book for ages, without ever having read it, as it includes a gay character, who was established in other novels. People bitched a fit about it, and now that I'm reading it I find they were even more off base than I'd first thought; the references so far have been extremely minor, and incredibly sweet. Bitches. Grrr.
I had some trouble sleeping.
Mark woke me up this morning, thinking that I needed the car, but I really don't. I just need it tonight, after he gets out of work, so I can make it to that movie. That's all I have planned for today, really. Tomorrow Corey will be here; we'll probably watch the Who finale. Then Friday I'm going to the fair with my nephews...I think. I don't think that's really been confirmed yet. I'll have to call Janice and see what's going on there.
I just went over my Season 29 page (for Doctor Who) and I think I fixed all the typos.
I think I'm gonna wash my sheets, and clothes and stuff. If I can stay awake. Later.
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A couple of days ago, I was missing Shawn Foreman. Not the Shawn Foreman that exists today, but the one I met 8 years ago. I decided then that I'd print up an old picture of us, and add it to my collage of pictures in my room:
June 9, 2000The picture is from one of my happiest memories, and I thought it would look nice on my ceiling, where I'm placing a lot of black and white pictures. Only this has now lead me to printing up more photos of me and my loved ones...and they're really cool, but I'm left wondering where I want to place them all. Do they all go in my room? And if they do, then what of my plans? Should I start placing them in the hall? How should I balance the photographs with art? It's raising a lot of questions. This isn't a problem, as I think the raising of questions is good, but it places me in this moment of flux, in which nothing but planning is getting done. That's ok too, I guess. It just leavs me with a lot on my mind, and nothing physical to show for it.
June 26, 2006Another happy memory. That's me with Jeremy (when I was head over heels in love with him), my older sister Janice, her niece Brook (on her lap), and Janice's own children Jillian (between me & Janice) & (top to bottom) Jonathan, Justin & Jordan - at my grandmother's house. I'm going to the fair with Janice's family on Friday.
My Trek TITAN book continues to surprise. Yay. :-0)
I should be eating and getting ready for the movie. I'm going to see if Michael wants to go. Maybe Preston could come too? I don't know though; he has A.D.D. or something - but I know he likes movies. I want to be a good friend. Perhaps I'll end up not bringing anyone. lol. I'm so weird, sometimes. lol
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I made it to the movie ontime. I didn't bring anyone with me after all, but I met up with Chris and Bryan. Perris was there too, but it was apparently an accident, and he didn't see Hellboy II.
About the movie. I would say that it was a bit better than the first one, so if you liked that one, then you'll probably love this one. I thought the first one was ok, and I liked this one. My only complaint is that they sort of telegraphed the ending, as they often do in movies. I knew (as I suspect most people did) exactly how the movie had to end, which is a shame really, because it's really quite beautiful, it could have been perfection...only it wasn't. It wasn't as good as "Pan's Labyrinth", but it was better than "Mimic" or "Blade II"; it actually had quite a bit in common with the latter, and in many ways felt like a 2nd pass at that film.
My favorite character in the film.There was also a giant plant monster that I rather liked.
But this character (which reminded me of a creature from the Buffy spin-off, Angel) is featured in my favorite scene in the film, and it's this scene that left me hungry for a final chapter in the Hellboy saga. Hopefully one day we'll get it.So Michael didn't come because he hadn't seen the first one, and he was visiting with his friend Rob. Rob is cool. Also, the 2nd film was set up so that you don't have to see the first one, but I didn't know that, or otherwise I might have been able to get him to go. I hope he had a good night.
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Thursday, July 24, 2008
Brian's birthday. Stuck in my brain forever. He's 32 today. The Brian that this poem was dedicated to, among others. Happy Birthday Brian.
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Woke up with another headache. Ick.
It's now being rumored that this season's finale of The Sarah Jane Adventures will be titled "Old Friends, Parts I & II". It's also been rumored, and all but confirmed that this story brings back The Bane, The Sontarans & Sir Alistair Gordon Lethbridge-Stewart. Sounds like fun.
Mark is awake, but not getting ready for work. I wonder if he's not feeling well either?
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So...I'm not going to the fair on Friday after all. Janice's week has been pretty busy. But there's some good news here. We're going to the Monroe Fair instead, which is bigger, and always had the best rides when I was a kid. We're going on Wednesday. I called work to make sure I could get it off, and the schedule had already been done, and I'm not working at all that week. That's the bad news. That will make at least 22 consecutive days that I haven't worked. I'm going to have to return my bicycle just to have some cash. This sucks. I guess we're way over labor at work, but not scheduling me isn't the answer, and seems a bit unfair - unless there are other workers that are being set aside as well. I'll have to go talk to DJ about this.
Blah.
At least my headache is gone.
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Oh. And Corey isn't coming over tonight after all. I took Thursday & Friday off because he was supposed to come over both nights. Then when he wasn't coming on Friday, I had the plans for the fair, but now I've just not worked 2 days, for no apparent reason. My plans seldom if ever work out though, so I guess I shouldn't be shocked. I'm not really that upset about not seeing Corey. It would have been nice, but I wasn't desperate to see him or anything. Maybe I'll see him next month or something?
I went downtown earlier and hung out with Preston. I met a bunch of his friends, including an interesting array of homeless people. I took Preston to Pizza House and made him eat something. It feels good being good to him.
I hate the feel and smell of sunblock.
I should see if Michael can go to the fair with me on Wednesday. :-0)
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Friday, July 25, 2008
I hung out with Preston briefly, then left to get groceries. I stopped at Aut Bar and ran into my old friend Jordan, who had been in a terrible car accident, and then found through tests they did that he has cancer! Thankfully the tests got the cancer at an early stage, so it's likely that they'll be able to help him.
Jordan & I - May 2006.I met his friends Shane & Travis (a cute couple). Travis is 26, a leo (his b-day is the 6th or the 9th), and had seen me on my website years ago. lol. I met two guys named Dick & Jim; Jim was cool. I met a lot of people. I had meant to only stay for a minute, but then stayed until about 1:20am. I saw that I had a missed call from Michael while I was there and called him back, explaining about Corey not coming over. I also asked him about the fair on Wednesday, but he'll be out of state. :-0( Oh well.
After that I went grocery shopping. It's so weird now, because I see things that I can eat now that I couldn't before. Like Mountain Dew, and Cookies & Cream Ice Cream. It's cool. I'll try those later. I'm worried I'm gonna get fat eating all this stuff, which was just impossible a few months ago. Oh well. There are worse things. lol
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I just finished updating my galleries-in-progress. I did two pages of photos, most of which have never been on my site before, while older ones have been cropped or flipper or slightly changed in someway to make them seem fresher. I've only finished 21 of 50 pages, which I swore to myself years ago I'd finish before I opened them to the public, but I haven't been taking new ones (from 2008) to mix in with the older ones. Anything from 2006 onwards is new to the site, and unavailable in the current galleries, which I'm sick of, and would like to drop ASAP.
Ok. So...I've finished that, and now I can't find my magic stomach pills. I took the bottle with me to Pizza House earlier so I could eat, which was wonderful. And the thing is, I'm pretty sure I had some more later on, at home...I remember taking one, while I was on the phone with Mollie earlier, which was around 10:30pm, so I know I got the pills back home. But did I have them with me when I left again? I don't think I did, but I'm not really sure. If I didn't have them with me, then my pills are still in the house, which is nice, except that I've looked for them and can't find them, which sucks, because I'm hungry. I guess I should keep looking for them.
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Fuck. I can't find them, and I have no idea where they could be. And I need them to eat. And I just got them filled, and I need my doctor to change the perscription, and that's going to take time, that I don't fucking have. I'm such a moron. But I had them with me so I could eat, so it's not like I just randomly took them outside... Erg. They're probably sitting in plain site, and I'm just too pissed off to see them. I've checked downstairs. All around. If they fell out somewhere, it just seems like I'd notice. They wouldn't do anyone else any good. They're not painkillers, and I imagine if your stomach already worked, they might seriously fuck you up.
Erg.
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Found Them! Whew. Just as I suspected; in plain sight. On my bed, where I left them. I'm such a spaz sometimes! lol
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I woke up around 2pm. I've eaten; showered; updated my website on various matters; read the news and my e-mail. And now I find myself rather bored.
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I just revised some stuff for my new galleries, and set up 2 more pages of photos. I imagine I'll complete the galleries in the next 2 years. I decided sometime ago, that I'd finish the project, by adding new pictures to all 50 pages, giving them all a current crop of photos, so that at least 1 photo on every page will be completely up to date. This is another one of those things that I spend a lot of time thinking about, that I doubt anyone really cares about except me. lol
posted by Bald Jason at 07:24 PM
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Saturday, July 26, 2008
I went to Necto around 11pm on Friday. I met some cool people (Dwayne, Chris), and ran into others (Preston, Franklin, Fabio, Keevan, Becky, Ray - who's moving to Kansas on Monday, and DJ Mark, who's birthday it was). I had a good time. The music didn't completely suck this week. Preston and I had some fun, though he didn't chill with me after, as I'd hoped he would. I chilled out a lot in the Obama campaign table with my new 23 yo, cute as a button friend Dwayne. Oh, and Cal was there too, from HARC. Keeven might come over later today to see the Doctor Who finale ;-0)
I'm gonna have a snack and chill out.
posted by Bald Jason at 03:03 AM
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I just watched a movie from my GLBT inclusive shelf called "Summer Storm". I'd been meaning to watch it for a long time now. I liked it.
posted by Bald Jason at 05:42 AM
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I woke up off and on today, but I'm pretty sure I'm Awake now. ;-0) My stomach is slightly upset, but not even in the same league as it used to be, which is good. Probably from all that I ate and drank last night. Keevan hasn't called about coming to watch Doctor Who, so that's probably not happening...unless he calls later.
The only thing I didn't like about that movie last night, was the use of the song "Flames" by VAST. The song fit the film; it just distracted me, personally. I had a really erotic and emotional dream set to that song a little over 8 years ago; then I put the song on a cd for an ex of mine and I kind of put the song to bed. Hearing it again stirs old feelings instead of the ones intended for the film... And it was weird hearing it somewhere, when I've never heard of anyone else even liking it. I know I can't have been the only one, but to me it was this obscure little song, which made it even more special to me...but at least I had it to myself for 8 years. lol ;-0)
I need to clip my fingernails. There are other things I could get done today...we'll see if I actually do them though.
posted by Bald Jason at 03:22 PM
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Sunday, July 27, 2008
I can't sleep. I've been trying, but...no zzzs.
Keev did call yesterday and came over. He enjoyed the finale Who episodes, and we got to chat. He seemed to like my collage. It was a fun, brief visit. Later I took a nap, then went and got pizza, and some grocery items. I also made plans to hang out with Jordan on Tuesday. Then I went to Aut Bar to say goodbye to Ray. Later I chatted online with Michael, Karen, Corey and some other folks. Karen and I made plans for me to pick her up from work at 11pm tonight, and then she'll come over and watch some Doctor Who; yay - another convert! :-0)
I also had a text exchange with Bobby, who wants to do a photoshoot today, which I'd been hoping to do this weekend with Mark anyways, so that's cool. I'm so in need of new photos for my website, though I've been doing the best with what I have. When this update finally happens, it will be almost completely made up of new to the site photos, which is cool. I'm finding a lot of things cool lately. lol
There's a chance that I'll be able to get the new Doctor Who mini-episode in some form later this morning.
posted by Bald Jason at 06:09 AM
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I had a dream this week, that I keep forgetting to mention. In the dream I was chatting to River Phoenix. I can't remember what he was telling me, but it's one of those dreams that keeps coming back to me in bits and pieces. I have a piece of River Phoenix art on my wall; not art that he did, but that someone did of him. A few years ago I considered mixing a River Phoenix cd, with snippets of dialogue from his movies mixed with songs dedicated to the actor, or referencing him in some way. He was born August 23, 1970 (the same day as my older sister) and he died October 31, 1993 - I was with my then boyfriend Jeff when I heard the news, shortly after Halloween, and there was a large fire that night. I don't think that any of this has to do with the dream... I'm pretty sure it was inspired by Preston and his friends that I met downtown, as they reminded me of "My Own Private Idaho".
posted by Bald Jason at 06:17 AM
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A New Pointless Doctor Who List!
Spoilers for the 3-Part finale to Season 30 of the Whonviverse!
These episodes are:
801 Turn Left [Part I]
802 The Stolen Earth [Part II]
803 Journey's End [Part III]These episodes revisit almost every major event of the New Whoniverse thus far, and are tied into every episode of the New Whoniverse thus far. To demonstrate this I've made this handy, if random and pointless list.
Returning / Revisited Characters, Places & Things:
The Adipose
Last seen in #784: "The Poison Sky", in a flashback to #775: "Partners in Crime".10
Last seen in #796: "Midnight".ATMOS
Last seen in #784: "The Poison Sky".Gwen Cooper
Last seen in #800: "Exit Wounds".The Daleks
Last seen in #750: "Evolution of the Daleks"; last mentioned in #793: "Forest of the Dead".Dalek Caan
Last seen in #750: "Evolution of the Daleks".Davros
Last seen in #682: "Remembrance of the Daleks, Part IV"; last referenced in #750: "Evolution of the Daleks".Captain Jack Harkness / The Face of Boe
Last seen as Jack in #800: "Exit Wounds"; last seen as The Face of Boe in #762: "Utopia" in flashback to episode #745: "Gridlock".Captain Jack's Defabricator Gun
Last seen in #720: "The Parting of the Ways".Private Harris
Last seen in #784: "The Poison Sky".H.C. Clements
Last seen in #737: "The Runaway Bride".Francine Jones
Last seen in #764: "Last of the Time Lords".Harriet Jones
Last seen in #722: "The Christmas Invasion"; last mentioned in #763: "The Sound of Drums".Ianto Jones
Last seen in #800: "Exit Wounds".Martha Jones
Last seen in #785: "The Doctor's Daughter"; last mentioned in #796: "Midnight".Tish Jones
Last seen in #764: "Last of the Time Lords".The Judoon
Last seen in #741: "Smith and Jones"; last mentioned in #773: "Revenge of the Slitheen, Part II".K9
Last seen in #798: "The Lost Boy, Part II".The Medusa Cascade
1st appearance of the Medusa Cascade; it's been mentioned in various episodes, including #764: "Last of the Time Lords", #775: "Partners in Crime", #777 "The Fires of Pompeii", #783: "The Sontaran Stratagem" & #796: "Midnight".Oliver Morgenstern
Last seen in #741: "Smith and Jones".Wilfred Mott
Last seen in #784: "The Poison Sky".Donna Noble
Last seen in #796: "Midnight".Sylvia Noble
Last seen in #784: "The Poison Sky".Regeneration
The Doctor last regenerated in #720: "The Parting of the Ways"; The Master in #762: "Utopia".Royal Hope Hospital
Last seen in #741: "Smith and Jones".The Shadow Proclamation
1st appeared here, but often referenced; I don't even know how many times, though it was certainly referenced in #708: "Rose", #722: "The Christmas Invasion", and #775: "Partners in Crime".Luke Smith
Last seen in #798: "The Lost Boy, Part II".Mickey Smith
Last seen in #736: "Doomsday"; last mentioned in #762: "Utopia".Mr. Smith
Last seen in #798: "The Lost Boy, Part II".Sarah Jane Smith
Last seen in #798: "The Lost Boy, Part II".Sarah's House / Car
Last seen in #798: "The Lost Boy, Part II".The TARDIS
Last seen in #793: "Forest of the Dead".The Titanic
Last seen in #766: "Voyage of the Damned"; last mentioned in #775: "Partners in Crime".Torchwood / The Hub
Last seen in #800: "Exit Wounds".Jackie Tyler
Last seen in #736: "Doomsday"; last mentioned in #762: "Utopia".Rose Tyler
Last seen in #796: "Midnight".UNIT
Last seen in #799: "Fragments".The Valiant
Last seen in #784: "The Poison Sky".The Web Star
Last seen in #766: "Voyage of the Damned" in flashback to #737: "The Runaway Bride".Trinity Wells
Last seen in #784: "The Poison Sky"Later I'll list things that were seen in flashback; mentioned and referenced...but perhaps I can sleep now?
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I slept well. Mostly. No headaches or stomach problems today. Yay! Bored though. I haven't heard from B. about taking pictures today. Something always seems to get in the way of that. If I believed in god (lower case intended) then I'd think it was trying to tell me something, but as it is, I think we both just have really crappy luck, which when combined causes all sorts of things to go wrong. lol
I'm hanging out with Karen tonight, unless that falls apart too. ;-0)
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Monday, July 28, 2008
I returned my bicycle last night, which made me sad. It was pretty. And fun. But I can't afford it right now, as I'm broke, and the hours I would usually have had at work to cover the cost of the bicycle have disappeared without any warning. :-0(
I picked up Karen from Meijer ontime. We watched "Journey's End", then ate and talked about it, before calling Mollie and chatting with her awhile. Later we watched "Rose", and then I took her home, as it was now after 3:30am, and we were both kind of tired, though I knew I was only tired because of my pills. We might hang out again Thursday night.
When I got home, I chatted a bit, then read about 30 pages of the Titan book, and watched the first half of Star Trek: Nemesis, which I've only seen twice before. I think I'm enjoying it more this time than the previous viewings, which didn't impress me at all. I went to bed around 6:30am.
I woke up around 2pm. I read the mail. I worked on my room; putting up 5 pictures in random places; all of them trouble spots, that I'd planned on, which seem to be working out...I'd have done more but I'm nearly out of tape, and ink, which are both required for the next bits.
I just took my pills. I'll eat in about a half an hour. I'm starting to get a headache, but I think it's just because I haven't eaten. If I still have it when I'm finished eating I might take something...it's actually getting kind of bad, so I should probably take something now. My pills don't always work if I wait. My pills have been really good about getting rid of my physical ailments of late, which is what they're there for, so that's cool.
I'm planning on going to Necto tonight. Though when I plan things they tend to not happen, so don't assume I'm going to be there. lol
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My headache is gone, and my new galleries are 50% finished! :-0) Go Me! I still have a ton of work to do on those galleries, but I'm enjoying this moment for what it is. Hooray! :-0)
And though my headache is 'gone'; I think a long hot shower would do me some good, so off I go. :-0)
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Tuesday, July 29, 2008
When Mark got home from work, we cuddled and had a nice chat about everything that's going on lately with his work, and my collage and stuff. That's one of the really great things of living with one of your best friends. :-0)
Later I ate, but my pills didn't work. The thing is, that I can eat a lot of one thing, but not another, so my learning curve is far more complex than if the amount of food I could eat was a constant. I'm sure I'll eventually pick up on all the intricate measurements and stuff...and if I don't, at least the pills help most of the time. ;-0)
I went to Necto last night, and had a mostly fabulous time, meeting new peeps like Patrick, Ruth, Liz & Liz - while running into other recent peeps, and old friends like Steven. But even though these people made my night better, my night was haunted by the unforseen disaster which ended (or at the very least, devastated) what I expected to be a continuing friendship with Preston Clayton.
To get the story of of Preston you can read old entries here, here, here, here, here & here. I think that's all the entries in which he's mentioned. If you don't want to read all that, I can try to explain our brief history here, but if you've read this part you can skip this re-introduction.
I met 18yo Preston James Clayton at the Aut Bar in the early morning hours of Thursday July 17, 2008. We struck up a conversation after he grabbed my shoulder while walking out of the bar. The converation continued after his friends left; after it began to rain; after we went back in the bar...and left the bar, and hung out in my car. It was nice. He amused me. I amused him, or so he said. I went home that morning feeling good about this new friendship with this interesting fellow.
We chatted online soon after. He told me I should go to Necto on Monday because he was going to be there. I ran into him there, and I brought him home with me after he told me he was homeless. He told me that he'd been thrown out by his prostitute Grandmother (whom his parents live with, in Manchester) for being gay!?! I over-identified complelely. I showered with him, and let him sleep in my bed, but wouldn't let him have sex with me; telling him that it seemed like he needed friends now, far more than he needed a boyfriend. He stayed until 4pm the next day and then wandered downtown to meet some friends. Later he e-mailed me this message:
----- Original Message -----
From: "Preston Clayton"
To: [e-mail removed]
Sent: Tuesday, July 22, 2008 8:34 PM
Subject: Hey Sir.Hey Jason,
So this is the only email I have for you so I thought I might as well email you instead of leaving a voice mail on your phone :-P
I am really glad we spent the night together. You made me really happy. I haven't actually enjoyed life in a while. I was being truthful when I said that you scared me just for the fact of you caring. Not very many people do and when they do it just ends up being a charade.
I am careful who I trust now-a-days. But, I sit here smelling my shirt and it smells like you. I can't help but smile and wish I was still there with you. While you were sleeping I laid there awake for a little bit and contempated my decisions about my lifestyle choices in the whole "Togetherness" Factor.
You really made my heart skip a beat when you said "Friends" because for some reason at that exact moment I was thinking of use actually being together. I don't want to be a charity case at all. I have struggled and yet I still survive.
I miss you already. I really do care about you.
Love,
Preston
------------------Which I thought was really sweet. But I had just talked to him on the phone before I got this message, and I had come to the conclusion that I had been right not to jump the gun on doing anything with him, sweet and cute though he was. The 'Love' part didn't escape my attention. I needed to reaffirm that I liked him, but that now wasn't the best time to start anything. I responded thusly:
----- Original Message -----
From: [e-mail removed]
To: "Preston Clayton"
Sent: Wednesday, July 23, 2008 1:17 AM
Subject: Re: Hey Sir."To Sir, With Love" - I love that movie...and song.
I just got this e-mail. I didn't get it before I called you.
Anything sent to @gothboboy.com will come to me. [e-mail addresses removed because I don't want spam] I own gothboy.com. ;-0)
I'm glad we spent last night together too. I've enjoyed your company since the moment I met you, and last night was no exception. Aside from the tickling. lol It makes me feel good that I could make you smile...and be happy. You were doing the same things for me. It was very balanced; very equal.
My caring about you isn't a charade; I can assure you of that. But maybe you don't understand why I care. I tried to explain this a little bit in that you remind me of myself a little bit, and of how lucky I've been. I want to make sure you are as lucky. I've also been quite taken with your strength, and your humor and your innocence...and your everything really.
When I was younger I had similar friends who didn't survive. You remind me of them a lot, and I'd hate to see you end up like them. It would hurt me.I understand about the shirt thing. After you left, my bed smelled like you, and it made me smile. It sort of felt like you were still there, holding me. It might seem odd that someone so much older than you would find that comforting, but I did. I wouldn't have told you if you hadn't
mentioned the shirt. ;-0)I don't think of you as a charity case at all. I admire you. I admire your strength of character, and youre ability to surive circumstances than many others do not; can not; choose not too. You've endeared yourself to me in ways that you (and maybe I) can't begin to comprehend. I think you're cute, funny, original, sexy, sad, shocking, sweet, inspiring and all kinds of other things that I don't have room to list here. I look forward to getting to know you better.
About the 'friends' thing. I'm attracted to you, which I think is more than obvious. And I care about you (which I hope you believe because it's the truth), and I don't want to ever hurt you. Part of the friend thing is that it just seems with so much upset in your life right now, that adding a relationship to the mix might not be the best decision for us. I mean...relationships can be hard under the best of circumstances, but neither one of us is at a great place at the moment - though our circumstances are very different. I'm not worried about the age difference. I'm worried that if we were to dive into something right now we might regret it later. Part of that, is that while I'm officially 'single', I've been sleeping with 2 of my ex-boyfriends, and been seeing this guy named Jordan. I've never done anything like this in my entire life before, and that alone is confusing to me. I'm not lying to anyone, or holding anything back (and none of them has a problem with my behavior - unless they're being dishonest with me), but I feel weird about the whole situation, and I know it can't last. Then there's all this stuff where I'm dealing with all these new drugs I'm on and how they make me feel. You don't even know about all of them. Some of them affect my mood, and I'm working with my doctors to master all these crazy things. Basically, what I'm saying is that me wanting to be friends with you isn't about me not liking you, but about me liking you a lot. I don't want to drag you into my madness and fuck you over.
But even that isn't a refusal of the possabilities between us. I mean...Why the rush? I mean...if we start out as friends, I think we'll be friends forever. And perhaps we'll become something more. If we do, that would be fantastic! If we don't...friendship really isn't that bad. :-0) I mean...sure I'll be jealous of the people you date, and probably say mean things about them...lol...but that's just me being me. I'll look out for you. And you'll know that I actually care about it, and I'm not trying to use you - or look after you just because you give killer head...or have a cock that makes me want to do naughty things. lol :-0)
There's more that I want to say but I feel like I'm tired and rambling. I'm sorry if I've said too much; I have a hard time censoring myself. But I've really enjoyed all the time we've spent together, and I'd like to spend even more time with you. And the thought of you thinking about your life...in relation to me, while I was asleep, makes me smile. The idea of you enjoying the smell of me on your shirt makes my heart sing. And the idea of knowing you for the rest of our lives is such a joy, that I can't even begin to express it.
That's all for now.
Ok? :-0)
Bald Jason
http://www.gothboy.com
---------------------------Later on, the same day I sent him my reply, I invited him to see Hellboy II with me and some friends, but he was busy, shopping at the Adrian Mall with his Uncle, where he got new sandals. He told me that he bought something for me as well, and that I'd find out what it was the next time I kissed him. I never found out what he got me, and now I doubt I ever will.
The next day, Thursday July 24, Preston invited me downtown to meet some of his friends. He didn't have my gift with him, which was fine with me; that's not why I wanted to hang out with him. He was tripping on Molly (ecstacy) that he'd bought for $10 from a 'friend'. I still went to see him though, and we had a nice visit. Apparently the drug wasn't really working. I took him to Pizza House and bought him some soup. While we were alone he was so cool, but when we were around his friends he acted more stand offish, which I didn't understand. I came back to see him and his friends later that night on my way to get groceries, but they were just heading out to one of their homes on North Campus and had to catch a bus; Preston seemed to be stoned again.
On Friday, July 25, I saw Preston at Necto, and he seemed happy to see me, insisting that I dance with him. I gave him a poem that I had written that day for him, trying to express how much I enjoyed spending time with just him, because I liked who he was when it was just the two of us; here is that poem:
Mystery of Preston
From the first moment...
I've loved who you are
when it's only just us...Nothing distracting the truth
of the two of us.Just our eyes locked
across voids we can't place...The hurt and the kindness
as it lights up your face...The pain you keep hidden
and the light you can't see...I like you best
when you are with me.Written by Jason Wright
July 25, 2008For: Preston James Clayton
---------------------------Preston told me that he liked the poem, and then he kissed me. He seemed to be annoyed that I wasn't dancing as much as he was, but I told him that I didn't like the music. I spent a lot of time with another boy named Dwayne, who was encouraging people to register to vote, at a booth, and promoting Obama for President. Dwayne was amusing me, and I wasn't dating Preston, so I didn't see a problem with this; especially since I'd just given Preston a poem explaining just how much I enjoyed spending time with him. At the end of the night, Preston accidentally punched me in the nose, but apologised profusely for it, and said he felt like shit. I thought it was just an accident. I was hoping that we'd get to hang out after the bar, but he had to go to a friend's house.
I didn't talk to Preston on Saturday or Sunday, or Monday before the bar. I arrived at Necto Monday night (July 28), and some of Preston's friends told me he was there, and some of them even hugged me, which was nice. I assumed all was right with the world. Only it wasn't. I couldn't find Preston, which wasn't that surprising since I'm pretty blind without my glasses, and I'd left them in the car. I later ran into Preston's friend Jeremy, who asked me if I'd seen Preston, and then told me that Preston was 'rolling hard'; that he'd taken some drug for the first time, and that he couldn't stop dancing; that his friend Angie had to physically pull him off the dance floor because they were afraid he was going to die of dehydration! I later caught up with Preston and asked him if he was going to be ok, but he just kept telling me he was fine. I don't really enjoy being around people when they're tripping, and he was chilling with his buds, so I went my own way.
I started hanging out with this guy that I'd met earlier, while looking for Preston, named Patrick. It actually turned out that Patrick knew Preston, as did most of Patrick's friends, which I didn't expect. That actually turned out to be a good thing. One of the friend's, a cute almost 23yo named Ruth (who took some fun pictures of me), told me that Preston was talking shit about me; saying that I was stalking him, and that I'd written a poem for him, and that he was planning on punching me at the end of the night!?! I was so in shock, which was obvious to everyone, and they just fell on me in a kind of group comforting...which saved my night from going to Hell. They seriously made me have a good time, when everything said that I shouldn't. It didn't hurt that Patrick was so adorable, and the girls were so funny, sweet, and lively. I took them all out to Pizza House after the bar, and we had a blast. Ruth said she'd e-mail me the pictures, along with some really monstrous e-mails that she had from Preston, to demonstrate what a drama queen he really is, which is why all these people that knew preston first were on my side. I even showed them all the calls in my history from Preston to me, to show them that I wasn't stalking him, but that there was an exchange of calls and texts and things. But they didn't need to be convinced; they just knew he was fucked up. They didn't know he was on anything though. Ruth and Patrick wanted me to come to Necto on Friday, but I told them it wasn't really my music, and I didn't want to see Preston, but Ruth says she'll keep him away from me, and one of the Liz girls said if he hit me she'd punch him in the throat, which made me smile.
We were all tired after all that drama, so I showed them how to get back to Main Street, and a gas station, and then we went our separate ways.
When I got home, I typed a lot of this out, and then accidentally deleted it. I talked to Mark for awhile, and then started again. While the mistake was annoying, it helped me order my thoughts, so this turned out far better this time around.
Now I don't know what to think about Preston. I took him off my top 40 Myspace Friends list. I blocked him on AIM & Yahoo Messanger. I don't want to talk to him for fear of him using that as more ammo in the Jason is a stalker shit storm...but I don't understand what the fuck happened, except that I think I do. I think that my caring for him bothered him, and freaked him out - I mean, he told me that himself in person and that e-mail - so he felt scared. Then he saw me talking to other guys, so now he's scared I'm gonna hurt him, and jealous. Then he adds drugs to the mix. And I think that this combination turned him into a little bitch. But does that mean the friendship is over? I think that mostly depends on what he does next.
Anyways, I think I'm gonna switch my new galleries on so that they replace the old galleries, and then just continue to work on them while people gawk at them; that's how I used to work on them. That way people can see the new galleries now, which already hold more pictures than the old ones ever did. ;-0)
posted by Bald Jason at 05:25 AM
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Done. My new galleries are now open, with 25 of 50 pages set to go. I'll finish the other 25 pages, and then update each of the 50 pages with new photos as they come in. You can see the new galleries here.
posted by Bald Jason at 06:32 AM
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I couldn't sleep. I got another page done on my new galleries. Page 26 is now finished...at least until the next update. lol
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I went to bed around 9:30am. I woke up around 3:30pm. I could probably sleep more, but I'm gonna try to sleep a bit more tonight, in case we go to the Monroe Fair tomorrow (though if it looks like it's gonna rain, we're gonna go on Friday instead). I have new texts from Ruth and Patrick. Jordan & I just spoke on the phone, and we're gonna hang out tonight, around 7 or 8. ;-0)
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I talked to Mollie on the phone for awhile; she saw Hellboy II last night with her brother Kenny, and she enjoyed it the same way I did, with the same minor complaints. :-0) I got an e-mail from Ruth, with pictures that she took of me last night, which I used to complete Page 27 of my new galleries; mixing them in with older photos, new and newly edited to my site.
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I just took a quick bath.
"Thunder only happens when it's raining;
Players only love you when they're playing;
women they will come and they will go..."Patrick asked me last night if I'm a player. Ever since, I've had "Thunder Only Happens When It's Raining" stuck in my head. I told him I'm not. But what if I am? I mean...is player status dependant on perspective? I mean...I might seem like a player to an 18yo virgin. I mean, I enjoy sex. I can't remember a time when I wasn't having sex. The longest I've gone without some form of sex since I was 4 years old is 9 months. And yet I don't even feel like a whore, when I know people that hook up randomly with random people on a regular basis, which I've seldom if ever done. I know my sexuality though; I know what I like, and how I like it, and when I like it. I'm not ashamed of that; that's actually one of the things that I love about my age; that I know more about myself now than I did then. I've hooked up with several men that I knew I wasn't likely to see a 2nd time, but for me, I've learned that I have to reach a certain comfort level with them, based on our chemistry, and how well we connect, and if we reach that instinctively defined space, then I never regret the sex that follows. But do I seek out those kinds of encounters? Do I play people against each other? Do I lie to my partners or try to hurt them. No. No I don't.
"When the rain washes you clean you'll know...."
:-0)
My stomach feels kind of iffy. Hopefully, that will pass. I haven't seen Jordan in so long, it will be nice to hang out.
posted by Bald Jason at 06:07 PM
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Jordan said he'd be here about 8:30pm, but he's still not here. I'm sure he'll be here soon. I cleaned my room up a bit, took a shower, and played some Sypro. I also called my doctor to let her know my pharmacy info, so she could let them know that my dosage changed weeks ago, so they don't think I'm taking too much or something. Now I'm listening to random tunes, doing some laundry, and I might read some more. I'm so loving my book.
posted by Bald Jason at 09:05 PM
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Jordan just left. He couldn't spend the night because his mom needs his car in the morning. We had a good time, and a really cool conversation...which has left me with a lot to think about. Good stuff. We'll see where it leads me. I never spoke to Janice today, so I have no idea if we're going to the fair tomorrow, or Friday. I guess I could check to see if it's supposed to rain tomorrow. hmmm.
I'm hungry.
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Wednesday, July 30, 2008
The teaser for Harry Potter 6 is out and it looks fucking amazing!!! I'm so happy that the crew from the 5th movie is handling this one, as I think the 5th was the best one yet! I'm so geeked about this movie now! :-0)
posted by Bald Jason at 12:06 AM
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I slept for a bit. Read some more (I've got 158 pages left). Read the news. Did more laundry. Played more Spyro (37% finished). Took some antacids. I haven't been very acidy lately, at all, but tonight I have been, which kind of sucks. Anyways...that's what I've been up to. It looks like it's going to rain today, so I'm guessing I'm going to the fair on Friday. I'll call Janice soon, just to be sure.
I've read 3 reviews of the new X-Files movie. 1 gave it a nearly perfect rating, while talking about how it wasn't very good. The other 2 talked about how crappy it was, and both made a point to comment on the homophobia that exists in the film; you can read those reviews here & here. Not wanting to see this at all now.
posted by Bald Jason at 07:00 AM
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My stomach is suddenly really upset. So far, today is sucking.
posted by Bald Jason at 07:28 AM
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So, I called Janice, and she's still going to the fair today. Without me. When we planned this together, and she'd said that if it rained we could go on Friday, which I like to believe I'll be feeling better by. Words can't express how disappointed I am; in myself for being so defective; in my sister for dashing my hopes; in myself for getting my hopes up in the first place.
posted by Bald Jason at 07:38 AM
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I slept. Woke up still feeling crappy. But I decided I was gonna do my best to get over that, which included taking my Zombie meds, though I was loathe to take them before. I also took my food meds, which I got a call back from my doctor about, saying they called in my prescription, meaning I shouldn't have to worry about those for awhile. Anyways...my zombie meds should take care of what hasn't been taken care of yet...but sometimes they take awhile - so even though I was trying to put my best spin on everything...I wasn't sure it was going to take.
And then Janice called. I assumed she was checking to see if I was going. She was calling to say that she'd talked it over with her husband Jerry, and that it was ok if we went without him on Friday. I could tell by her tone that she felt bad about the way she had spoken to me earlier, and knew that she had hurt me. Earlier she made me cry. Now I'm crying again, only it's a happy kind of thing. I have until Friday to feel better, which I'm sure I can manage. I'm pretty sure the acid thing was me forgetting my 2nd dose of prilosec and then eating garlic bread, and sleeping right after. The other thing might be related to that as well, but the zombie meds can clear that up after a dose or two, so I'll take it again tomorrow or Friday - though if I'd gotten the news from Janice 20 minutes earlier, I would have not taken it, but gotten pizza or something. Oh well. Beggars can't be choosers.
posted by Bald Jason at 11:50 AM
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My pill kicked in a long while back; hours ago. I'm in heavy zombie mode. It takes me a long time to move, or decide to move, or get myself to move. Why move when everything is so mesmerizing? lol It's weird, but hopefully the pill will help. I actually have to take my other stomach pills so I can eat some soup.
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