In the year 1991 my homosexuality was becoming harder & harder to conceal from those that did not already know the truth. Not being OUT with everyone (something I felt was somewhat necessary given my close ties at church) was weighing on me, & my depression was growing darker with every day. All of that seems achingly clear as I look over the poetry that I wrote that year. Several of the poems have the "word" BOR attached to them. What is BOR? BOR is simply Rob spelled backwards - a boy I lusted after endlessly, whom I met in my Baptist youth group.
THE MASQUERADE BALL, PART I: THE LAST OF THE MASQUE - 02/26/91
THE MASQUERADE BALL, PART II: THE QUEEN - 02/27/91
THE WOMAN OF MY DREAMS - 02/28/91
VAMPIRE DREAMS - 04/24/91
VAMPIRE DREAMS 2: CREATURE OF THE NIGHT - 04/25/91
BRIAN - 04/30/91
A WINTER'S DREAM - 08/21/91
NIGHTMARES - 09/09/91
PHANTOM - 09/18/91
PRELUDE: BOR - 09/20/91
(BOR) FROM BOY TO MAN, PART I: CHILDREN OF THE NIGHT - 09/22/91
(BOR) FROM BOY TO MAN, PART II: SUFFER THE LITTLE CHILDREN - 09/22/91
(BOR) FROM BOY TO MAN, PART III: THE CHILDREN SHALL ENDURE (1) - 09/22/91
(BOR) WE ARE THE CHILDREN, PART I: HELL IS FOR CHILDREN - 09/26/91
(BOR) WE ARE THE CHILDREN, PART II: WHEN THE CHILDREN CRY - 09/26/91
(BOR) WE ARE THE CHILDREN, PART III: THE CHILDREN WILL UNITE - 09/26/91
(BOR) HOPE IS A CHILD: A CHILD SHALL LEAD THEM - 09/29/91
(TRE-BOR) THE CHILDREN SHALL ENDURE (2) - 09/30/91
NINE AND ONE HALF - 10/01/91
(BOR) MOUTHS OF CHILDREN, PART I: WHISPERS IN THE DARK - 10/01/91
MINIONS WE - 10/09/91
A KNIGHT TO REMEMBER -10/10/91
LOVING THE STRANGER - 10/15/91
(BOR) CHILD OF DREAMS AND WISHES - 10/15/91
(BOR) MOUTHS OF CHILDREN, PART II: WHISPER TO A SCREAM - 10/18/91
(BOR) WHAT CHILD IS THIS? - 10/22/91
(BOR) MOUTHS OF CHILDREN, PART III: WHISPERS FROM THE PAST - 11/05/91
REVELATION - 11/22/91
(BOR) CHILDISH THINGS, PART I: BLOOD OF THE CHILDREN - 12/01/91
(BOR) CHILDISH THINGS, PART II: WHAT THE CHILDREN SAY - 12/03/91